Matches
And lighters
Fire fighters
Start the choir
Of lost souls
As I dive in
To the flames
I'm a masochist
I can handle the heat
I'll be fine
My heart still beats
That is enough
It is
I know it is
Watch my flame burn me out
Watch the heat
Leave me in a drought
I can't get out
Don't save me
I don't deserve it
The flames chose me
I heard it
They said
" you have to stay here
You asked for too much
You're never enough
You're useless
You'll lose it
Out there
Without me
Burn and you will see
The ash surrounding me
Is your only home"
I want to breathe again
My home is burning down
I scream out
But hear no sound
I'm bound
By own guilt
Or maybe someone else's
I got lost along the way
It's fine
I'll stay
With the smoke
I will choke
On all the words I can never say
On all the games I'll never play
The confidence I don't have
The cash grabs
That led me to this
It was my fault
I shouldn't have asked for anything
No reward comes
Without punishment
So I'll live with it
I asked for this
I asked for this
Didn't I?
I am usually shy
All I wanted was a little light
A candle
In the dark
But it caught on the curtains
And now I'm burning
I deserve this
I deserve this
I deserve...
So much more
I deserve to not feel torn
Bound and choked
I deserve to not die
From smoke
And ash
And burning cash
I deserve to breathe
No I deserve more
I deserve more than to be alive
I deserve to thrive
And I'm not doing that here
When a flower is wilting,
You don't throw it away
You change the soil
Give it water
And sun
You help it live
Not survive
I deserve to thrive
I deserve more than to
Just
Be
Alive
I've survived long enough
I'm letting go
Maybe it's them that are not enough for me
I do not know
But I guess we will see
How hard they try to crawl back
When I cut them off
I'm guessing it won't be a lot
I'm worth knowing
And I am worth more
Than burning away
I am not a match
I am not a flame
I am not a lighter
I am in pain
And I don't want to be anymore
