NURTURING US

CHAPTER 88 NURTURING US

CHAPTER 88 NURTURING US

Jay and Mahhi left with Tara since they didn’t want to trouble SidNaaz more.. Sidharth woke up in a while and saw Shehnaaz sitting on the bed, a little lost..
He cupped her face, “Uth gayi baby? Tu thik hai?” and she just nodded..
“Tara thik hai?” He asked as he got up from the bed.. “Haa, Jay Mahhi aaye the, leke gaye Tara ko..”
Sidharth looked at her in shock, “Kya? Itna jaldi?” said Sidharth as he wore his slippers and walked out of Mom’s room.. He saw her sitting on the couch and walked to her..
“Maa, Jay Mahhi sach me leke chale gaye Tara ko?” asked Sidharth and Mom gestured him to come close to her.. He came forward, settled on the floor and rested his head on her lap, “Zyada soch mat bache, maa baap hai na wo dono bhi.. Choti si bachi ko aise chor ke gaye the isliye jaise kaam hua aa gaye lene.. Mai aa rahi thi tujhe jagane lekin khud Jay Mahhi mana kiye..” said Mom convincing him to be fine and not think much unnecessarily.. Shehnaaz came out of the room, made tea and got it for the three of them.. Sidharth was taken aback when she made tea on a Sunday… It’s usually him who makes tea on Sunday..
She was all lost as she held the cup of tea in her hand, her gaze was stuck to the balcony area and she wasn’t sipping the tea…
Rita Maa had some important work so she went into her room leaving Sidharth and Shehnaaz alone.. Sidharth went close to her and sat on the swing, pulling her on his lap… She turned around, kept the cup of tea on the coffee table and snuggled into him… He could listen to soft sniffles in a while and that’s when he pulled her out of his chest and made her look into his eyes…
“Shehnaaz, Mera baby.. kya hua? Ro kyu rahi hai meri jaan..” asked a worried sidharth.. Shehnaaz nodded her head and kept blabbering, “Mai achi maa nai ban paunga.. Mai nai hu achi.. Mere me nai hai wo..”
Sidharth heard this and cupped her face, “Aisa kyu soch rahi hai baby? Tu pagal hai kya?” asked Sidharth, entirely shocked at how was she reacting..
“Shehnaaz bologi tum aisa kyu soch rahi ho? Kaha se aata hai ye sab dimag me? Itne ache se tumne Tara ka dhyan rakha hai, mujhe tumpe bharosa hai lekin tum waha baith ke doubt karti raho khud pe..” saying so he got up leaving her on the swing and she felt numb for a moment…
Sidharth seemed to be changed a little for her just because of the way he reacted… Sidharth is one such person who overthinks himself.. He had full faith on Shehnaaz and her self-doubting wasn’t taken well by Sidharth..
Shehnaaz left her tea and stormed to Mom’s bedroom but Mom had already left.. Sidharth saw her coming out of mom’s room with puffy red eyes… He couldn’t see her like that…
He walked to her, pulling her in his arms and she cried more.. She tried getting out of his hold but he tightened his grip, “Reh jaa yehi Shehnaaz, mat zid kar.. door mat jaa..” He said sternly.. “Aur please rona band kar..” He said this with a little softness..
Once she was fine, he pulled out of the hug, wrapped his one arm around her waist and with one he just held her face softly.. “Shehnaaz, please bol de ab..” said Sidharth very softly knowing that he bashed her a few minutes ago without knowing anything in detail..
“Tara ko mai sambhal hi nai paayi, tu tha to ho gaya… wo tere pass thi zyada, tu usko zyada dhyan rakh rha tha.. Mai apne bache ka bhi dhyan nai rakh paunga Sidharth.. Mai nai ban paunga ek achi Maa..” said Shehnaaz looking down on the floor…
Sidharth nodded his head in disbelief, “Shehnaaz, meri baat sun.. Isme tera koi fault nai hai.. Tu meri baat dhyan se samjh.. Mai Tara ke sath zyada raha hu.. Jab shoot ke time makeup chalta tha, Mera aur Jay ka zyada time nai lagta tha.. Mahhi aur tera zyada time lagta tha, tab mai Tara ke sath rehta tha… Aur betiya usually Bachpan me baap pe zyada hoti hai.. Isme tera koi fault nai hai.. Please, Shehnaaz, please.. Mai do baar bol raha hu.. Please don’t doubt yourself again with parenthood… Har parents ki journey alag hoti hai… Kisi ka same nai hota.. Itna zyada nai sochne ka…” said Sidharth pressing his lips on her forehead for a little longer time than usual…  Shehnaaz felt a little better and she hugged him tighter, snuggling into him more..
