Living is hard
Cooking takes time
Humans need breaks
And learning takes time
Long walks are boring
But are great for my soul
And reading is is tiring
But it fills my holes
With all the things I've yet to know
It is not hard to be alive
We do that every day
It is hard to live
It is not hard to go about you day
It is hard to be saved
It's not hard to take a shower
But it hard to stay clean
It is easy to be silent
It is hard to not be mean
We weigh all this in our heads
And that does not hurt
But our chest
Is about to burst
That would be a first
A pounding near my lungs
That is not my heart
I am undone
I come apart
At the fear that I am a person
And I need to continue to be a person
Yet
I've done it before
And I'll do it again
It's not easy
But it's not hard
And in the end
I always just need to go to bed.
I spend all my time sleeping and none of it dreaming
I used to draw
I used to write
I used to care
I used to be right
... right?
Kittens are fluffy
That makes life a bit easier
A shower is difficult to muster
But I will feel better
Homework sucks
But it makes me better
Smarter
Maybe for once I won't try to work harder
And assume that will fix it
I'll sit
Right here
On a park bench
On the outskirts of a big city
And I will watch life go by
Without me
Fuck
That sounds lonely
Maybe I'll shower
Then go to bed
Then go to work
And make a better plan for homework
And
Keep going
Not my best poem
But a good reminder
That sometimes the best part of life
Is just regular old living.
