Safety
Is a funny thing
It brings a sense of comfort
Of belonging
And longing
To be something
You want to be
Safety
Is also constraining
Like I am being tied down
Like the sound of my voice
Needs to be muffled out
Safety
Is draining
Is painstaking
And I am straining
To be something
Someone
I never wanted to be
All for
Safety
Safety nets
Try their best
To hold me
When shit goes down
When the world flips
Upside down
When I am alone
When the world is too fucking loud
I
Am
Safe
But
I am stuck in one place
I am trapped in a room
Full of things I don't want to be doing
As a back up
Everything needs a backup
Right?
So we can sleep at night
So we can be right
So we can stand up right
So we can fuck up
But isn't the fuck up enough?
To send us down the path we need to go
To grow
You cant grow in a caged habitat
When you are stuck
You can't be anything
More
That that
Than stuck
In muck
Of what you thought
You'd overcome
Eventually
And that it was worth it
To stay safe
Backups
Don't really prevent
Screw ups
Just seal the door to the unknown
Yeah I am safe here
Yeah I can play here
Yeah I'm a slave here
I can't make mistakes here
I am always the same here
I always save here
I always wait here
Might as well stay here
Until I cave here
I forgave here
I made here
To be my prison
And I have been sitting
In it
For way too long
Time to be strong
And cut the net
For the rope isn't special
If you don't walk it
If you don't do the dangerous
If it's the same to us
Every day
There is a balance there
A fine line
There is a dangerous need for caution
There are land mines
But there is also grass under your toes
And a cool stream on your heels
There is the wind on your breath
And violin strings in your feels
And blood on your tongue
Don't let it make you numb
We all bleed
sometimes
Take the time to heal
And keep going
Keep growing
Or stay frozen
With a back up
Always on your back
Making up for what you lack
Making up for
Your own fuck ups
Making up
For a potential heart attack
And keep the breaking back
To carry all that weight
Never make a mistake
Shove away
What you try to prevent
And never
Leave
Your
Safety net
