Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 100 (1)

*seungcheol*

"you have to baby, it's for your own good. you know, if only i could, i would give you anything, but you know i couldn't so please... please baby, come with them." 

i shook my head as an indication for my mom not to let me go with my father but she just nod her head and slowly letting go of my hands but i keep on holding onto her just for me not to let go of her grip.. and guess that fate had us meant to be parted in this time that she was the one who let go of our grip together as she sobbed so hard before she turn around, and ran away inside the airport which i was left no choice but to screamed her name, hoping that she'll hear me and she would comeback... but she never did. 

my father tightened his grip into my body then he blatantly told me that my mom doesn't love me and he convinced me that he will be the one who would raise me in this cruel world. and because i was just a kid back then, naniwala ako sakanya na my mom doesn't love me so it was easy for her to let me go and left me here in korea and kasi my father had showed me enough na sya, kaya nya kong mahalin as his son even though he has another family, and he has another son beside me to another women. 

it was okay, i was living the way i want when i was in my middle school. they were the one who provided all my needs, they gave me shelter to go home, they gave me money, they paid for my tuition, they feed me, everything a family does... but when i reached college, my father had told me to take business administration, pero hindi ko sinunod. bakit? because my mom reminded me of architecture, she reminded me of the paintings i used to witness her draw every time when we were still together.. so i choose it instead. 

kahit sa pamamagitan lang nang kurso ko, maramdaman ko na kasama ko sya. even though she was miles away from me, and she's on the other side of the world. spain to be exact. 

"i told you to take business ad seungcheol, yun lang naman gagawin mo bakit hindi mo ginawa?!" 

i swallowed hard. "im not good at math, plus I don't see myself being an accountant or ceo.. i want to be an architect, dad. i want to be just like my mom." 

the side of his lips rose up, "and so you thought you have a future of being an architect? tandaan mo, you are nothing unless you got an engineer. wala kang mapapala dyan sa kurso na yan." 

and so does the whole family doesn't like of me taking an architecture.. they always had to say over to my works, over to what i am doing related to my course, they always judging me at everything i did and they always saying that i don't have a bright future if i continue taking this nonsense course.. but of course, hindi ako naniwala. i know my mom would be happy once she knew i was taking the course she failed to complete when she was on my age, kaya itutuloy ko yung pangarap nya because that's what i promised her.

i did everything on my own and my studies alone doesn't satisfied me so i trained myself to be a football player. kahit mahirap pagsabayin yung pag-aaral at yung paglalaro ko nang football, i somewhat survived and now i was two steps ahead of the goal i was trying to reach for my mom.

and while i was trying to reach for that goal, there's this someone i never know would be an another goal beside to completing architecture... because this someone made me wanted to reach him, which suddenly became one of my goal that no matter how long it takes, im ready to wait for him even if my hair grows white.