Sidharth rubbed her back…. She didn’t say anything just his presence was enough…
She understood what he wanted to say and he understood what was troubling her… Things went smoothly after that…
They spent time together, ate with Mom when she came and snuggled into the bed as they fell asleep…
The shoot of their webseries came to an end and the last day seemed to be a little emotional.. Sidharth gave Tara to Shehnaaz for some time and that boosted Shehnaaz’s confidence a little and she cheered up quite a lot…
“Adith, Little Space lele..” said Sidharth as they sat in the car and Shehnaaz felt a different wave of peace.. Little Space was one such place which had seen them fight, laugh, cry, make love and what not.. It was their own space..
Shehnaaz held onto Sidharth’s arm as Adith drove and Sidharth just looked outside the window with a nervous glare outside..
Shehnaaz didn’t notice since she was into emotions herself.. They reached in a while and picked dinner on the way..
Once they reached, Sidharth dragged her to the bedroom and thumped her on the bed.. Laying over her his arms wrapped around her waist.. She brushed her fingers in his hair and he felt the peace..
“Tu thik hai?” asked Shehnaaz and Sidharth just hummed.. They stayed in the same position for some time and he then finally got up.. She sat up straight once he got up and he sat next to her..
“Bol de na Bebu!” said Shehnaaz.. He told her, “Kal yaha kuch final signing procedure hai.. Mai bas usi ke liye nervous ho raha hu..”
“Nervous nai ho Putthu.. Tu Pehli baar thodi aisa kar raha hain.. Tune kitne bade-bade logo ke sath kaam kiya hai.. Trust kar apne aap ko.. Sab acha hoga aur fir mai to hu hi..” Said Shehnaaz and rubbed her palm on his chest.. He looked at her, his eyes had just love for her.. Immense love.. The way she calmed him down and the way he always provided her the warmth was worth it..
“Sidharth, jitna sochega itna problem hoga.. Mai tere sath hu.. Koi issue nai hoga.. Ye to main situation Bebu.. Hum kaise rehte hai, kaise sambhal paate hai shoot ko aur real life ko..”
He heard her and held her face, taking her lips in his for a warm kiss.. His mouth tasted like cigarettes and she understood he smoked.. He looked at her, she was fine.. Wasn’t angry at him.. He loved the way she understood him always and her maturity comes in a unique way..
“Dekh baby, Tu kitni pyari hai.. Itni mature ho gayi hai.. Mai nai soch raha, lekin baby, tu bhi jo soch rahi thi na about parenthood.. Tu bhi mat soch.. Bharosa rakh apne aap pe..” said Sidharth pulling her in his embrace.. She nodded in agreement..
They snuggled together on the bed again.. He kissed her rough this time holding her tight.. He was high on love and with all the negativity in the past few days..
His hands wandered inside her tshirt.. His cold fingers tracing her warm body making her shiver.. She moaned as his teeth attacked her birthmark..
He explored her body with his lips his hands working on her sensitive spots leaving her moaning his name..
He finally entered into her and they made love… Sidharth was clinging into her once done.. He rested his head on her chest and she kept running her fingers in his hair…
She kissed his forehead and he fell asleep.. She kept massaging his scalp as he slept.. He changed positions and Shehnaaz came out of bed, she went to the terrace and was sipping tea which she made.. She got a call from Kaushal..
“Ha Kaushal.. Kaisa hai?”
“Mai thik hu.. Sun ek project offer hai.. Tuesday Meeting hai..”
She agreed and went down to see Sidharth.. He was still asleep and she joined him on the bed..

Promo- Shehnaaz unable to join Sidharth on the first day of his shoot and he got a little nervous yet again!