Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 82

*jeonghan*

"yoon jeonghan!"

"yes, ma'am?"

i got back to reality once i had realized that i almost shouted at my prof which made me bit my lower lip and held my head low, feeling embarrassed of myself plus i could feel that all of my classmates were staring at me prolly they are wondering what just happened and i wasnt listening properly. when the prof had called me again, i slowly lifted my gaze, still bitting my lower lip until our gazes met and i felt mortified because i almost shouted at her! mygod.

i heave a sighed. "i-im sorry, ma'am, im really really sorry . but what is it you're asking?" if only i could get down on my knees and clasps my hands together just for her to forgive me, i could do it. . because i know to myself that what i did was somewhat unforgivable.

she shook her head. "are you okay? you're not listening to me properly and the moment i entered the room, i saw you zoning out. were you fine?" then she walked closer to me and to look at me more.

i nodded. "y-yeah, im fine, ma'am. . what is it po ulit?"

she told me to identify the anatomy of our pelvic area and even though i wasnt confident to answer and to recite, i still tried my best to remember everything i had studied even before things could get worse that made me zone out time to time. my prof was just staring at me and was nodding when i was getting the right answer, until she told me to stopped already since i had recite all of it, as what she said but for me, it wasnt enough.

the whole class, i couldnt look at my classmates faces nor even to my friends even to sowon who were just my seatmate. i wasnt also talking to them though some of them made the first move already but i didnt utter any words in response. i was trying my best to survive this day and listened to every professor that was coming into our classroom and also tried to recite whenever they are calling my name. i told you, almost each and every prof here was expecting more from me, kaya lagi akong tinatawag kahit hindi ko alam yung sagot.

it was already almost one in the afternoon when we finally got our lunch then another major subject for the last class this day then dismissal. i was surprise that even if i wasnt talking to none of my friends, they still invited me to eat lunch with them plus some of my classmates had asked me if i was fine, especially eunji who seemed so worried about me but i just let out a small smile, telling them i was fine. . even just in the outside.

"tell us what happened. he dumped you?" sejeong asked the moment we sat on our table here at our college gazebo.

i shook my head. "he did not."

"then why are you like that? you looked like you're barely sleeping again, ayan ka na naman." sowon scolded as she even rolled her eyes on me then hyunjin tried to calm her down by caressing her back.

"what exactly did happened ba kasi?"

i stopped from playing my sliced moose cake in front of me and i stared at that thing the moment aaron had asked me what just happened last day. . nor even last saturday. they went home kasi agad after the game since you know. . seungcheol had been crying that time and naiwan lang kaming dalawa dun. i did informed them din kasi about what i planned to do yesterday, which was. . you all know what happened. it sounded so maarte but i just dont want to remember any single thing had happened last night even earlier in the morning.