NURTURING US

Chapter 5

“Shehnaaz, Be calm.. Mai hu sath me.. Kuch nai kar paega…” assured Sidharth and she was fine..
They reached the Commissioner’s cabin and Sidharth started talking..
“Sir, I need to add some more things in the FIR.. Avinash has done some more shit in the practice days..”
“Ha, I will take the statement.. will you say it or madam?”
Sidharth turned towards Shehnaaz and asked her, “Tu bolegi yam ai bolu?”
She was being a little afraid and shy as she was in the Police Station.. Sidharth decided to speak but She stopped him.. She held in hand and he looked at her.. “Mai bolungi..” said Shehnaaz and Sidharth pressed her hands..
Shehnaaz described everything which she told Sidharth the other night and Sidharth didn’t leave her hand.. He was getting affected too.. Listening to everything for the second time was getting difficult for him..
She gave her statement and then Sidharth said, “I want to see Avinash once..”
Shehnaaz nodded her head.. “Sidharth, nai.. Please… Tu bhadak jaega zyada..” whispered Sidharth trying to calm him down but it was classic Sidharth Shukla! He had to teach Avinash a lesson..
“Sidharth Sir, You can meet him.. But he will be inside the jail and you can meet him from outside only.. And also, With all these added things, I will make sure she gets justice..”
Shehnaaz held Sidharth’s arm as they walked where Avinash was jailed..
“Agli baar kisi bhi aurat ke sath badtamizi kane se pehle hazar baar sochna.. Mai bata raha hu.. Wo darti nai hai tujhse.. Thaki hui thi, isliye wo tujhe palat ke jawab di nai.. Tune jo jo kiya hai mujhe sab pata laga hai, mera naam yaad rakhna.. Meri biwi ke sath badtamizi kara hai, to tujhe mai bataunga mera kya rutba hai.. Teri saza, jo jo tere sath jail ke andar hoga, tujhe sab pata lagega..” 
Shehnaaz stood straight but didn’t leave his arm.. Sidharth was going mad with anger, his veins popping out as he held the rod of the jail.. His fist clenched around it tightly..
“Sidharth, chal ab.. Please Meri Jaan..” Whispered Shehnaaz and took a step pulling his arm.. He wasn’t ready to leave but Shehnaaz somehow managed to get him out of that area and walked back to the car.. Kaushal had made sure about the media attention and there was no media people around..
Sidharth sat after making Shehnaaz sit and looked at Kaushal and left..
Shehnaaz held sidharth’s handand rubbed his palm..
“Mera Baby, Bas karja ab.. Idhar pass me aa..” She said as she made him snuggle into her.. He was in a different zone, he was slightly taking the blame on himself.. She kept rubbing his back and he didn’t say a word until they were home..
He dragged her to the bedroom with himself and locked the bedroom door.. He made her sit on the bed and curled up in her lap and dug his face in her waist.. He broke down.. He vented out his emotions..
“Sidhaaarrtth! Please relax kar mera bacha..” she tried calming him down..
“Tujhe sach me kuch ho jata to..”
PAL BHAR THEHER JAO, DIL YE SAMBHAL JAYE, KAISE TUMHE ROKA KARU.. MERI TARAF AATA, HAR GHUM FISAL JAYE..
“Tune hi bachaya na Sidharth.. Aise mat toot jaa..”
“Mai nai reh paunga tere bina.. Tujhe kuch hone nai de sakta mai..”
“Ha to kaha kuch ho raha hai.. Har kadam pe tu sath hai.. Kyu itna soch raha hai.. Sidharth, uth ja pehle.. Mere samne baith..” He obeyed and she held both his hands in hers and kissed both his hands and cupped his face..
AANKHO ME TUMKO BHARU, BIN BOLI BAATE TUMSE KARU.. AGAR TUM SATH HO..
“Sidharth, Mai strong hu to tune mujhe strong banaya hai.. Agar mujhe kuch hona hota to bhot pehle ho jata.. Mai hu na tere sath.. Kyu fikar kar raha hai.. Tujhe aise dekh ke meri Jaan jal rahi hai.. Kisi aur ki wajah se tu kyu guilt me hoga..”
“Lekin Mai agar tujhe aise akele chor ke nai jata to aisa hota hi nai na..”
“Sidharth, Maine change karne ke baad bina soche darwaza unlock kar diya.. Mujhe laga tera ho gaya hai.. Mai dekhi to tu baat kar raha tha kisi se. Mai bina darwaza band kiye andar wapas aa gayi.. Meri bhi to galti hai na isme..”
“Agar mai thoda bhi late hota, aur wo kuch aur kar deta to..”
“Sidharth, tu kyu soch raha hai itna sab.. Thoda shant ho ja.. Mai tere samne hu, tere pass hu.. sahi Salamat hu.. Mat bura laga itna apne aap ko.. Please..”
She pulled him closer again and he hugged her tight.. Resting her head on his chest, listening to her heartbeats.. He fell asleep wrapping his arms tightly around her..
She kissed his forehead and constantly ran her fingers in his hair..
How different things affect two people in a relationship.. The other day, his entire focus was on making her strong.. He was not getting into his zone and was being a strong pillar for her but now when she had gained all strength and confidence, he was breaking down.. Even imagining something happening to her made him go mad.. His emotions knew no bounds.. His heart was overflowing with every kind of emotions.
Even when he slept, his grip around her was still tight.. She knew his grip would leave marks on her body but she let him hold her.. She knew how much she meant to him.. Same was for her but currently he was feeling way too much.. He was just thinking about her, her safety and all the what if’s situatuons which were making him more negative.. But that’s how he was.. He had a habit of overthinking and it was something which he just cannot give up easily..
She let him sleep for an hour and a half and then gently woke him up..
“Sidharth, Bebu.. Lunch karne uth jaa..” Sidharth woke up and pressed his lips on her forehead..
“Mera Putthu hai tu.. Chal mai khana yehi laati hu..” said Shehnaaz to which he agreed and finally got away from her so that she would get up.. he was sleeping over her all this time and she didn’t feel his weight to be too much.. that’s how she loved him..
She met mom who was having her afternoon tea..
“Fir so gaye the dono?” asked Mom..
“Haa, Maa.. Mai Lunch karke baat karti hu aapse..Kuch batana hai..” said Shehnaaz nervously to which mom just agreed.. Shehnaaz took food inside and fed him with her hands.. He was feeling much better..
“Maa ko batana hai..” said Shehnaaz..
“Koi na.. Mai hu sath.. Chal..” assured Sidharth..
He held his hand as they walked towards mom and settled next to her..
“Aise kya hua hai?” asked Mom who was getting worried by this time and they told her everything without any delay..
“Meri bachi..” Said mom pulling her in a hug and tears dropped from her eyes which Sidharth wiped.
“Ye sab jo hua, wo choro, bura waqt samjh ke taal do.. Anniversary wala din hai.. Jaane do.. Mai ye idea deti hu ki tumlog Anniversary, Sidharth Shehnaaz tum dono ke birthday ki aur ek house warming party ek sath hi karlo.. Hum achi achi baate karte hai.. wo jail me hai to fikar ki koi baat nai hai..”
That’s how positive mom was! They sat and planned for the party and decided the date!