I feel detached
From humanity
How could I be an army?
How could I be the enemy
When I'm more than human
I'm the hero
I must be
Because the hero
Can do anything
And does hard things
Without batting an eye
Why would I do that
If I was just human
How could I do anything
If I was less than average
No I must be magic
I have to be
I feel it inside of me
I must help who I can
I must do what I was made for
But what was I made for
Who do I pray for
When I don't believe in a god
Maybe I am one
I must be
Because only a god could take this on
The pain in my chest
I have to be the best
I can't be human
Because I would never
Subject a human
To this
I can't cry
I need to be a light
In your dark
Don't snuff me out
Like you could snuff out a god
For I am strong
I must me
The weight I bear
Is far too heavy
For any mere mortal
I must have a portal
For my mind
Lives many lives
To please so many people
I must be a hero
For I am flexible
I can bend to anyones will
I can stretch
I can heal
I peel away my layers
And sew them back together
So I must be a superhero
Right?
No human could do this
It wouldn't be fair
They would pull out their hair
And break down
And I have not
So,
I must strong
Right?
I must sing along
Right?
I can't move on
Right?
I...
must be wrong
Right?
This has gone on too long
Time to ring the gong
And go back to being human
It's a looming terror
To think that I'm breakable
Magic can't break
Hero's don't break
Gods don't break
For heavens sake!
I don't break.
Humans are allowed to break
I can't
So how can I be human?
I am detached
I have a path
In my head
It winds and bends
And I pretend
And play hero's
And gods
And be magic
Magic cant cry
Hero's never lie
And gods never die
I can't cry
I'll never lie
And...
I don't think I've seen that last part yet
I don't plan to
Not any time soon
For if I do,
I don't want to think about it
Gods don't fear death
Neither do hero's
And magic can't fear it
So I suppose I am human
That doesn't feel right
I must. Be. A. light.
I.must.be.alright.
I.must.fight.
But
Fuck
I'm tired.
