Soft Boy ✔️

Chapter Thirty Seven

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN: THIS FEELING

10 missed calls from Rina <3
23 messages from Rina <3

I woke up and checked my phone today. I'm pretty sure lunch na sa school at di ako nakapasok today. I wasn't really planning to come to school especially sa nangyari kahapon.

I get that Rina cares about me, that's why she's been calling me since last night and this morning too pero I just... I just don't know how to deal with everything that's been going on in my life. And the truth that broke me.

Goddamnit. How am I supposed to face Rina now? I feel so dumb, I feel so fucking dumb. I feel so horrible as a person. I can't help but cry again sa tuwing naaalala ko yung nagawa ko kay Quinten.

All this time, kapatid ko si Quinten. He's full blooded brother and not my half. So bakit kailangan itago ni dad ang katotohanan from us? Why did he had to introduce him as my half-brother?

Naaalala ko pa before, he first introduced Quinten as his newly adopted son and then revealed na he's my half-brother. Since that day, I've never been that mad other than that day.

"Fuck." I threw my phone into the door in my room sa galit sa sarili ko.

I am the worst sister ever. How can I... do this to Quinten? How can I treat him like this? Why did I made him suffer? I made my own motherfucking brother suffer!

"AH!" I screamed in anger and started throwing my pillows around my room. Galit na galit ako. I want to leave everything. I knew that I was horrible but I didn't know that I was THIS horrible. Why did I not realize how bad I was treating him back then?

I blamed him for everything, embarrassed him and made him the worst specimen to be born in this fucking world. I made him like this but all he did was that he treated me like his sister. He was so soft and nice towards me.

Ang sama sama ko. Why am I just now realizing this?

That I'm the worst sister and the asshole in this world and in the Diamantes?

"Ha..." A small smile drew on my lips.

"Haha...." I started laughing due to the pain inside my heart.

Karma really happens, huh? No... this is totally karma. And I fucking deserved it after hurting so many people and getting multiple suspensions. No wonder, wonder dad doesn't want to stay here and be a dad dahil siguro sa'kin. I'm the worst.

"Genevieve?" Rinig ko sa may labas ng pintuan ko.

It was him. It was totally Quinten's voice.

My eyes widened and tumayo agad sa kwarto ko as I ran towards my door and opened it, revealing Quinten in his usual casual clothing and his messy hair as if he haven't been taking care of himself since last night.

Why... why did I made him suffer?

Why am I like this to him?

How could I do this to him?

Those eyes, those goddamn eyes and his soft expression. How can I break him? Why did... why am I so mean to him? Why was I so harsh? Nasaktan ko siya... sobra sobra. I took advantage of him and his action towards me. I'm really the worst.

"Are you... okay Genevieve? I told you right?" He pauses at hinawakan ang kamay ko, "...na kailangan mong magp—" I stopped him right there and tinanggal ang pagkakahawak niya sa kamay ko, averting my stare from him.