𝓣𝓱𝓲𝓮𝓻 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓢𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂 *𝔑𝔞𝔪𝔧𝔦𝔫* ^𝔜𝔬𝔬𝔫𝔨𝔬𝔬𝔨^

4

27.12.2016

Jungkook was slightly shocked when he saw Taehyung enter the store he worked at. Even more so with the way Taehyung kept looking at his clothes as though they were dirt.

He grabbed two items and brought them to the til "I know you don't do friends, but if you don't want the whole school knowing about your situation and you don't want to become an orphan then I suggest you go along with what Jimin wants" His voice was lower than usual.

And if Jungkook hadn't been so focused on the words Taehyung was saying he probably would have ignored him.

"Excuse me?" He raised an eyebrow "you heard me" Taehyung said, for a minute Jungkook didn't know how to feel, it was either he became friends and did something he didn't want to or his whole school began pitying him and ended up in an orphanage.

"If you don't agree tomorrow at lunch I'll make sure you regret it in ways you'll never forget" And then he was gone without even paying for the items Jungkook had scanned.

.・゜-: ✧ :-　　 -: ✧ :-゜・．

The more he thought about it the longer he stayed awake, it was scary, so fucking scary, to be taken away and sent off to a place he'd never been to and have to call that home.

To have everyone look at him with pitiful eyes.

That was the first time of many times -that would soon come- where Jungkook found himself scared of Taehyung.

28.12.2016

"I know you said you didn't want to be fri-" Jungkook cut Jimin off "I'll be you guys' friend" he said. His food before him was untouched due to the lack of apatite.

"What the... Really?" Jimin asked "yeah" Jungkook nodded his eyes darting to Taehyung who was smiling at him before they moved back to his food.

"Oh my, thank you so much!" Jimin squealed.

From then on things changed for Jungkook, the threats increase much like his fear of Taehyung. The sleepless night also increased.

The things he didn't want to do but did in fear of losing his job made him sick.

The kick that Taehyung would sometimes send to Jungkook's side of the table made Jungkook flinch. And when he tried to escape by spending the majority of his time in the bathroom because he really wasn't enjoying the company Taehyung had caught on to and called him out.

But after several months of hanging with them every lunch period, Jungkook slowly grew a little closer to them, and slowly started to enjoy their presence, the only thing he didn't enjoy was Taehyung being there.

It made him want to almost cry out of fear because as he grew closer he began to relax when talking to Jimin, Yoongi and Namjoon, but whenever it came to talking to Taehyung he froze and began to uncomfortable.

The 15 year old boy was struggling to keep up with the shit life kept throwing at him, even after growing closer to the 3 boys he was still hiding a lot from them and it was starting to suffocate him.

The feeling of Taehyung saying something that could make the way people look at him change was so scary and instead of keeping his eye on the clock in classes he started to keep in Taehyung in fear that he might raise his hand and expose the younger.

Even without that fear, there were many other things Jungkook was worrying about, it was his parents, the amount that they were paying was becoming less each week while the amount he was paying was becoming more.

The boy was starting to wonder if he would be able to pay the rent that week.

If he would be able to work for another day.

Wondered if his parents were gonna end up dying due to how much they drank and how high they would get.

Now the thought of ending it was really starting to flood his mind.

14.3.2017

Laying in his bed he turned over, it was another sleepless night, the phone he managed to save up for and buy, laying on his leg and the song 'Fake a Smile' playing loud in his ears.

Every day feels like a waste

Maybe if I just end it the pain will stop

The song finished and went on the next, jungkook felt himself sigh when he heard the beginning of the next song.

He wanted to hear it, so he could find comfort in it but knew he would only end up crying. He took a deep breath and began singing along.

"Look into the mirror and I don't know what to do, mama telling..." Then he trialled off words getting stuck in his throat and eyes tearing up he didn't have anyone to call mama, his mother had hated it from when he was young.

He still did it though.

And he'd looked into the mirror today just to not know what to do. Fuck why did he relate to that line so much?

He sighs and continued to sing along "called my bus and I cried along the way, I was getting picked on in the lunch line, all my friends ate mine never touches mine, why's my girl fucking round with another guy? Dark thoughts started weighing on my young mind, but I ain't ever been the type to go and unwind, so if you ask my replies just I'm fine, until I get hom-" He trialed off realization hitting him.

He hadn't been touching his food, Jimin and the others had been eating it since he'd claimed he wasn't hungry.

The dark thoughts were taking over his mind and every time the teachers asked he responded with I'm fine, it's fine or everything's fine.

He was so close to crying, yet he pushed the urge back and began paying attention to the lyrics, except this time he didn't sing along.

Mama asking everything alright.

He couldn't take it the tears were spilling, his mother had rarely asked if he was alright.

Yet only for a second did he stop listening to the lyrics. By the time he'd start listening again the words everything's alright had just stopped repeating.

And it was just the piano with muffled words playing in the background, Jungkook knew he should have stopped listening, he wasn't finding comfort in the songs that were playing in his ears.

But he didn't want to, he wanted to continue because while it was making him cry, it was giving something to relate to even if it was just 4 lines he still felt the slightest bit satisfied.

I've tried and I've tried I don't think I can do it.

Only think by my side it mama and music.

The only thing by his side was work and work.

And I know she gonna cry maybe never get through it.

No-one was gonna cry for hin

But I don't wanna be alive and death is tell me prove it.

Bullies telling me do it.

Teachers think that I'm stupid.

They probably did. Wondered why he didn't run away, or ask for help.

He was crying more, the lyrics slowly disappearing and turning into muffled shit that he couldn't focus on.

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ Chapter 4 ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