Find Me / Save Me (Bucky x Reader)

Twenty-Two

Bucky's POV

It starts slow. Kids playing in the streets. Bike rides. Coney Island. Then the visions get stronger. Walking with Steve back to his home after his mother passed. Picking up my uniform for the first time. Fighting in an alley, saving my friends. Saying goodbye to my friends.

The visions start to twist and darken. A cold table. A scientist injecting me, torturing me.

Then they brighten. Captain America. Patriot Angel. My angel. Memories of missions, late night kisses, stolen moments.

Then falling. Darkness. Pain.

I feel myself yell against the memories. Not wanting to remember all the bad. I want to stay with the good.

Training, torture and missions bombard my visions one right after another. A book comes into my vision. No. I try to pull away from the memory, not wanting to return there.

I snap back with a jolt, finding myself in the chair in Tony's lab. My hands nearly breaking the chair arms.

"Breathe Barnes. Breathe." I faintly hear Tony's voice say. I turn and face him, trying to regulate my breathing.

"Won't hurt my ass Stark." I say between breaths.

"You're fighting it idiot. Don't fight it and it won't hurt." He says taking a seat in front of me. "What is that book? You completely broke out of the process when it showed up."

"It has my command words. Hydra has a set of words, that once spoken trigger the Winter Soldier to comply. I... I was scared to hear them again." I let the worry and doubt show in my face.

I can see Tony thinking at my words. The gears in his head turning. Working double time. "I get it." He puts his fingers to his chin. Then in abrupt thought jolts his fingers up over his head "I got it!" He goes to tinker with his computer some more, leaving me completely confused.

"Any progress?" I turn to face the doorway to see Steve there.

"I'm not sure..." I reply, honestly not knowing the answer.

"I've got it! Oh hey capsicle! Yes progress, we have progress. After a few changes I think now when we delve into the memories again it won't induce a reaction from your friend here."

"How?" I say looking back to Tony. "I'm going to give you something Bruce had concocted for stress, didn't really do much for him. But it'll knock the hell outta you. Then I can keep watching the pretty movie I was watching. I really enjoyed the skinny tiny version of you better Cap." He said finally smirking at Steve.

"Hey boys. Nice to see you all playing nice. But I think there's something you need to see." The red head came into the room. Natasha, that's what they called her. She walks right out of the room, Steve and Tony immediately start following her. I get up from my chair, feeling like I have no right to follow them. I follow them anyways.

We walk into a room with a large desk and chairs all around it. Tony takes a seat on one side of the table. Steve on the other. Then I feel someone walk past me, bumping my shoulder. He glaces at me and gives me a look laced with... anger? I can't place the emotion. I remember him from the other day. Sam. He takes a seat next to Steve. Not knowing what to do with myself I stand by the doorframe.

The red head... Natasha... starts talking. "So we took our first Hydra base down yesterday. And while the guys were doing some work, I slipped and did what I do best. I got some intel from their computers."

"Of course, you did." Tony replied half sarcastically half serious.

Natasha just kept speaking, not paying Tony's comment any mind. "I started going over it, at first it was only basic Hydra files. Names, weapons manifests. Things we already had. But I eventually found some encrypted files. Sent to that base from another base. The encryption is far more advanced than what I can decrypt. But just the name of the file... well take a look."