But I'm Straight (Phan AU)

Starlight (Chapt. 28)

(Phil's POV)

Today marks one week since Dan was emitted into the hospital. Two days ago when we were there the doctor told us they won't be letting any visitors in until he's condition gets a little better.

I got out of bed and stumbled into the kitchen. I plopped down onto the bar stool next to the breakfast counter.

I looked out the window and saw my mom on the phone with someone on the deck.

When my mom came back in and saw me, she grinned.

"Honey, guess what?"

"What?"

"Dan's heart is now at a steady normal pace so we can go visit him!"

I gasped, "What?! Are you serious?!"

"Yes!" She yelled, rejoiced.

"Yay! I'm going to go get dressed now."

I ran up the stairs and into my room. I stripped out of my clothes and put on a gray t-shirt with flowers on it and gray skinny jeans.

When I went back down the stairs, I saw my mom applying lipstick and smacking her lips together.

"Ready to go?" She asked and I nodded. We went out to her car and got into the passenger side. She went to the driver's seat and we started the drive to the hospital.

"I miss him." I stated out of the blue. My mom reached over and rubbed my arm.

"I know, honey, I know."

"Maybe it will be like one of those movies when they wake up while a visitor is holding their hand." I only half joked and my mom smiled pitifully at me.

By the time we were in the hospital's parking garage I was bouncing with excitement. Even though I know I couldn't fully interact with him like I wish I could, just seeing his face will make me happy.

We went down the elevator and into the lobby. There was a lady with short, choppy black hair and scrubs behind the desk.

"Hello." The lady said.

"Hi. We're hear to see Daniel James Howell." Mum said and the woman typed a few letters into the computer then scrolled down, repeating 'daniel howell' quietly to herself.

"Ah, yes. He's in room 420B on floor eight." The woman told us.

Mum thanked her and we went to another elevator and got in pressing eight. We already knew his floor number since we sat in the waiting room on that floor.

There was another receptionist on the floor and their was a paper on a clipboard where you fill out your name, patient's name, and relation to patient.

'Philip Lester, Dan Howell, Friend'

A few lines above I saw Dan's mum's name and assumed she was in there with him now since the sign out date had yet to be filled out.

I sat patiently in one of the comfy chairs. I twiddled my thumbs and played with my fingers.

I started to braid my hair and when Mrs. Howell came out from a hallway I quickly ran my fingers through it so it came out.

"Phil Lester." A doctor called. I looked up. He had gray hair, a goatee, glasses, and a goofy smile on his face.

I stood up and followed him through the hallway. We stopped at a room and the doctor pushed it over making room for me to walk in.

Dan was laying asleep in a bed with a hospital gown. There were two balloons and a stuffed llama next to him that I assumed his mother gave him.

I knew there was something I forgot.

I sat on the chair next to the bed and scotched over. He looked so peaceful. Without any stress and no worries. His face was very pale and his lips were a little purple and chapped.

I laced my fingers through his limp hand. It was dry and ghostly white. I made sure not to mess up any of the tubes that were in his arms. There was a saline bag and a bag which had blood in it which I assumed they were using to restore blood in his body since he had lost so much.

I carefully placed a kiss onto the top of his hand a brushed his hair out of his face.

"Hi, Dan. I hope you're doing okay. I really miss you. But good news is that Hayley is going to visit you tomorrow. She's lost without you." I smiled but it didn't reach my eyes.

"School has been pretty sucky without you. Nobody at school knows why you're here though which is good. They just know you're in a coma quite frankly.

Everyone keeps asking if I'm okay and sending your family a bunch of cards. It's a nice gesture. Do you know that girl Emma in English? Believe it or not she keeps asking me for updates on how you've been doing. She seems pretty worried and always talks about you. She seems interested in you." I very lightly nudged him and whooped, 'chick magnet.'

Oh my gosh I'm just embarrassing myself now. I don't know what I'm doing, okay?!

I would love to know what you're dreaming about. Or if you're dreaming at all.

I'm sorry you are stuck in this depressing place. You will be out of here soon.
Just hang in there, love."

I took my phone out of my coat pocket and unwrapped my earbuds from around it. I put the right one in my ear and I put the left one in Dan's.

"I want you to listen to this song. I think you'd like it."

I clicked on the song and made sure not to turn it up too loud which was a bad habit of mine.

"Far away, the ship is taking me far away

Far away from the memories

Of the people who care if I live or die...

The starlight

I will be chasing teh starlight

Until the end of my life

I don't know if it's worth it anymore...

Hold you in my arms

I just wanted to hold you in my arms..."

Throughout the song I studied Dan to see if I could notice any movement. But as the song ended, I came to the realization that it would be too good to be true.

I read online tht if you play a song that a person who's in a coma likes they might wake up so I thought it was worth a shot.

I heard a knock on the door and the dotor peeked his head in and said, "Please say your goodbyes. We have to run some tests on Daniel here." I nodded and the door closed.

"I have to go now okay? I will be here tomorrow, the next day, the next day, the next day, and everyday until you wake up or..", I shudder at the thought, "Just nevermind. See you later. I love you." I murmured as I leaned down the press my lips softly onto his forehead and let them linger for a second.

I got up and started to head out of the hospital room. I placed my hand on the cold, metal knob as I turned back.

"The hardest part of this is leaving you." I said quietly and opened the door and walked out.

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A/N: Omfg. I tried writing this whole chapter and it was all done when google chrome crashed :( It's times like this when I have to turn to internet explorer. But anyways, yay update!

I want to start writing a new chapter today so if you guys have any ideas of things Phil could talk about the next time he visits dan i would REALLY appreciate it!!!

QOTD: Favorite song at the moment?

AOTD: Hm...Fourfiveseconds-Rihanna, Kanye West, and Paul McCartney