Falling all in you JJK ff

Chapter 51: Falling

"if there's an upside to falling, it's the chance you give the people you love to catch you."

This chapter may or may not contain strong language which may be offensive to some readers and inappropriate for children.

-author's pov

Lately, jungkook has been stressing out mentally and emotionally. Being a young man and managing the things that he does, with so many expectations on him was not an easy thing. Jungkook is pretty reserved and has a hard time expressing himself. Yet, when he does open up, you see all rays of sunshine that were hidden before.

-Jungkook's pov

I ran my fingers through my hair, closing my eyes tightly to stop the tears from falling out. I felt unworthy. Not good enough. Lacking. Not deserving.

Negative words kept coming to me. I usually stay at work longer but today, there was something else my heart needed desperately. I needed to go home. I needed to feel that sense of comfort, warmth, strength, and certainty.

I opened the door. I heard footsteps coming towards me. "kooo." she welcomed me by throwing her arms around my neck. I never understood her excitement but she always greets me with a sunny smile if she's here when I come home from work, No matter how bad of a day she had. Her greetings always gave me comfort. She was everything I needed. Happiness, love, certainty... she was my home.

"you have no idea how much you mean to me." I breathed out and she started rubbing circles on my back. I held her tighter not wanting to let her go. She pulls away slightly to look at me, I smile and pull her in for a kiss.

She tastes like happiness, freedom, and everything that's good in life.

My body acts on its own accord. One hand tangles her hair, while the other arm is wrapped around her back. Her chest smashed against mine. she's so soft and sweet and it feels so good to have her in my arms. I'm in heaven.

"I'm all in for burying things with sex, but last time we did that it almost cost us our relationship."

"you wanna talk about it?"

she nods her head.

"How did you know I was upset?"

"you were pouting." she grazes her thumb against my lips.

I chuckled picking her up sitting on the couch with her still on my lap. I felt her arms around me, hugging me tightly. I shifted a little, putting my head on her chest. I closed my eyes listening to her heartbeat. Feeling The rhythm of her chest going up and down as I tried to match mine with hers, calming myself down.

"i- it's just I'm scared if I'll wake up one day and lose everything. Everything I worked so hard for and...you. and- I'm such a fuck up I keep disappointing everyone."

"don't say that." she pulls away cupping my cheeks.

"what?" I muttered.

"I... I never saw you in this state before... it makes me sad. I hate it that you're in so much pain."

my dark orbs were fixed on hers for a good second before I look away.

"I never wanted you to see me like this."

"uh, well what can I do? Do you want me to leave you alone?"

"no," I mumble and she takes me back in her arms almost instantly.

"I realized that I should think twice before I do anything, and not forget where I am, no matter what situation I may be in. The pressure to be perfect is always there. But I want to show them that I am improving, I have so much and I'm grateful. But... what if I fuck it all up? what if I lose it all?" "no, you are not going to lose anything gukk. You worked hard for everything you have. You deserved it all baby. Your fans love you so much, your members care about you. they—umm they were worried about you. These past few days. Them asking me what's up with you made me worry too. I love you jungkook. I love you so much. I'm not gonna leave you. What happened.... Whatever happened in the past has happened we can't change it. But what we can do is reflect and do better next time. you're already such an amazing person. You have a huge heart and you want everyone around you to be happy. Even when you're unhappy."

I had to tip my head back and blink away my tears. She fucking guts me.

"you can let it all out, it's just you and me here," she said to me in a calm voice.

"If I had a chance to improve every aspect of myself, then I would work hard to make it happen rather than just sitting idly by."

"I know you will. That's what I love about you."

"you really are an angel aren't you?"

"gukk, people are judgmental. A lot of people think celebrities and idols are public property. People complain and say things on the internet without thinking about how they will affect others. It's terrible and ...not fair. But that's how things are. I'm sure you know it. But, I'm going to remind you anyway. You have Army. You have your friends. Your family and me. So who cares what those people behind a screen types?"

Again her words flay me alive.

"do you know how many times I thanked my lucky stars for making me meet you?"