NURTURING US

Chapter 18

“Nai hai na Jawab. Bas yehi janna tha..” said Shehnaaz as she walked in the house leaving Sidharth outside.. He was frozen.. He didn’t know what to do and how to get her back home..
She came out with her bag shocking him.. “Sidharth. Tujhse pyar karna to nai chora hai na.. Qasam ki value hua.. Bas isliye ghar Aa rahi hu.. Lekin tujhe kahi Jane ki zarurat nai hai.. Maa nai hai.. Mai aise nai kar sakti..”
Badesha walked behind her with his bag.. Shehnaaz asked him to come along and he had the casserole of Parathas with him..
“Tu ja ghar.. Hum aate hai..” said Shehnaaz and Sidharth’s face frowned but he convinced himself thinking that at least she was coming back home..
He walked out a little disappointed and asked Adith to drive back home..
Badesha wanted to know what had exactly happened, “Shehnaaz, driver ke samne tu zyada bolegi nai.. Jane se phele mujhe bata to sahi hua kya hai..”
She told him everything and his blood boiled.. As a protective brother his anger at Sidharth knew no bounds..
“Mai nai Jaa raha us Kanjare ke ghar..” blurted out Badesha and Shehnaaz stopped him, “Shehbaaz. Sidharth ke against mai nai sun sakti ek bhi shabd.. Izzat se Baat kar..”
“Motto itna sab ho gya uske baad bhi? Kis liye?”
“Sidharth mera Pati hai.. Mera Pyar hai.. Mai naraaz reh sakti hu lekin aise uske bare me bakwas nai sun sakti.. Tujhe nai pata hum kaisa scene shoot kar rahe hai… uski puri galti bhi nai hai.. Maine bas usko ye sikhana hai ke gussa kaise ek rishte ko kharab kar sakta hai..”
Badesha felt bad.. He couldn’t see his sister suffering.. Little did he know that her sister was suffering because of the distance between her and Sidharth and not because of Sidharth..
“Badesha. Tujhe pyar ka asli matlab pata hi nai hai.. Agar tu meri bhavna ko nai samjh raha.. Yehi problem hai tere aur Qiran me.”
“Tujhe kisne bola?” asked Badesha..
“Maa ne bataye the. Tabhi mai bol rahi hu.. Abhi chal ghar.. Wo khaya nai hoga kuch bhi.. Mai janti hu usko.”
He agreed and they walked to her car and went home.. On the other hand, Sidharth was walking back and forth waiting for Shehnaaz to come.. He had kept the door open and his eyes were glued to it..
He stood at the entrance as he saw her coming and took the bag from her hand.. He kept it back in the room and hugged Baaz, a little awkwardness could be felt..
Badesha was angry but he couldn’t go against her sister as well.. Shehnaaz handed the Casserole to Kavita Tai and asked her to heat the Parathas once and set the table..
She did and the trip had lunch.. A silent lunch.. But Sidharth was thankful that at least she was home.. Once done, she grabbed her bag and went to Mom’s room.. Sidharth looked at her but she didn’t budge..
The whole day, she locked herself in mom’s room and Sidharth was in the drawing room, waiting for her to come out and talk. He wanted her to shout at him but she was just ignoring him..
Badesha was in the guest room not understanding on what exactly to do..
Shehnaaz cried again, she was in such a situation where she wasn’t understanding what should she do..
KHUDAYA VE, HAII AHH! ISHQ HAI KAISA YE AJEEB.. KHUDAYA VE..
DIL KE KAREEB LAAYA. DIL KA NASEEB RE..
Sidharth knocked Badesha’s room asking him if he needed something.. He politely denied and asked him, “Kyu hamesha usko aise tor dete ho? Pata hai na kitna pyar karti hai.. Mai nai janta shoot me kya ho raha hai.. Lekin aise nai dekh sakta mai apni behen ko.. Aap pe bharosa hai.. Usme koi do Baat nai hai.. Lekin aise kaise chalega? Itna gussa?”
“I am sorry Chotey.. Dimag fat raha tha.. Mera sir Dard bhi ho raha tha aur ek thappad nai mar paa rahi thi.. Mai aage peeche socha hi nai.. Pata nai kyu aise react kar diya.. Mai thik kar lunga. Jald..”
ANKHO SE KHWAB RUTHE, APNO KE SATH CHOOTE, TAPTI HUE RAAHO ME.. PAIRO KE CHALE PHOOTE..
PYAASE TADAP RAHE HAI.. SAHIL KAREEB RE.. KHUDAYA VE. ISHQ HAI KAISA YE AJEEB RE..
Sidharth hugged Badesha and he realised how helpless he was.. He knkws Sidharth and he was remembering how he was behaving with Qiran.. He hugged Sidharth back and Sidharth broke down in his arms..
“Arey! Sidharth.. Relax.. Tu strong hai.. Aise toot mat ja..”
“Nai, nai hu strong.. Teri behen ke bina mai kuch nai hu.. Maine bhot badi galti kar di hai.. Mai nai janta mai kaise sudharunga..”
