Dear X,
Today at lunch my friends tried to get me to eat. They failed, needless to say. I felt bad because I know Madi will pissed at me if I don't eat so I ate a sandwich around 15:30. You know how I told you I couldn't possibly have feelings for Madi because she's too much of a friend? Well, that turned out to be bullshit. I'm not going to tell her, there's no point of it. She wasn't mad at me today, but she broke down again after school. She's freaking out and I don't know how to help her because I don't know what she wants. I forgot to check her this morning. I'll do it tomorrow. I have to do it tomorrow. There wasn't much opportunity, so I'm trying not to blame myself.
I woke up today half an hour later than normal. During the shower I played upbeat music and told myself to be happy, it worked for awhile until Madi left. I-
Look, I'm sorry. It's late. I got new medication, and I'm tired. I just wanna sleep. I'm sorry, I just don't feel like trying.
-Casely
