Dear X,
Last night I had a dream where I was in the school hallway with my friends (I guess if you count Madi, Ella, and Tate to be my friends) and a bunch of people were running towards us. I started to hyperventilate so Madi grabbed my arm and pushed me towards the wall in order to avoid being trampled and making things worse. I put my hands out to stop myself from slamming against the wall and continued to freak out in that position, trying my best to calm down. Then, someone came behind me and soothingly rubbed my temples and my back. I knew it was Tate before he even touched me. I recognized his scent. It makes you feel so light, like you're on a cloud. It smells like home, it's a tiny bit sweet with a hint of my sister's house in there. Anyways, for some reason it made me breathe faster, so he stopped, thinking he made it worse. "No, don't stop, that was helping dumbass!" A direct quote from Madi. He continued, but this time when he stood behind me he was closer. His hands were warm, just like they always used to be. Then I woke up.
It felt like the night when he saved me from Dillon. I knew Dillon would do it, which is why I knew that the end was the end. I was so terrified and felt like I was going to die, then he came in like a superhero and saved me. Even after he left me and heard about how Daniel slapped my ass, Tate got really defensive of me and almost started lecturing Daniel. I will always be in debt to that asshole.
I keep telling myself that I never really liked him and I keep trying forget about him or point out his flaws but it's not working so well, because then something like this happens and remember why I want him and why I was in so much pain when he left.
-Casely