Badesha was extremely helpless.. He could see Sidharth was guilty and he knew Shehnaaz also wasn’t happy avoiding him but he couldn’t do anything.. He decided to go to Mommy’s room to check on Shehnaaz..
“Kuch lagega tu mujhe bol..” said Sidharth before Badesha left and he agreed..
As Badesha entered the bedroom he saw Shehnaaz sitting on the floor with her head on the bed.. She was asleep and as he went closer he found out that she was sleeping on Sidharth’s tshirt..
His heart ached to see his sister in pain. He walked out and told Sidharth about it..
“usko khana khila de.. Mai khilane jaunga to nai khayegi..” said Sidharth and Badesha agreed.. He took the food made by Kavita Tai and woke his sister up..
“Shehnaaz. Motto! Uth ja”  said Badesha in a soft tone so that she doesn’t get scared..
“Sidharth! Tu thik hai na. Sidharth.. “ she cried while she was still asleep.. Sidharth was standing close to the door and he saw her like that.. He walked in but Badesha suggested him to stay out only.. He had to agree…
“Shehnaaz! Motto mai hu.. Jaag Haa.. Tu sapna dekhi hai.. Shant ho ja..” Shehnaaz woke up and saw Badesha next to her and hugged him tightly..
“Kyu mujhe sirf wahi dikh rha hai.. Itna hurt kar deta hai lekin jata nai hai dimag se.. Mujhe apne aap pe gussa Aa raha hai..” She cried as she still hugged him.
“Motto! Tu pyar karti hai na.. Uski bhi halat sahi nai hai.. Maine kabhi Sidharth ko aise nai dekha hai..”
“Mera nai soojh raha tujhe.. Meri halat nai dikh rahi.. Mere dimag me uski boli hui gandi baate nai hat rahi. Mai kya karu.. Tu bata.. Maine jo karna hai wo mai kar ke rahungi.. Agar Sidharth wait kar sakta hai to thik hai.. Warna mai chali.. Pareshan ho chuki hu.. Uske bina nai raha jata, usko dekhne se sab baate samne Aa jati hai jaise wapas bol raha ho..”
She pulled out of the hug and tied her hair into a bun.. Sidharth went I into the kitchen and made tea for her.. He knew her head must be aching and he wasn’t wrong..
He texted Badesha to come out for a minute and he did as told.
“Uske sir me Dard ho raha hoga.. Ye dede.. Aur khana khila de usko please Chotey..” requested Sidharth and badesha agreed.. He wasn’t liking the way in which Sidharth was literally going down the line for little things.. The way he was requesting clearly showed how guilty he was..
Vikas called Sidharth, “How’s everything?”
Sidharth told him everything and VG decided to shoot the happy moments from the next day and Sidharth had a sign of relief..
On the other hand, Badesha ha ded her the cup of tea and she knew Sidharth had made it in the first sip itself..
She smiled but her heart ached at the same time.. She ate a little and requested Badesha to let her sleep and leave her alone. He agreed and tucked her in the bed properly.. As he was leaving she called him again, “Uske sath baith ke khana khilwa de.. Akela nai jamta usko.. Mera Naam nai lena samjh ayi!” Baaz agreed and kissed her forehead and went out..
Sidharth ate a few bites and walked back to his room.. He missed her.. He wanted to cuddle with her to sleep but he couldn’t.. Badesha slept since he had to accompany them to the shoot next morning..
Sidharth was twisting and turning but was fining it difficult to sleep.. He finally grabbed his pillow and walked to his Mom’s room.. Shehnaaz was asleep since she wasn’t sleeping well since a few nights and because of crying so much she finally slept..
Sidharth didn’t have the guts to sleep next to her.. What he did, he sat on the floor and held her feet and sleep came to him instantly..
Shehnaaz woke up in the middle of the night when she was trhign to turn to another side but couldn't because Sidharth was sleeping with her feet in his hand.. She couldn’t see him like that.. She somehow freed her feet from his hold and woke him up gently..
“Shehnaaz! Tu thik hai? Maine utha diya kya.. I am so sorry.. Maaf kar e.. Mai chala jata hu.. I am sorry.”
“Shhshhhh! Upar aake so ja..” She said and he blinked his eyes as he couldn’t believe what she said and hopped into the bed.. He snuggled into her but she didn’t held him..
The next day she woke up before him and she freed herself from him.
She haven’t forgiven him.. She just saw him like that in the night and couldn’t disrespect him.. The way he was holding onto his feet told her how guilty he was..
She went out, freshened up and asked Badesha to wake him up and he did..
The trio got ready, had breakfast and left for the shoot.. Shehnaaz went in her car with Badesha and Sidharth went in his with Adith..
Sidharth was getting restless now! He wanted things to be back to normal.. He knew he committed a mistake but he also forgave her when she got drunk and wasted the last week..
Promo- Sidharth Shukla met with an accident! He was hit by a car while crossing the road and an ambulance was called by His Wife!
Now what? TBC!