NURTURING US

CHAPTER 98 NURTURING US

CHAPTER 98 NURTURING US

Sidharth held Shehnaaz’s hand and got it close to his lips, “I am so sorry Mera Bacha… Mai nai reh sakta aise… Please mere se baat kar, chilla, daat lekin aise chup mat reh... Mera dil bhari ho jata hai mai pagal ho jata hu…” said Sidharth but Shehnaaz was adamant… “Sidharth, is baar ek counsellor ko aana pada hamare beech cheeze sahi karne… Mai abhi baat nai karna chahti mera sir dard ho raha hai aur dawai lene ke baad neend bhi aa rahi hai, ek kaam agar kar sakta hai to wo bata…”
“Ha bol na Meri Jaan, kya karna hai?” asked Sidharth, still holding her hand…
“Bas mera discharge kab hone wala hai mujhe ye janna hai... Mai thik hu ab aur ghar jana chahti hu...”
“Dekh Shehnaaz, teri halat puri tarah se thik nai hai... Mai ye decision doctor ke liye chor raha hu... Mai tere bolne se ghar leke nai jaunga kyu ki is baar situation thodi serious hai teri, maine reports dekhi hai… Mere pe gussa utarna hai utar, tera haq hai lekin health pe compromise nai kar please Meri Jaan…” said Sidharth and Shehnaaz understood his point and he kissed her forehead... He patted her forehead softly and she fell asleep...
Sidharth pressed his lips on hers and went to meet the Psychologist… He knocked the Psychologist's cabin and she asked him to come in...
"Hello Sidharth Sir... Please come. Have a seat...” said Srijana
"Thank you, Srijana, for talking to Shehnaaz. That was really helpful."
"Sidharth sir, that's my job. And usi job k basis pe I am going to speak to you about a few things...jaise ki apne already suna, what are the things which has hurt Shehnaaz ma'am, I am sure you know what I am going to say..."
"Srijana, I heard it and I am feeling helpless right now, and guilty too... Mai kabhi nahi chahta tha ki Shehnaaz ko mere wajah se kabhi bhi takleef ho but right now, sab kuch galat ho raha hai... Can I share something with you?" asked Sidharth...
"Yes please. Aap comfortably bolo."
"So recently, mere dimag mein bas 2 cheeze chal rahi hai... One is Shehnaaz's health and about the future where we are planning to have a baby! Mai chahta hu ki hum apne relationship ko ek step aage le k jaye but......" paused Sidharth...
"Sidharth sir, I understand your concern... But let me tell you... Shehnaaz ma'am ka past bhot zyada painful raha hai... You also know it… Unn sab cheezo ka effect bht padha hai unpe... Unko kabhi bhi solid support kisi apne ka mila hi nahi hai... But, aapka unki life mein aane k baad, she has developed immense trust and faith on you... She looks forward to your support... She knows that koi ho na ho, Sidharth humesha mere saath rahega! But, of late, jo bhi cheeze hui hai, about your project, about Shehnaaz ma'am's project, about your insecurity, the misunderstanding, the miscommunication and all the wrong behaviours, everything has hit her really bad and triggered her dep rooted fears resulting in her getting anxiety attack... Ap samajh rahe ho na? "
“Mai samjh raha hu lekin kya Shehnaaz mujhse darti hai? Meri baby mujhse darti hai?” asked Sidharth who was thinking about silly things…
" Nahi Sidharth sir, wo apse nahi, APKO KHONE SE DARRTI HAI... APKA SUPPORT KHONE SE DARRTI HAI... SHE IS SCARED THAT YOU MIGJT DRIFT AWAY FROM HER, EVEN WHEN SHE IS NOT AT FAULT... Jitna ap Shehnaaz mam se pyaar karte ho, utna wo bhi aapko karte hai... Lekin, kabhi-kabhi aapki insecurity, uss pyaar ko overpower kar dete hai... For example, apne unpe koi cheez dekh doubt mat kijiye... Better, ap unse baat kijiye... Puchiye... But NEVER ASSUME ON YOUR OWN... Sir, maine BB13 pe ap hi ko bolte hue suna hai ki hume apne lagne pe nahi chalna chaiye... We should talk... Aur yahan abhi ap hi apne assumption pe chal rhe hai aur aise behave kar rhe hai... Aisa nai hota na sir!”
