MAFIA QUEEN OR HIS QUEEN

XLIV

Its been a week since that day Shehnaaz was in delima, and other side her harmones were getting strong she was not getting why this was happening. Somewhere it was there age which makes person feel like that. It was Saturday afternoon, both were in there room.

Sidharth in mind - Maine sahi Kiya Kya usko wo movie dikhake, kunki muj pata hai main ye sab nai Karne wala na wo bolegi na kisi, nai nai ye main Kya soch Raha hun. But she is some where suffering because of that only. Should I speak to her. Nai nai Kya baat karega. Wo normal ho jaygi khud he waise bhi ye iss age main normal hai mere sath Jo hota hai cold shower se muscles calm hojati hai.

His thoughts broke, when she said.

Shehnaaz in mind - Kya karun usko bolun, kitna ajeeb lagega, aur waise bhi ye sab, waise ek baar bolne main kuch nai jata. Par agar Mana kiya to? Par Mana Kun karega usko khudko bhi karna ho to? Aur waise bhi we both are husband and wife it's ok if we share those moments. Par ye muj wife manta he nai na main isko husband. Kya karun kuch samaj he nai aa raha. Bolti hun waise bhi iske alawa to kisi aur ko bolungi nai. Hmm ye sahi rahega.

Shehnaaz - Sidharth muj kuch bolna hai!

Sidharth who was in his thoughts - Han bolo

Shehnaaz - I want you to share those moments with me.

This came as shock for Sidharth as he was known but didn't expected she will ask him directly but next moment he denied.

Sidharth - but I don't want to.

Shehnaaz - but why? I know some where you also want this.

Sidharth - it's true I too want but not like this.

Shehnaaz - like this what?

Sidharth - it will be lust and fullfilment of physical desire not love.

Shehnaaz - but we are husband and wife, and husband and wife can share those moments even though they don't know each other. Then why can't we.

Sidharth - because I want love making not the lust.

Shehnaaz - it is lost lust.

Sidharth - then what it is? Neither I love you nor you.

Shehnaaz - then won't you do till we die.

Sidharth - no.

Shehnaaz - Sidharth please think on this I'm ready to do all this then why can't you even you too have strong desires.

Sidharth - If your harmonal system is affected then take a cold shower or consult the gynecologist, that will guide you perfectly.

Shehnaaz - but Sidharth why not, you can do it right?

Sidharth - shehnaaz I'm a human being not a non living thing or your puppet. You did marriage for your own selfish motive before that even what you did was you. Then when I left you, you bought mom back, that time also was you being selfish. Where I'm. I even exist for you or not. I have doubt on that also.

Shehnaaz - why you are thinking like this. I only do as per your comfortness.

Sidharth - ho really!! When I was comfortable tell me one single incident. It was only you who asked me to do so by shooting the bullet by putting the gun on my mother's shoulder.

Shehnaaz - I agree I did that in starting but since last one month have you felt like that I'm doing for my self only.

Sidharth - I don't peering at you keenly.

Shehnaaz - but if you see there is nothing wrong if we share physical relationship.

Sidharth - Don't force me in this till I'm not prepared for it.

Shehnaaz - what if I force you again to do.

Sidharth - I can expect that only from you but remember one thing you will get my body and will loose me permanently even as your friend too.

Shehnaaz - fine when you will feel then only we will share this not before that. But when you will be feel like you won't will be hidding ok.

Sidharth - done.

After few hours.

Shehnaaz - Sidharth should I ask something.

Sidharth except you know.

Shehnaaz - Ya I know, should I?

Sidharth - carry on who have stopped you.

Shehnaaz - If I leave this butchering, then you will accept me like I'm?

Sidharth - can think on that but I'm pretty much sure you won't be able to do so.

Shehnaaz - and why you think like this.

Sidharth - because the tail of dog can't be straight how much you want to try.

Shehnaaz - you bloody marron.

Sidharth - see I told you, truth is always bitter.

Shehnaaz in mind - ab to main isse galat sabit kark rahungi aur ye butchering contracts accept to karungi but work will be done by someone else. Ya fine I don't want to loose him may be some where I have started liking him. After all he was my crush. How can I forget when we use to. Leave it that time won't come and now I have to prove him that I can.

Sidharth in mind - Kash ye Thora sa he normal behave karti hoti I would have given chance but jaise ye hai I don't believe ye khudko Thora bhi change karegi. Aur jis din Kiya I will make love to her my self. Par Kya main isse uss dandal se Bahar laa paa Raha hun. Muj to kuch nai samj aa raha main bas chahta hun ye slaughtering chhod de. Aur kuch nai. I think so try to Kar rahi hai par main ab bhi uspe believe nai Kar sakta. Agar ye natak Kar rahi ho to.