NURTURING US

Chapter 189 And 190 TOGETHER.

CHAPTER 189 NURTURING US

Sidharth took Shehnaaz in his arms and took her out in the beach garden.. “Shehnaaz, baby you need to calm down.. Ab please shant ho ja..” said Sidharth..
She settled on his lap once Sidharth sat on the sand.. She was clung to him.. “Sidhaaartthh!” cooed Shehnaaz.. “Haa bol na, darling..” replied back Sidharth..
“Sidharth, hamare sath kuch hua toh?” asked Shehnaaz.. Sidharth tried to maintain his cool.. He didn’t want to think about such a situation..
“Shehnaaz, Meri Baat sun.. Tujhe positive Rehne ki bhot zyada zarurat hai.. Abhi kuch hua nai hai toh please mat soch.. Mai aisa kuch nai sochna chahta.. Tu samjh rahi hai.. Please.. Shoot tha, wo ho gaya.. You really need to calm down now.. Please..” said Sidharth..
Shehnaaz sensed his fear.. She knew he was being calm for her.. He was actually breaking.. Shehnaaz hugged him tight.. And he felt home in her arms..
He needed her as much as she needed him.. Sidharth was stressed because he knew Shehnaaz’s health.. All these thoughts were driving him towards negativity.. His mom’s words were running in his head and he somehow managed to calm down..
“Shehnaaz, tujhe yaha ke sea se kya feel Aa rahi hai..” asked Sidharth.. “Yaha ka sea na door-door sa hai.. Jaise lag raha ho, hum yaha ke nahi hai.. Isliye humse door hai.. Pata nai, meri samjh me thik se nai Aa raha yaha ka mahol..” said Shehnaaz..
Sidharth got out of her arms and took her in his arms.. Sidharth had got a bedsheet which he had spread on the beach..
He lay down and said, “Idhar Aa..” Shehnaaz obliged..
“Sea alag sa lag raha hai.. Lekin upar dekh.. Taare jaise hamare yaha dikhte hai, waise hi hai..” said Sidharth.. Shehnaaz lay on his arm comfortably and both were gazing the stars.. It was a full moon night and Sidharth pointed towards the moon, “Dekh, aaj full moon hai..”
“Haye Bebu, tu bhi Chand jaisa hai.. Sabse alag.. Aur sirf ek.. Moon ka size change hota rehta hai.. Tera mood..” chuckled Shehnaaz and Sidharth felt better seeing her back in her good mood..
“Mera Chanda hai tu.. Bubbbuuu..” cooed Shehnaaz..
MAINE TUMKO AATE DEKHA.. APNI JAAN KO JAATE DEKHA.. JAANE FIR KYA HUA NAHI YAAD.. GALI ME AAJ CHAND NIKLA..
“I felt like this when I saw you.. Jab mai tere hotel room me tha.. Tu aayi aur tujhe believe hi nahi hua nai Aa Gaya hu.. Tu mujhe chand bol rahi hai… Mera chand toh tu thi baby..” said Sidharth.. Pulling her closer..
JAANE KITNE DINO KE BAAD, GALI ME AAJ CHAND NIKLA.. TUM AAYE TOH AAYA MUJHE YAAD.. GALI ME AAJ CHAND NIKLA..
“Tu sachi Aa Gaya hai Bebu.. Mai bata nai sakti meri kya halat hui thi.. Sachi.. Mai sochi thi kar lungi manage.. Lekin, mere 12 baj gaye the.. Matlab, adhoora sa lagta tha.. Tere bina.. Uspe bimar padha.. Fir akele rehna.. Surbhi thi, bhot dhyan rakhi.. Lekin wahi na. Usse yaha mili.. Naya-Naya sa lagta tha.. Wo apna wala feel nai aaya.. Tujhe dekh ke aisa laga mera sab kuch pura ho gaya.. Maa ko dekh ke toh mai tujhse zyada shocked thi.. Tu aaya, samjh aata hai.. Mai kabhi nai sochi thi, Maa bhi aaenge.. Unko dekh ke meri tabiyat toh ek minute me sahi ho gayi thi..” said Shehnaaz..
“Bas, teri khushi ke liye kuch bhi karne ko tayar hu.. Baby, you will have to be strong and take every step in life.. Mai khada hu tere sath.. Negative sochne ki zarurat nai hai.. Mai karta hu na koshish tujhe khush rakhne ki.. Bas tu apni health ka dhyan de.. Aur positive sochti reh.. Sab acha hoga meri Jaan.. You just do what I’ll ask you to do.. Mai tujhse kuch galat nai karwaunga.. Tu exercise zyada mat kar.. Mai karwata hu tujhe easy exercise.. Baby, tu moti nai hai.. Mai aisa nai bol raha. Just want you to be healthy.. Samjh rahi hai na baby..” said Sidharth.
Shehnaaz got up from his arm and rested her elbows on his chest, her head rested on her hand. “Samjh gi Mai.. Bharosa hai tujhpe Bubbu.. Kaise nai hoga.. Mai janti hu tu mera kabhi bura nai chahega.. Jaisa tu bolega Mai wahi karungi.. Aaj ka breakdown kaise ho gaya Mai samjh ni paayi.. Mai na kuch zyada hi emotional ho gayi.. Maine tujhe Naira ke sath dekha.. Maine tujhe bacho ke sath dekha hai.. Meri nazar me pata nai kyu aisa Aa raha tha jaise Mai tera sapna pura nai kar paungi..” said Shehnaaz..
