Soft Boy ✔️

Chapter Thirty Eight

CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT: NOT ME

As much as I want to stay home because of what I found out, I needed to do my homeworks and I can't be absent anymore. Gagraduate na ako, I can't be doing this shit anymore.

I wasn't feeling myself today either. Hindi ko alam, hindi ko alam what to feel about what I've heard from Quinten that day.

Quinten, will never lie to me. I trust him than that especially sa ginawa ni dad. I don't know what to believe at this point, ang daming nangyayaring mga bagay right now. And what if totoo nga, what if Ares was in love with Rina?

I mean crush, like and loving someone are totally different things!

If he really loved her, why...why did he told me na ako ang gusto niya?

"Miss Diamante, bakit ka nanaman absent?" tanong nang isa kong magaling na teacher.

As always, she's keeping the strict expression of hers and she's putting me on spot again. Wag ako, please lang wag ako. I'm already fucking stressed and I'm getting distracted dahil sa school, pamilya ko and now my boyfriend and best friend.

"I was sick." sagot ko. I bit my bottom lip habang tinitingnan pa rin yung libro na we are currently reading.

"Sick? Pang-ilang excuse mo na 'to? Miss Diamante?" I sighed. Ayokong manigaw today, ayokong masuspende rin.

I want to fire this damn teacher. She always picks on me on my worst days. I swear to god.

"Sorry Ma'am, I was really sick. You can even call my family if you want at this point," I told her calmly habang hawak hawak ang dibdib ko, trying to calm myself.

She crosses both of her arms against her chest and sighed.

"Fine, since you've been doing your best since September, it's good to see you doing good... Miss Diamante." I'll totally take as a compliment.

I just focused on myself today. I would have to.

Especially wala si Rina today. To make it worse, Ares still haven't talked to me for days. It's almost a week now and it's look like he's not even worried about at all. Does he not care about me?

I just need someone to talk to. Someone I could let go. Someone I could vent to. Either that, or gusto kong umalis sa eskwelahan na 'to at uminom. But I can't do that, dad will get mad at me for doing that even though I'm an adult now.

Class finally ends and it's finally lunch. I wasn't planning to eat lunch either way. I'm not feeling it today at all. I couldn't even eat breakfast pero Quinten was forcing me so I had to eat even if it's just a bowl of cereal.

Goddamnit, Quinten.

What am I going to do?

Hinintay kong lumabas lahat nang mga kaklase ko tsaka ako lumabas at umupo sa may locker lang na'min. I was the only one left. I'm alone dito.

I like being with Rina. She's the only one who didn't made me feel lonely. I may be the Diamante here but I also felt lonely. Because of how I act, who I am and kung anong mga nagawa ko. I'm the probably the only one in the history to get in trouble, got suspended but never got kicked out by the school.

Damn. Do I even deserve to be here? At this prestigious International school at all?

These days, I've been realizing a lot of things lately.