Find Me / Save Me (Bucky x Reader)

Seventy-Five

A/N: I hope you guys are still enjoying this story. We're not done yet... I know its going through some dark times now. But things will change.

Bucky's POV

Everything is a blur. I can hear sirens. I can hear people guiding us away from the broken field towards unbroken ground. I can faintly recall being examined for injuries. But it all seems far away and distant. Nothing makes sense or pulls me from my trance.

That is, until Tony grabs my shoulder and calls my name. I snap back to reality and observe him. His burned flesh, and bruised body. It's a miracle he's alive. He's bandaged up, his damaged hand now resting comfortably in a sling. How much time has passed?

"Barnes. We're all heading to the cabin now." I look towards Tony and feel lost and confused.

"Cabin?" My voice sounds rough and dry.

Tony pulls at my shoulder to get me walking next to him, towards a black van where I could see a lot of the team standing by. "My cabin. My home. Sarah is there."

I let Tony continue to drag me to the van. "Sarah..." my voice sounds distant. Sarah. Oh Sarah... I can feel myself almost weaken at the thought of seeing Sarah without (Y/N) again. I can feel someone leading me to a seat in the van, but my mind floats with thoughts of Sarah. What do I tell my daughter? I – I don't even understand what happened. I – I feel so lost.

I can feel the car move and the scenery change around me, but I feel frozen in place. Scared, confused, lost. I haven't felt this lost since (Y/N) freed me from my hell with HYDRA, since I thought I had lost her to the depths of the Potomac. Without her I am lost. It's always been that way. I am lost...

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Tony's POV

The whole car ride was silent. All we could do was give each other silent looks as we observed Barnes' state. He was no longer crying, that had stopped long ago. He was frozen, if things weren't so bleak right now I'd be making up nicknames for him non-stop. But now is not the time.

My eyes land on Steve's and we're practically having a silent conversation with just looks.

He's not okay. Steve's eyes practically convey.

I shake my head and look at Barnes again, then back to Steve. What can we do?

I watch Steve close his eyes and sigh then glance over to Natasha, another silent conversation taking place. When they both look at me, their eyes are worried, but I can tell it's about something, or rather someone else. Sarah.

Hell. I don't know how Barnes is going to react seeing her right now. Will he break down? Will he close himself off? Get violent? The last option I highly doubt. Not in the presence of his little girl.

But how do we explain to her what happened? How can I look Sarah in the eye and not feel like I have failed her? Because I have failed her. I failed her mother more times than I can count, and because of my failures she now has to grow up without a mother.

My mind floats to Tink. The vision I got of her telling me she's not leaving us. That she'll find a way. That was just a vision wasn't it? Tink's gone. Natasha said it can't be undone. This can't be undone.

I break away from those thoughts as I feel the car slow. I glance back to Barnes, but he's still lost to the world. I'm worried. Sarah already lost one parent. She can't afford to lose another.

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Bucky's POV

"Barnes." That's my name... right? "Barnes... we're here." I look up to see Tony looking at me expectantly, Steve right behind him with a similar look on his face.