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Raven Pt. 2

Okay SO I started this Mini series One because Raven never got a baby chapter. Two because Raven is the only kid without a partner in the main group. Three because I wanted to add Blueprint (Who in my AU is NOT related to Ink). Four because I use all the other kids (especially Crayola and occasionally Seven.) And Five because I needed content. 

   Warning! Suicidal Thoughts and mental breakdown. 

   It only took three weeks before I ended up back on the bridge. Gothy and I had a fight because I made Palette cry. I didn't mean to make him cry. I spilled the paint on accident. It didn't help that it had already been a terrible sleeping night and a bad mental health day. Not that anyone noticed. . . Okay maybe Papa noticed. But he didn't say anything. 

   I was just sitting on the railing. I probably wouldn't get the courage tonight. That boy kept popping into my head. Lucky... Pretty unlucky if you ask me... My one chance. 

   The tears didn't want to stop tonight. My thoughts had been spiraling for a while when there was a tap to my shoulder. It was that boy. "Lucky?"

   "Blueprint." He corrected with a short smile. "I started jogging this route ever day in case you came back."

   I wiped at my eyes and looked down at the rocks. It would probably be a quick death.  It might hurt for a moment but then it would be gone. 

   "Do uh... Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked leaning on the railing from the right side. 

   I looked at the sky and saw dawn coming. "Yeah... I really do..." I turned around wiping my face with my palms. 

   Blueprint looked surprised for a moment. Then he smiled comfortingly. "I'm listening."

   "I'm the youngest in my family. Out off all my cousins. And I was kinda an accident." 

   The morning sped on. Blueprint and I sat there as I blabbed my whole life story. He never once interrupted or tried to talk me down again. He gave a patient smile or sad eyes or a comforting pat. 

   I hadn't noticed the cars beginning to go by. I hadn't noticed what time it was. 

   "So yeah... Gothy yelled at me and I just went to my room. I snuck out my window..." I sighed. We were finally caught up to the present. 

   "That's kind of dumb. You're the younger brother. They shouldn't yell at you. How old are you anyway?"

   "Fourteen."

   "Hah! I'm fifteen." He stuck his tongue out. 

   I laughed feebly. He was tiny for his age. "Yeah it was kinda dumb wasn't it. It was an accident anywa-"

   "Raven!!!"

   I turned my head sharply. Uh oh. Papa. 

   Reaper ran over and pulled his son off the railing. "Where have you been all night!? We were searching everywhere!!!" He glanced over the edge of the bridge and his face tensed up. "Were you going to jump?" 

   "No!" I answered way to quickly. I wasn't going to. But I was thinking about it. 

   Reaper was suddenly deadly serious. "Raven do you have any idea how many teenage kids I see at my job who have committed suicide? I wouldn't be able to bear it it one of them was you!" 

   I stared at him quietly. "Papa.. I'm... I'm okay." 

   "But what if you weren't? Oh stars have we really been that bad of a failure to you?" he was crying from his blank sockets. "Raven you're our baby! We love you SO much."

   My soul flipped. "Goth doesn't act like it." I looked off to the side shoving my hands in my hoodie.

   He blinked. "Oh Raven." He wrapped his arms around me. "How long..?"

   I gripped the back of his shirt. How long? When was the first time I came out here? The first time I felt like I was one to many? 

   "I don't know." Tears streaked down my face. "Papa-" My voice broke. 

   "Oh Raven." Reaper scooped his son up. Gosh he was so light. How had they not noticed. He must have gotten Reapers ease of hiding things. And he was simply light like Geno. Always had been. He was a tiny baby even if he had grown tall. 

   Raven hiccupped softly burying his face in his fathers shirt. In the commotion, Blueprint had somehow slipped away.