Soft Boy ✔️

Chapter Nine

CHAPTER NINE: LOVE

Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko and I just went for it. I kissed him pero I didn't know how to kiss properly dahil I've never kissed anyone before. Kinakabahan ako at ang lakas nang pagtibok ng puso ko, I can feel his lips against mine. Putang ina kinikilig ako sa nararamdaman ko. Hawak hawak ko ang magkabila niyang pisngi at nakapikit pa rin ako.

This is what i've always wanted since the first time na natitigan ko siya and his lips.

Is this what it feels like to want to kiss someone so badly na hindi mo mapigilan ang sarili mo? I can feel these butterflies inside my stomach and this warm feeling. It's just so weird for me. I can't believe I'm actually kissing the guy I like. Yes, I finally admitted na may gusto ako sa kanya. I do like him.

I do like him a lot. Suddenly  naramdaman ko ang pagtibok nang isang puso pero alam ko na hindi iyon galing sakin.

I opened my eyes as I pulled away from the kiss tsaka napatitig sa pader. Oh my god. I actually really kissed him. I kissed Ares. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako haharap sa kanya ngayon, I literally just kissed him. Shet! I can feel his stare at me.

I turn my back against him dahil hindi ko kinaya yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. Oh my god. He's my first kiss. "D-Did you just kiss me?" i can feel him next to me. I have to do something before I start freaking out. Why did I do that? 

"No-- forget about it!" I told him, hindi pa 'rin ako nakatingin sa kanya. Jusko. This is a bad idea. I'm probably drunk, maybe I am.

"What just happened?" napatingin ako sa may staircase, it was Rina, her eyes widen in surprise at medyo maputla siya. Tumakbo ako agad sa kanya tsaka niyakap niya. Shet. I missed this bitch. Family problems nanaman siguro and she's here in front of me. I'm happy. 

I pulled out the hug tsaka napatingin sa kanya, "Problema mo uy." nakangiti niyang sambit sakin. "You haven't been texting me at nandito ka kasama yung lalaking yun??" tanong ko tsaka sinuntok ang mismong balikat niya sabay tawa ko. 

"We have to talk..." bulong niyang sabi sakin tsaka hinila ako, but she stopped tsaka tumingin kay Ares,

"I'll talk to your future girlfriend first, okay?" sabi niya. Nanlaki ang mata ko tsaka tinawag ang pangalan niya, "You!" sigaw ko sa kanya habang papataas kami sa kwarto niya.

It's been so long since the last time i've been here. Naaalala ko pa yung christmas parties nila here sa bahay ni Rina. It was very fun. 

It was the same room but older. Rina's room was filled with anything pink in it, she's obsessed with pink since she was a kid. I sat on her bed, it was really soft and cute.

"Did you just kiss him? Did you kiss Ares Jude Cardoza?" she asked, I bit on my bottom lip dahil nakita niya yung nangyari. Even I can't believe I did that.

"How? Why?" she asked, crossing both of her arms habang nakatingin pa rin sakin. How can I just tell her that I like Ares? This is hard to explain. This is too hard for me to explain. 

"Genevieve Diamante, don't make me ask again." she said, in a serious tone this time. I looked at her tsaka napasinghap bago sinagot ang tanong niya sakin, "Because gusto ko siya..."
I said, napapikit na lang ako.

There, I said it. This is so bad. This is the worst ever. She laughed, natawa lang din ang babaitang ito sa harap ko. She sat next to me, wrapping both of her arms around my waist, resting her head to my shoulder.