Safety
Is a funny thing
It brings a sense of comfort
Of belonging
And longing
To be something
You want to beSafety
Is also constraining
Like I am being tied down
Like the sound of my voice
Needs to be muffled outSafety
Is draining
Is painstaking
And I am straining
To be something
Someone
I never wanted to beAll for
Safety
Safety nets
Try their best
To hold me
When shit goes down
When the world flips
Upside downWhen I am alone
When the world is too fucking loud
I
Am
SafeBut
I am stuck in one place
I am trapped in a room
Full of things I don't want to be doing
As a back upEverything needs a backup
Right?
So we can sleep at night
So we can be right
So we can stand up right
So we can fuck upBut isn't the fuck up enough?
To send us down the path we need to go
To growYou cant grow in a caged habitat
When you are stuck
You can't be anything
More
That thatThan stuck
In muck
Of what you thought
You'd overcome
Eventually
And that it was worth itTo stay safe
Backups
Don't really prevent
Screw ups
Just seal the door to the unknownYeah I am safe here
Yeah I can play here
Yeah I'm a slave here
I can't make mistakes here
I am always the same here
I always save here
I always wait here
Might as well stay here
Until I cave here
I forgave hereI made here
To be my prison
And I have been sitting
In it
For way too longTime to be strong
And cut the netFor the rope isn't special
If you don't walk it
If you don't do the dangerous
If it's the same to us
Every dayThere is a balance there
A fine line
There is a dangerous need for caution
There are land minesBut there is also grass under your toes
And a cool stream on your heels
There is the wind on your breath
And violin strings in your feels
And blood on your tongueDon't let it make you numb
We all bleed
sometimesTake the time to heal
And keep goingKeep growing
Or stay frozen
With a back up
Always on your back
Making up for what you lack
Making up for
Your own fuck ups
Making up
For a potential heart attackAnd keep the breaking back
To carry all that weight
Never make a mistake
Shove away
What you try to prevent
And never
Leave
Your
Safety net
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