"I think I got what you are saying... Mujhe apni Shehnaaz pe bharosa hai... It's just that mai usko kisi aur k sath nai dekh sakta... But I know my mistake... Mera overthinking mujhe kabhi-kabhi aise behave karne me majboor kar deta hai... I assure you, aage se I will be very careful.”
"That's very thoughtful of you sir... Aur ek cheez, since ap family planning ka soch rhe ho, let me tell you, it's not easy to have a child... Kaafi changes aaenge... During pregnancy and post pregnancy... Both physically and mentally... Mood swings hoga... Habits change honge... Insecurities develop hoenge... But sir, you have to be strong for Shehnaaz mam and support her throughout, which I know u will do in anyway... Isliye, jo bhi issues ap dono k beech hai, usko BAAT KARKE RESOLVE KIJIYE BECAUSE AFTER ALL, MENTAL HEALTH IS IMPORTANT FOR A GOOD LIFE... "
" Thank you so much Srijana. Apne bht ache se cheeze samjhai hai... I will definitely take all the points into consideration. Thank you again...” said Sidharth who felt a little better...
“Not a problem Sir... This is my work. Shehnaaz Ma’am bht strong hai lekin she is even stronger with you by her side, and so are you! You both are blessed to have each other... Please do take care and kabhi bhi if you need my help, this is my contact details... Feel free to contact me. I hope I could help you. Have a good day sir. And all the best for your projects. "
" Thank you... I will surely do contact you in the future, if needed. Take care and good luck...” concluded Srijana and Sidharth left for Shehnaaz’s room only to be stopped by Mom and Naira...
“Sidharth, I want to talk to you right now…” Said Mom and Sidharth was kind of tired but stopped to talk to her, “Mom, I’m really tired and pissed at my own self...”
“Sidharth, you have disappointed me big time... This isn’t the right way to deal with your wife...”
“Maa, don’t shout at me like this... I am not a 5-year-old now…” said an irritated Sidharth… Mom held his ears and pulled it hard, “Harkate na 5 saal ke bache ki bhi tujhse zyada mature hoti hai... Learn how to behave like a man I am telling you… Us bachi ke upar kya beeti hai teri samjh me aaya hai kuch bhi? Apne ego ke liye, apni insecurity ke liye uski jaan daav pe lagi hai… Tu usko sikhata firta tha na ki aise behave karte hai aur kaise real aur reel ka difference… Opposite sex wale friends ho sakte hai ye wo... Khud ka dimag kaha gaya fir? Han?” said mom and walked away….
Sidharth tried to hold her hand but she was long gone…
Naira looked at Sidharth who looked at her with puppy eyes but she bashed him too, “Mamu, this wasn’t expected from you at all... Kabir behaves better than you these days…” Saying so she walked off leaving Sidharth alone...
He was in a mad mood so he walked into Shehnaaz’s room… She was fast asleep, he held her hand and slept hugging her hand…
He shifted to the bed in sometime and slept in his jeans and tshirt only… He couldn’t sleep properly and was uncomfortable all through the night…
He woke up at 5am and sat close to her yet again, holding her hand... He pressed his lips on her forehead and pecked her lips… She shifted a little in her sleep and he tapped her forehead again making her sleep…
Time and situation can come up in a way that no one can imagine.. He kept looking at her, non stop..

Promo- Shehnaaz fainting again because of her health condition becoming worse… She will need a few bottles of blood to gain back the consciousness and Sidharth won’t be in the hospital…
Who will donate blood to Shehnaaz? Stay tuned to know!