I used to hold you
Like a hurricane would blow through
I used to love
Like something would kill you
I'd hug so tight your bones could crumble
I would bundle you up
Into my arms
And we would stare at stars
And fall asleep
With too many secrets to keep
And too many past lives to hold on to
Please hold on to me
While I clutch onto you
We may be falling into an abyss
But who else could kiss you like this
When they think you dead
When your head
May no longer house a working mind
People are much more kind
We could drowned forever
And swirl uncontrollably around
And I would just be happy
To be found
My lungs full of soot
From fires we started
Because if we parted
The world may as well be ablaze
Because I could never live without you
Our hearts a maze
With a Minotaur in the center
The splendor
Of having such little air in your lungs
You feel like you can breathe
With lights growing dim
I'm holding him
And fuck
Isn't that what matters?
I'm dying
But at least I'm dying with you.
Until you leave
Because I held on too tight
Too many starry nights
Too many dim lights
I was killing us
To feel special
To feel like I was the only one
You could hold
You could kiss
There was poison on my lips
In my spit
I'm sorry love
I admit
I wanted the world to end
I didn't want to breathe
Because maybe
If the world was ending
You wouldn't leave.
Thank god I don't love like that anymore
I know now how much it means
When someone chooses to stay
Chooses to say "hey, I love you"
Every day
Because they want to
I'm so happy I'm done pretending
And that my world
Is no longer
Constantly
Ending
