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Daphne went to her room after Severus lets the sneaking out a pass. Daphne stayed in her room, drawing in her book, sketching out eyes, hands. Jinx tapped on my window and handed me a letter, Draco. I ripped the envelope, tossing it on the floor.

Darling,
I cant think straight anymore. I feel like im hurting everyone i love, like im losing myself piece by piece. Everything thats going on, I feel like dying. These are just thoughts. I need you, because you are the only thing, person, in my life that seems to take that pain away. Let me know you are okay. I love you.

I covered my mouth to silence my cries. I quickly wrote back to Draco, sending Jinx his way. I can feel the pain in Draco's letter.

Its been hours, Draco paced in his room. He hasn't come out since Lucas yelled at him to go back to his room when him and Severus was there. Jinx taps on Dracos balcony. He immediately opens it and takes the letter.

Merlins he wanted to tell her. He couldn't, he was chosen, if he fails, they'll kill him. They made it clear if he even said anything, she'll be gone. Draco sat on his bed, began to read the neatly written letter.

My love,
You are not hurting anyone. Dont ever think that you are less than anyone, you are not. Im in the stars, watching over you, im not gone. My heart breaks for what you are going through right now, I need to be with you. I dont want you to be in this pain. No need to worry about me, im alright. As long as I have you, im perfectly fine, where i need to be. We'll see each other real soon, like I promised you.

Draco held the letter tightly to his chest and cried. He cant lose her. She's the only one who can numb the pain, who wont judge him, loves him for who he is. With all this weight on his shoulders, with Voldemort giving him the mark, he just wants to take her away, run away from this. Forget that this ever existed. No more magic, no more rules, no more...

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Weeks pasted. Staying home made me realize how lonely I am. Since my father, Katherine and Lucas have been coming and going, its like I barely see and talk to anybody. I only have letters that are keeping me sane at the moment. I had time to think about Voldemort, but honestly when I go to that thought, I get scared, my chest hurts whenever I think about it.

I sat in the tub, listening to the radio, playing with the bubbles, just thinking about how this is all going to end. I slid back, going under the water, closing my eyes. I heard a knock and I sat up, tilting my head at the door.

"You've been in there since 10 this morning, its now noon." Katherine comes in, placing a towel on the countertop.

"Ill be out." Katherine sighs and closes the door. I drained the water, grabbing the towel and drying myself. I put on my pjs and robe, tying the robe as I walked down the stairs. Katherine was sitting on the couch reading a book, so I went, laying my head on her lap, as she strokes my hair. "Has anyone outsmarted the lord before?" I asked out of the blue. Katherine looks down at me, putting her book down. "Did they get away with it?"

"I believe one did." She strokes my hair again. "Why?"

"Just wondering." I sat up. Katherine was concerned.

"Why are you wondering this?" I shrugged my shoulders. "Daphne-"

"I dont want to do this anymore." Katherines face softens. "I dont want to be a deatheater anymore. I've been so emotionally drained and I feel like I'm going to lose people I love." I wiped my face from frustration. "No matter how many people are in my life, I feel so lonely. I want to change." Katherine covers her mouth with her shaky hand. "This is stupid- stupid." I shook my head, getting up from the couch. "I dont know why I said that." I forced a laugh. Katherine held me.