Joy And Pain [COMPLETED]

Parenthood

Joy

This boy was total perfection in my eyes.

He did look a lot like me but he had Pains smile. He was still a little light but Pain was sure he was going to be chocolate like him but have my eyes. Here we are three weeks later and the only thing that remained true was him keeping my eyes. Other than that, my lil man was damn near my replica. As he should be after all the work I did.

I thought I was spoiled.

If he let out a cry someone was always there to pick him up and cuddle him.

I knew me and Pain were in for it because between us alone he was spoiled. Once you added Kesha, Sean, Trey, Laylay, Karen, Greg, and Dean I knew it was going to only get worse.

It's been nearly 3 weeks and I was working on his self-soothing but Pain would come pick him up.

He learned real quick after I let him deal with Koi the last few nights and he saw how that was a bad idea. Now soon as I got him on board here comes the 'God parents' talking about how we are mistreating him. We won't even start with Trey. I honestly don't know whose the worst at this point.

I have to admit we have been extremely blessed in regard to our family. It's small but to me it's perfect. Kesha comes by most of the time she is off and Sean as always over trying to nickname our damn son Kesean.

We let it slide a few times but were going to need them to have their own baby for all of that.

Hell Koi only made Trey, Laylay, and Karen impatient for their son to arrive. They are constantly trying to get him to spend the night and a few times I nearly gave in but it's so hard to be away from my lil man.

Especially with me breastfeeding it's like my body knows when he's hungry cause that milk will flow. Feels like I'm damn near leaking every few hours changing my bra and shirt.

Throughout all of it, Pain has been nothing but perfect.

How can I thank a man who stood by me as we welcomed our miniature into this world? Really what was there not to love about this man?

He loved me like I never could imagine. I know our story wasn't perfect or even something regular I just appreciated it as much as I appreciated him.

We were still dealing with Montay being missing but as I told the detectives and my lawyer I was the victim here. According to any recount of the night, Montay took off after holding me hostage for days and trying to kill me. The judge didn't bother us anymore after seeing the photos of the damage he inflicted upon me and after I told him I am just trying to move on with my life.

Other than that Pain has been asking me to set a date and honestly Id marry him tomorrow. Hell, I'd marry him today if he gave me a time and place.

I told him that as a joke but it wouldn't surprise me if he dragged me to the courthouse to sign these papers.

What can I say the man loved my stinky feet.

Pain

My life is damn near perfect.

My son is here and Joy is about to be my wife. I am literally on cloud 9. My lil man look a lil like me but damn he's Joy's twin. It's all good cause ima put a few more babies in her until we get one that looks like me. Hell a lil girl of me? I'd be here for it.

I been working from home most days. It just seems easier and with all my inspiration there so other than running to fill out paperwork I'm home.

I wake up to Joy and Koi in my arms and honestly, it's the best feeling.

My lil man is a good baby too. 

He sleeps well and never pees on Daddy but he definitely peeing on everyone else.

My brother and Laylay are so in love with him. I know they have been waiting on a baby but they are trying to claim my lil man as their own. Trey barely wants to share him and we damn near have to pry Koi out his arms in order to get him to leave.

I'm not complaining at all because our son deserves love and a family like that.

Okay maybe a little because somebody always picking him up.

The other day Joy kept trying to tell me bout some damn self-soothe. I wasn't hearin that shit until I was up with him two nights in a row. Joy thought it was funny as she just smirked and turned over to go back to sleep.

So when this woman says something ima listen cause up all day and night ain't no joke.

We're still blessed tho so how can I complain?

Lately, I been tryin to reach out to other connects for Trey but ever since the shit with Esteban, there's been no consistency. I had a few niggas I put him on with but they don't move that much weight so they couldn't offer as much.

I kept telling Trey I'm trying to be done so unless it was important I tried to leave him to take care of everything.

He's been busy trying to get things in order for himself and all he has goin on.

Last week he told me that he heard from our dad's brother. Apparently, he's dead. Honestly, I never knew the man so I didn't care. By the time I was born he dipped on my brother and moms and it's coo cause I mean we made it. Trey always been the one to look out for me so who my sperm donor was I ain't care anymore.

I just knew I could never do the same looking over at my son.

Trey told me that his brother called wanting to meet us. I was down but reading Trey I knew he wasn't.

He had a lot of doubts and I couldn't blame him but I did suggest that we should meet up with him especially since he said we had siblings we never met. He wasn't hearing me so I figured I'd try again later. Right now my main focus was our son and getting Joy to set a damn date.

If you like this please Vote or share.

This story is being updated as it is written

Follow me on IG imtrippinbitch

Follow me on FB at Vanna Boo