𝙉𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜'𝙨 𝙂𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙖 𝙃𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙔𝙤𝙪 • 𝘿𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙤 𝙈𝙖𝙡𝙛𝙤𝙮

𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮

It's been challenging to get out of bed lately. I would just stay in for hours, I don't move. Where would I go? There's no where. I feel more safe in my bed, where nobody can get hurt or I wont get hurt.

"Daphne, get up." Alice storms in my room. She opens the curtains, making me wince. My eyes didn't adjust to the light. As I heard her leave, I went to get changed. I'm going to the manor. I have to. It was chilly, so i put on a jacket as I left my room. My heels clicked as I went downstairs. "Daphne!" I have to leave before she tells me to do things for her. I whipped my wand out and appeared in front of the manor. My hand touched the gate.

Am I even welcomed? I did change sides. Lucius will kill me if I step foot. He's going to say that this was all my fault and I'm the reason Draco is dead. But Narcissa...She trusted me. How can she look at me? I cant do this. Theres too many memories. Bad ones. Good ones. I let go of the gate and walked away from the home.

I was in the forest, I could see home from where I was. It looked so empty, so dark. I took a walk around the premisses. This is what I needed, air. After years of feeling suffocated, held down, I can finally breathe. I made to the garden, the roses were blooming. The red flowers were Katherines favorite. One of them stood out, i picked it out and entered the maze.

"Im so sorry." I said looking down at the rose. "I never meant for this to happen. None of you should've died for me." I put my hands in my jacket pockets, i felt something, pulled it out. It was a note. I unfolded the paper and I saw the messy handwriting, I knew that handwriting.

I always have loved you. You are mine and always will. You are the light of my life. Its always been you. I don't want anyone but you. Daphne i can only feel you.
-Draco

He wrote that our 4th year. The day after he and I had the fight about saying no to Cedric for the yule ball. He tried talking to me at the three broomsticks but I didn't want to talk to him. He went for my jacket, its been in here for years. I hugged that letter so close to me. How can I do this without him? I fell to my knees, sobbing to myself. My arms fell, holding tight on the letter. I can't feel him, why can't i feel him? Everything is too numb.

Daphne laid back, watching the stars coming out, humming the song, twirling around the rose. She called it for the night, she just wanted to go to bed. She dragged her feet back inside.

"Daphne! We need you to clean the hall!" Alice and Leslie kept repeating but Daphne ignored them, heading upstairs. She tossed her jacket to the side, kicking off her heel boots. Daphne looks in the mirror. She placed her hand on it, crying.

"I just want to see you all again. One more time please. That's all I'm asking for, one." She whispers. "Come back." Nothing showed up. It was just her. She sits in front of the mirror, waiting for at least one of them to show. Daphne played around with the locket and looked at the picture. His smile made her smile to herself. It felt so warm like it always had. She wanted to have her platinum hair boy back. It was eating her alive.

Lucas comes in to check up on her. He saw her tracing her reflection. He crouches down to her level. Daphne saw him.

"Regulus Black." Lucas' face softens. "You loved him didn't you?" He sits down, sighing. "Did it hurt when you found out he died?"

"I was there when it happened. I was torn apart. Reg was the first person to ever made me feel like i was actually worth something." Lucas stares at the wall. "I saw him getting dragged down and I couldn't do anything. When I knew he was gone I just felt-"

"Completely alone." She finishes. "Empty, endless nothingness." Lucas scoots to her, putting his arm around her. "Why do bad things happen to me? I try to be good, bad things happen."

"That, i wished I have a answer. Its not you, it just happens." Daphne puts her head on his shoulder. "I lost so much throughout my life, I just became immune to the pain. Oh Daph, I wish I can take your pain so you wont feel it anymore."

"This was a price we had to pay." She whispers, playing with her fingers. "At least we won right?"

"Lucas, can you please tell Daphne that she needs to-" Lucas snaps at Alice.

"Ill do it. Just leave her out of this." He kissed her head and got up. When planning for the funeral, Lucas didn't want more pain on Daphnes shoulders so he said he's going to handle everything. As they left, Daphne swapped her shirt with Draco's jumper and hugged herself. The jumper still smelled like mahogany. A smell she would never get tried of. Daphne went back to sit in front of the mirror, still having that hope. To pass time, she sketches in her book. Her eyes were closing, the quill was loosing grip and Daphne stayed the same way she was she fell asleep.

Lucas comes back and sees her. He takes the book from her lap and places it on the desk. He squatted down and carried her to bed. Lucas smiles as he noticed her freckles we're starting to show, her light snores. She looked so peaceful. As he left, Lucas wishes that he would save both Severus and Katherine in time. Deep down he felt like it was his fault.

He goes to the cellar and takes a bottle of rum, heading his way into the living room, sitting on his fathers chair. Ever since the battle, Lucas lost all contact with everyone, including the Malfoy's. He was kinda glad that he wont be seeing or hearing Lucius anymore. But poor Narcissa, she lost her only child.

"Drinking?" Alice scuffs as she takes the bottle and glass from Lucas. She was interrupting his thoughts. "This is why you aren't married." He rolls his eyes. Alice growing up was always an annoying bitch, always thinking she was better than everyone.

"I don't want to get married. Not all of us have to you know. We can be happy being alone." He spat. "I want be left alone Alice, please, leave." He grabs back what she took and slouched on the chair. Lucas started looking through family photos and saw Mera, his mother. Mera loved him so much. She tried so hard to protect him. Jude was tough on him but he knew that he had a soft spot for him. Then he picks up one photo, it was Katherine, Fiona and him when it was Katherine's first day going to Hogwarts, he saw that he was teasing Fiona by yanking her robe hood and tugging on Katherines hair, and him, well, a big smirk in his face, thats what big brothers do.

He missed those days, when Fiona wasn't corrupt, when he wasn't taken away to become a deatheater. They were so innocent. He never thought something like that would happen. He never thought he would have a niece, or Katherine dating Sirius, one of his foes, his parents being killed by one of their own and even Regulus' death. All he could dream of was being the Slytherins captain when his year was coming to an end, hell even married, moving to France. But no.

He closes the book and looks deeply into the fireplace. He hopes that Sirius welcomed Katherine with a big hug, finally being together and that she sees Lily again. She deserves at least that. Severus being Severus, he would already be looking out for Daphne. He promise Severus and Katherine he'll do good. He'll be better.