My Yellow

Part 23 - Theo

The cops make me leave the bathroom. I stare at Rose on the floor. I hear doors opening outside. I blink, and look down at myself. I'm covered in blood. Her blood. I hear a jingle of a stretcher. I go out of the room so the paramedics can get to her. I look down at the hall and see Maddy and Jiung. Maddy's eyes go wide. She runs to me, and looks inside the room. She tries to go in but I pull her back. "You don't want to see it in there," I whisper to her.

"What did she do!" Maddy screams. "What happened!"

"Maddy," Jiung says now also pulling her back. "Maddy hold on," Jiung wraps his arms around her.

"She's gonna be okay," I say to Maddy, more convincing myself than her. "Just let them do their thing."

"Theo you're.." Jiung looks me up and down. I nod.

"I know," I whisper. I step away from the door and jiung helps Maddy do the same while the paramedics take Rose out on the stretcher. My heart is racing. "I need to go with her," I say and start to run after her. I run until I get to the door. I feel a hand on my arm. I turn and see Keeho.

"You can't go with her," he whispers.

"I can and I will," I shake his hand off of me and run to the ambulance. I stand by the open doors.

"Sir you can't," a paramedic says to me. "She's in critical condition we need to get going." I stare at Rose, she looks like she's sleeping. Like she'll just wake up any second and be okay.

"I have to," my voice is loud. "I have to!" I try to climb in, but I feel keeho pull me back. I struggle against him as the paramedics shut the doors and drive off. I push keeho off of me. I step away from him and look down at my hands. They're covered in blood. My left hand is swollen. I'm now feeling the pain surging through my body. Hitting the wall then hitting John definitely broke my hand. I take deep breaths and push past keeho.

"Theo," Keeho walks after me.

"No!" I turn. Anger filling my body. "I need to clean up her room so it's clean when she gets back." I stare at Keeho.

"Theo," he says. "Do you really think.. do you really think she's gonna come back?"

"Yes Keeho! I do!" I yell. "Youre fucking horrible for thinking she won't." I say lowly and walk inside. I walk through the hallway and go to Roses room. I stand in the doorway. Maddy and Jiung must have gone back to his room. I walk inside and block out the bathroom. I go to her desk, seeing a piece of paper. I open it and start reading it. Once I get to my name, I pause. I re-read what she wrote to me over and over again. The words not sitting in my head. I hold the paper tight and look up to the wall. My body is aching. I back up. I sit down on her bed and re-read the letter again. I tap my foot and stand. I need to go to her. I walk out of her room, and look to my left. I see a few managers on the phone. My brain is lagging. I turn to my right and see policemen talking to Maddy and Jiung. I take in a deep breath and walk towards the managers, I go past them and go straight to my room. I go inside and shut the door. I put her note down and take off my clothes. I bunch them up and throw them into the corner of the room. I walk into my bathroom and run the shower. I step in and scrub my body. I watch the crimson color of blood go down the drain. I shut my eyes and scrub my body harder. Once I feel clean, I step out and turn the water off. The image of her laying on the bathroom floor replaying in my head. I grab a towel and dry myself off. I walk to my clothes and throw on a hoodie and sweatpants, before going to my door. I open it right as a policeman was about to knock.

"Can I ask you a few questions about what went on tonight?" He asks, notepad ready.

"I know as much as everyone else. John came and attacked her, we got him off of her and then she..." I stared at him. "She hurt herself. That's all I know."

"Did you hurt John?" He asks.

"Of course I did," I stared at the cop. "He attacked her and that was the only way to get him to stop. He had a knife."

"He had a knife?" The policeman makes a note. "Do you know what kind?"

"No, but I'm sure it's still outside," I say, growing impatient. "Is that all?"

"Did he attack you for you to have hit him?"

"Sure," I say. "Hella scary. Came right at me," I lie and tap my fingers on my leg. "Can I go?"

"Okay," he watches me. "If we have anymore questions we will be in contact," he then gets on his radio to tell the others to look for a knife. I shut my door and walk back to my desk. I grab her note. I fold it up and put it in my pocket. I open the door and see the policeman walking away. I walk to Jiungs room. I knock, then just go in. Maddy is crying in his arms.

"I'm going to see her," I say. "Maddy do you wanna go?"

"How did I not know?" Maddy asks quietly. "Shes my fucking best friend how did I not know!" She cries harder. I stare at her.

"Don't blame yourself," I watch Nina walk out of the bathroom, she looks exhausted.

"What if she doesn't make it," Maddy lifts her head up and looks at me. I look away from her. I don't say anything.

"We just have to hope," Jiung says.

"I'll be back okay?" I say and shut their door. I stare at the door handle. What if she doesn't make it?