I guess I'm tired
For the first time in a while
I can actually sleep
And I need air to breathe
Or the earth below me
Will crumble at my feet
And I'm not ready to meet that fate
How much more can I take before I drown
How much more before I back the fuck down
I'm ready to stop
I'm ready to leave
I'm ready to finally be me
But I'm having a hard time
Just to do it
Just to go through with it
Why do I cry
When my dad says he's proud of me
Why do I feel like it is so hard
To be who I want to be
And all that is
Is me
I want to go to sleep easy
Wake up in the morning
And smile
I want to take a shower
And breathe in the world after
I want to walk outside
In the dead of winter
And not even care
Because anywhere is all you'll ever be
I need to learn to be happy
With just me
And stop caring what others think
And maybe I should just go to sleep
