Desires and Secrets

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JJ POV... When Reid asked me again I knew I must answer, before he thought the worst.. I wasn't hesitating bc I didn't want to marry him,I was just in shock... and so much happiness was flowing thur me.. Finally he's mine I thought gleefully.. You lose Morgan.. Yes yes yes yes yes I'll marry you I screamed.. He picked me up and swung me around and around... He kissed me and then just held me.. I rested my head on his chest, listening to his fast heartbeat.. The heartbeat that symbolized his love for me...I loved been in his strong arms..I loved inhaling his special scent, feeling his body so close to mine.. This moment was perfect, beautiful.. the moment where to lovers have found each other, and would tie the knot... bringing them together as one.. for eternity....I wanted to marry him soon, I didn't need any family or friends, just my beautiful Dr Spencer Reid.. Jennifer Reid I thought smiling, sound so beautiful, so right.. I wanted to know when we were tying the  knot.. Spence.... he didn't answer.. Spence I tried again still no answer.. I looked up at him... He wasn't even looking at me, hadn't heard me call his name.. He had a look of pain on his face and he was looking outside... I turned my head in his direction and saw Derek.. standing in front of the window with Rossi... My temp went up to 105 degrees.. I pushed away from Spence hard surprising him.. making him stumble. Before he could catch his balance, my foot shot out kicking him in the groin... Awhhhh he screamed as he dropped to his knees... I ran towards the table with the gun, never noticing Michelle was running in the same direction