The things I did

Used

"Ughhhh"

     Your eyes slowly open to the sound of Sarah in the bathroom. Your roll over onto your side to check your phone. It's currently 5 AM. You roll onto your back and let out a big sigh before getting up to check on your sister.

     You get up quietly as to not wake a sleeping Becky and Lizzie. You walk slowly to the bathroom and lean against the bathroom door and look down at Sarah who is sitting next to the toilet.

     "Are you okay?" You ask as you walk into the bathroom and take a seat on the floor across from Sarah.

     "I could be better" Sarah replies as she leans her body against the toilet.

     "Do you want to hear about my embarrassing moment that happened while you were asleep?"

Sarah chuckles, "Oh god, is it bad?"

"I'd say it's pretty bad."

     Sarah nods her head, signaling for you to tell your story.

     "Well, while you were asleep me, Becky, and Lizzie were outside on the balcony talking. We got on the topic of college and Lizzie mentioned that she went to NYU for acting. Now, I didn't realize Lizzie had worked with you in Martha Marcy May Marlene. When Lizzie told us she went to school for acting, I asked if she was an actress. Becky looked at me like I had two heads when I asked the question and Lizzie just couldn't stop laughing. It definitely wasn't one of my greatest moments - as I never put the pieces together as to how you knew Lizzie."

     "You have got to be kidding me, (Y/N). How did you not know who Lizzie is?! I literally talked about her all the time when we filmed that movie!"

"I know! But wait, there's more to the story."

     "Oh god, there's more! (Y/N), you have me concerned."

     You roll your eyes as you continue your story, "ANYWAYS, Becky asks me if I know Lizzie's full name and at the time I didn't. So, Becky tells me her name is Elizabeth Olsen with an emphasis on the Olsen. It still wasn't clicking. Becky got so frustrated with me that she got up and left Lizzie and I. Once Lizzie calmed her self down from her laughing fit, she told me she was related to Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen."

     "I am so embarrassed to call you my sister right now. I think I have second hand embarrassment from this. I can't believe this."

     "Yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. Trust me, I was so embarrassed in the moment, I literally was thinking to myself 'How stupid can you be.'"

     "I must say for you (Y/N), that is pretty embarrassing."

      "Well, I'd rather be embarrassed than puking my brains out."

     Sarah gives you a dirty look and says, "Shut up!"

     You laugh at Sarah who is still hunched over the toilet. Your laughter stops when you remember what Lizzie did before you went to bed.

     "You know what's weird, before I went to bed Lizzie kissed me on the check" you say to Sarah.

     Sarah breaks her eye contact with the toilet bowl and looks at you. "She kissed your cheek?!"

     "Yes! I was honestly shocked and I really had no idea what to do after she did it. Even Becky saw it and was surprised."

"I'm not sure how I feel about that."

      You look at Sarah and give her a puzzled look. "What do you mean by that?"

     "Well, this really isn't my story to tell, but you are my sister. Lizzie is currently engaged and is getting married in literally 2 months. But she told me her and her fiancé have had some rocky moments recently."

     You are completely shocked at what Sarah just told you. Engaged? You were angry with Lizzie. How could she act the way she did and think that's okay.

     "Hello? Earth to (Y/N)? Are you okay?" Sarah asks trying to regain your attention.

     "Yeah, I'm here. I'm just processing what you told me. This whole night I feel she's been a flirt and I'm just finding out now she's engaged to someone."

     You feel confused, angry, upset, but mainly used. To know that she is engaged to someone and she flirted with you made you feel used. Were you some sort of experiment for her to try out to see if she was happy in her engagement?

     You needed to blow off some steam. You got up from the bathroom floor and left the bathroom.

     "(Y/N)! Where are you going?" Sarah asks while still sitting on the bathroom floor.

     "I need to think about what I was just told. I'm going for a walk."

     Since you didn't have any of your clothes, you had to go for a walk in the shorts and t-shirt you wore to bed. You went and put your bra on and slipped on the Vans you wore to the bar last night. You walk over to the bed you shared with Lizzie and grab your phone. You stop to look at Lizzie before you leaving. Even though every bone in your body wants you to be disgusted with her, your heart wouldn't let you. Something about her had a hold on you that you hated.

     You grab the spare hotel key, say goodbye to Sarah, and head out the door. You send a text to Becky, incase she wakes up while you're gone.

                                 MESSAGES:

(Y/N): You won't believe what Sarah told me. I'm so mad, I'm going for a walk. If I'm not back before you get up, call me.

     With that, you shove your phone into your pocket and head towards the hotel lobby. Once you reach the lobby, you walk outside and the feel the warm air hit your skin.

     You were always someone who acted on emotions and impulse. You needed to let yourself calm down and think the situation through before you did anything. You didn't know if you should approach Lizzie about it or let it be. Even though you were furious in the moment, you knew you had to give yourself a few hours to digest everything and see if it still bothered you. If you were still bothered by the news in a few hours, you would confront Lizzie. If the news didn't bother you anymore, you would let it be but you wouldn't forget it.

     Since it's about 6AM now, you decide to walk to a local bagel shop to grab breakfast. You make your way over to a place called O'Bagel. You walk into the shop and are immediately enamored by the smell of fresh bagels. You walk up to the counter to place your order.

     "Hi, what can I get for you?" The woman behind the counter asks.

     "Hi! Can I please have a plain bagel toasted with pork roll, egg and cheese and salt, pepper, ketchup?" You ask.

     The woman behind the counter writes down your order and gives you a nod as she grabs a plain bagel. She cuts the bagel in half and sticks it through a toaster to be toasted. Once it's finished toasting, the woman takes the bagel to the kitchen to be finished. You sit in a chair and wait for your food to be finished. 5 minutes go by and you see the woman walk back out from the kitchen with your bagel wrapped up to go.

     You hand the woman $5 and thank her before heading out the door. You find a bench on the sidewalk near the shop and sit down to enjoy your bagel.

     It was so nice and warm, it was the perfect way to lift your spirits after the night you had. You take a bite into your bagel and forget about all your worries for a moment. All you can think about is how good the sun feels against your body and how good the bagel is.

     Although, your moment is interrupted when you feel a buzz from your pocket. You pull your phone out of your pocket and see that Becky is calling.

     You swipe your thumb across the screen to answer the call.

"You won't believe what happened Becky."