“Baby, please don’t say this.. Mera sapna hai isliye karna hai aisa nai hai.. See, my love, there are many people who can’t be parents.. Tu aisa mat soch agar mera sapna pura nai kar payi toh isme kuch galat hai.. Hum sath rahenge na toh sab face karenge baby.. Tu apne aap ko isme stress me mat daal..” said Sidharth.. Tucking her hair behind her ear..
He cupped her face and her hands snaked around his neck.. He pulled her closer and took her lips in his.. Her fingers dig into his skin as she felt the warmth of his lips.. He didn’t leave her, he continued kissing her until she was out of breath..
“Sidhaaartthh!” She hissed as he attacked her neck.. She looked around and Sidharth saw it.. “Koi nai hai.. I asked the hotel manager to clear the public for tonight..” said Sidharth and continued his work on her skin.. Her crop top barely covered her and his hands wandered all around her body, his long cold fingers sent chills to her spine…
“Ugh, we need to go back baby.” Groaned Sidharth, knowing that the hotel room’s balcony had the sea view and other people might see them..
He was fidgeting with the key card of his room and Shehnaaz chuckled, “De meko.. Card ulta laga raha hai.. Gandhu bacha..” cooed Shehnaaz, grabbing the keycard and opening the door..
Sidharth was quick enough to walk in and locked the door.. He wanted her.. He needed her.. He grabbed her in his arms, softly..
Shehnaaz had wrapped herself entirely around Sidharth.. She wanted to be close to him.. He didn’t leave her and resumed his kisses.. Her breath hitched, when his lips were replaced by his teeth.. Her birthmark on her chest was taken into his mouth.. She gasped and her fingers went into his silky hair..
His bites deepened, she pulled his hair and he dig deeper into her chest, biting her pinching her waist..
“You’re strong.. Don’t you f*cking think that you’re weak..” said Sidharth, gritting his teeth.. Shehnaaz knew what he meant.. He tried to be soft but the prior moments led him to being rough and hard..
He pressed his lips on her forehead and entered into her.. She scratched his back and he thrusted faster.. The love making didn’t seem to stop…
They both collapsed on the bed.. Half asleep.. Sidharth got up after some time, cleaned both of them and took her in his arms and fell asleep..
The next few days were the last days of Shehnaaz’s shoot and she had a very hectic schedule..
Sidharth was in touch with her doctor in Bombay and was discussing things with Mom too.. She was her big support at this time.. “Sidharth, maine teen bacho ko janam di hu.. Tu itna sochna band kar.. Wo medicines le rahi hai.. Uska hemoglobin Aa jaega normal range me aur iron deficiency me thoda time lagega.. It’s not so easy.. Button dabaye aur iron level sahi ho jaye aisa nai hota na.. She is eating everything you’re giving her.. Tu sochna band kar.. Aisa soch ki you’re doing everything which is in your hand.. Leave it up to God..” said Mom which helped Sidharth in being positive..
“Thank You, Mom.. Acha hua Mai aapko leke aaya.. Aapke sath itna time bhi mila.. Aur ye sab bhi discuss hua..” said Sidharth, resting his head on her lap..
“Mai apne bacho ke sath nai rahungi toh kaun rahega.. Acha sun, tu Naira se kaafi dino se Baat nahi kiya hai.. Abhi Shehnaaz bhi busy hai.. Tu karle baat usse…” suggested Mom and Sidharth agreed..
He stayed on Mom’s lap and video called Naira.. “Ab time mila hai aapko.. Hadh hai Mamu.. Missed calls check kar liya karo kabhi..” whined Naira.. She looked at the big man, happily settled on his mom’s lap like a two-year-old, chucking at her.. “Haa, ab haste raho.. Kya bacho jaise Nani ki godi me lete ho..”
“Maa Baap ke liye bache hamesha Bache hi rehte hai.. Tu bata.. Kya chal raha hai..”
“Aapse naraaz hu…”