The Boundless Bond

Part 65

Ashwin started off the conversation to talk about what's happening between the two of them lately.

Ashwin: we're going to talk it out, right?

Ashima: yea, we can't be running away from each other like this

Ashwin: ahem, you mean, like you?

Ashima: fine (emoji)

Ashwin: okay, you first, then I'll go on

Ashima: I've been feeling like we don't spend time often, we are living in the same house and stuff, but something's missing. Nee sonna maari naa leave la irukura naala nu yosichum pathen, but it's not. I have been on leave before and you went for interviews during those times, appo lam I didn't feel like this. To be really honest, I think you're too busy for me. Weekdays, work, I understand. But weekends? We used to spend these days together, aana now I think you've found some other happy place

Ashwin: hmmmm

Ashima: and no, it's not my mood swings, I know it

Ashwin: yea, even I know it's not your mood swings

Ashima: so, you know that something's wrong?

Ashwin: yes, abby, for some time

Ashima: why didn't you tell me then? At least ivlo dhooram vandhurkadhu

Ashwin: you were too busy for it

Ashima: when was that? Naa veetla dhana iruken, nee dhana busy a irukardhu ippo

Ashwin: abby, before I start..I want you to understand that I'm not blaming you or pinpointing the wrongs, but I'll tell what I think it is

Ashima: okayy

Ashwin: You went to outstation work for a month, remember? I understood you'll be busy and that we won't get to spend time. But, as days passed, it was only getting worst. It's not like we have not done this before, we were in long distance with different time zones and still found some time to spend, right? This time it was very different. Nee busy a irukanu terinjum unna disturb panna virumbala. Aana do you know how many days I used to wait for your call, at least a text? I used to stay up till 2 in the morning at times, thinking nee veetuku vara late aagum and once you're back you would have thought of giving me a call. Adhu edhume nadakala. Then, I told myself that I shouldn't be overthinking it, think panna all kind of negative thoughts will get into our head and make us miserable. Adhukaga I wanted to keep myself busy, that's when I joined sports club and this weekend activities. Once I started it, my weekends were getting busy, when I come back home, I'll be tired to think of why you didn't message/call, I'll hit bed straight. I. found it to be of help to me, to stop myself from missing you too much. Adhu apde habit aachu, like every weekend epdiyadhu poganum ndra maari

Ashima: hmmmmm, so, you're trying to tell that I got busy first and then you? I started it off, apdidhana?

Ashwin: I didn't do it to show you that I can also be busy nu, I did it because I don't want the missings to turn into a danger for us

Ashima: no, no, I get that, nee yosicha alavuku naa yosikala

Ashwin: and now when you're home, off from work, you tend to go through the missing period more, which I failed to understand, that's how you're feeling, right?

Ashima: yes, like you don't have time for me

Ashwin: I missed my home, abby, what am I to do?

Ashima: missed your home? nee en kitta sollitu andha time la veetuku poirukalam dhana, why would I stop you from that? Leave kedaikalaya?

Ashwin: that's not what I meant

Ashima: then?

Ashwin: you, you are my home, abby. You're exactly whom I turn to end of the day, it doesn't have to be for hours, but just a for a while, on call or a text would do. I'm not saying it should be every day, that's too much for me to hope for, but andha 1 month la, just recall how many days we had proper conversation? Count panalam dhana..avlo less, barely 5 days, I think? I didn't like it happening, I wanted to talk to you about it, but adhukum nee free a illa, note eduthu padikalamnu irundhen, na mattum padicha enna use nu padikala. Vera vazhi illama I pushed myself for part time work and weekend activities. Of course, you had no idea about this, you were busy, aana ippo nee free a iruka, adhunala these thoughts are coming to you. I didn't expect you to have these feelings because naa nenachen only I have those thoughts. Adhunaladhan when you were moody the other day, I took it lightly, now

Ashima: ippo puridhu enaku, busy a irundhanala communication was lacking, but adha avoid panradhuku innum busy aagitom

Ashwin: yes, communication was the issue, there's nothing else

Ashima: I'm sorry, abby. Ennadhan work irundhalum I should have spared some time for you and for us. Took you for granted surely, thinking nee understand panipa nu, but nee evlo go through panirka nu ippo dhan teriyudhu

Ashwin: I'm sorry as well for hurting you and making you feel the same, I shouldn't have done that. Nee veetuku vandhadhum I should have spent the weekend with you, because I missed you as well, I looked forward for you to come back home. Aana naa paatuku velila poiten

Ashima: at least now we know where things went wrong

Ashwin: and we'll correct that from now on

Ashima: we will, but, how?

Ashwin: I'll not get busy during weekends, every weekend illama, monthly 2 weekends mattum I can go for sports, part time work kooda avasiyam illa

Ashima: I'll not overload myself with lots of work...will see what I can do to maintain the work life balance

Ashwin: (smiled), what else is running in your mind?

Ashima: nothing to me, you?

Ashwin: I badly need a hug

Ashima: (smiled, went and hugged Ashwin)

Ashwin: maybe we should have done this earlier before all the arguments, it would have solved it

Ashima: aana enna perchana nu teriyamaye irundhurpom

Ashwin: that's true

Ashima: notes?

Ashwin: yess, let's do it

Ashwin's note from Ashima: abby, come what may, we're in this together, we've seen enough, I don't know what else is there for us, but stay with me, we'll face it together

Ashima's note from Ashwin: I miss you; days are passing slowly; it's taking forever to meet you. Our phone calls are the only thing that keeps me going. Missing you so much, abby

They smiled silently after reading their notes, thinking how well it's related to what they are going through now. They hugged each other and said love yous.

Ashwin: I'm hungry

Ashima: again?! Ice cream sapta dhana

Ashwin: feels like something heavy is lifted off, adhunala kooda irukalam

Ashima: (smiled), wait I'll make something quickly

Ashwin: it's ok, we'll order out

Ashima: paravala, I'll cook

Ashima cooked noodles and fed Ashwin. Ashwin was surprised but he was happy to see her doing this, it's just her, this is how she chooses to show her love.