Dear X,
I chose to just ignore everyone, that just seems easiest. It was going great until Ella used my weakness. I don't know why, but for some reason if you say the phrase "(Please) don't leave me." then I just fucking die inside. It's okay to leave, but it's not okay to leave someone. When you leave you're just gone forever, but if you leave 'me' then its as if they really need you. I've never told anyone this. If people knew then they'd use it against me. I broke the deal with Tate. I told him. He was mad at me. And I kept breaking the deal. I've been trying to kill myself for the past hour and a half and I hate myself for it. I'm such a fucking pussy, I can't do anything right. I think tonight will be it. I'll get to die tonight. I'm gonna write my note after this. It's going to be okay. I'll finally be happy.
-Casely
