Soft Boy ✔️

Chapter Forty

CHAPTER FORTY: ME

"So... you're telling me that... A-Ares... was in love with me?" Rina said, stuttering.

I'm still sitting right across her while my eyes are at the floor. I didn't want to cry. I don't want to cry anymore. Ayokong nakikita ako ni Rina na ganito.

"Wait... Genevieve, your boyfriend..."

Tumingin ako sa kanya, nakita ko ang pag-laki ng mga mata niya and the way her mouth opened after ko in-explain sa kanya kung anong nangyari kanina.

She's the only one I can talk to right now. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko alam ko paano ko i-eexplain at first pero my emotions drove me crazy so I had to tel her without even thinking again.

"Genevieve... I... do you..." Tumulo ang mga luha ko ulet, agad ko 'tong pinunasan.

No matter how hard I try to stop myself from crying, I just can't let it go.

My heart can't let this pain go away at all.

"Rina... I don't know. I don't know. It's just... it hurts. It hurts na I have to let him go." I firmly said, now looking at the floor with my hands on my lap.

All I could think of is how to calm myself down.

Hindi ako galit, hindi ako masaya... hindi ka nalulungkot. It just hurts, but I feel numb at the same time habang tumutulo pa rin ang luha ko.

"Then do you hate me?" Tanong sa'kin ni Rina.

Tumingin ulet ako sa kanya, my heart breaking for a second sa tanong niya and her expression.

"Of course not!" Sigaw kong sabi.

My hands curling into a fist sa tinanong niya.

Why would she even ask something like that? How can I even hate someone that's like my sister!

My partner! My other half!

She's so important to me! Siya na lang ang dahilan ko kung bakit I never turned into a monster back in elementary!

She's like my everything.

"I will never hate you! I will never! Katerina, you're so important to me! You're really important to me! So... don't even think about me hating you... dahil hindi ko 'yun maiisip about you!" Unti-unti ko nanamang naiiyak na sabi.

I can't believe this is happening. I can't believe na i-tatanong niya 'to sa'kin. I can never hate her! Hindi niya ba naiintindihan 'yon?

"I... can..."

I can feel my heart fastened due to fear. I don't know this feeling, but it's scary.

"Genevieve, I'm sorry!"

Lumapit sa'kin si Rina at niyakap ako nang mahigpit, making sure na she's hugging me as tight as she could.

'Di ko nanaman napigilan ang sarili ko at umiyak. This time... hindi ko na rin talaga pinigilan ang sarili ko. I have to let these tears go.

I feel so weak.

I feel so... useless.

"I should've never asked you something like that... I'm so sorry..." She whispered next to my ears, niyakap ko rin siya nang mahigpit.

I needed Rina. I needed her. And I'm so happy na nandito siya next to me. I really missed her.

We both pulled away from the hug and umupo ulet across each other, her on top of her bed and while I'm sitting on her chair.