Revive [Harry Styles]

Chapter Thirty-Nine

Harrys POV

"Why do you have Jesse's phone? What did you do to her? She better be okay" I say a little aggressive.

"Just come over my house I'll explain everything" he sounds so calm like he doesn't have a care in the world at the moment. "I'll text you my address" is the last thing he says before he hangs up.

"Where's Jess?" Liam ask.

"She's at Nathans house apparently." the words feel like vinegar coming out of my mouth. My girl is at Nathans house. I don't know why I hate him but I do. My phone beeps and I get his address. "Let's go he sent me his address."

We all walk out of the house that's destroyed from the inside. The drive over there is silent except Nialls constant questions about Jess. If I had the answers I'd answer him, only I don't.

"It says it should be on our left side.. The address is 2230.. There it is the grey one." Louis points out like he's having a conversation by himself.

I don't even wait till the cars fully parked. I hop out and go straight to his door. I knock on the door quite loudly. She better be okay or else I'm going to smash his face in. The door opens and their stands Nathan without a shirt on and his hair in different directions. I clench my fist and my body boils from anger.

"Come in" he steps aside from the door and we all walk in. Not one of us is smiling or greeting him and I feel good that my mates are backing me up. Although I think they're backing Jess up in case anything happend.

"Why is Jess with you?" Niall is the first to ask. My mouth is glued shut from the anger I have at the moment.

"She uh last night she called me thinking I was Harry.. She was drunk well that's how her voice sounded" he begins. I swear if he took advantage of her I'll be sent to jail for murder.

"I heard like glass being broken in the background and knew something was wrong so I went over to her house. She had glass on the floor and her whole hand was just cut deep" he let's out a huff of air. "I had to take her to get stitches but didn't want to freak her out by the doctors so I took her here and stitched it for her. Then I fed her and she uh she fell asleep" he scratches behinds his ear and mumbles the last part. He's not saying everything I know it.

"What else huh what else happend?" I question him. I stand up and get in his face. He's standing to with a angry face.

"Nothing else that's all that happen" he says pushing me aside. I don't budge tho I stand my ground.

"Did you do anything to her cause if you did might as while take your last deep breath right now bud" I spit at him.

"She had a nightmare a bad one okay she was crying for a while okay is that what you want to hear!" He yells at me. I stumble back only because of how much the words hit me. She had a nightmare and I wasn't there to hold her or to reassure her she'd be okay, Nathan was. I wasn't there for her even tho I promised her so many times I'll always be here for her.

I look away from him and clench my jaw shut. The boys are silent, the rooms silent. It doesn't even sound like any of us are breathing. Nathan walks away and at that moment I don't care. He better put a shirt on that's what he better do.

"You can come to where she is if you want" Nathan says well at least now he's wearing a shirt.

He walks away and I take that as my que to follow him. We walk into a bedroom. And laying on the bed with her eyes shut is my Jesse. She's sound asleep and part of me wants to keep quiet and not make a sound but then the other part wants to bang things really loudly together to wake her ass up. I go with the rational side and stay quiet.

Although, she scared me half to death I can't deny the fact that she has me in the palm of her hand. That's a fact. But I also can't deny the fact that she's laying here in some other guys bed. She got drunk and called someone else. I'd be lying if I said I'm not a bit hurt because hell I'm hurt.

She stretches out her legs and soon her eyes begin to open. She rubs her palms on her eyes and that's when she focuses on me. The hurt in her eyes is their but also regret, guilt, and she almost looks unpleased. She drops her hands and looks at me again. I don't move from my spot. I feel unable to speak to her. What do I say in situations like this?

"Harry.. I-" she looks back and forward between Nathan and I. Nathan looks at her with concern. I'm pretty sure my face is emotionless due to all the mixed up emotions I feel. I could be in class right now not having to deal with all this. Not having to think about what could of possibly happend. Not thinking about her hurting herself.

"I'll just go" I say. Jesse's eyes widen and Nathan snaps head towards me. At this moment I have to many things going through my head. I'm not thinking clearly.

"No wait what why are you leaving?" Jesse ask she hops off the bed and comes walking towards me. And that's when I see she's in his clothes. My head hurts a little more my heart, my heart feels torn. She tries to grad a hold of my hands but I step back. I see the hurt in her eyes.

"I can't be here right now." I turn around to walk away.

"Just wait I'll I'll go with you let me get my things" the tone her voice is broken but I can't help right now.

"I want to be alone I can't right now" I turn around to tell her so she won't come.

"Just let me go with you" she tries again. I look away from her pleading eyes.

"I don't want to be with you right now Jesse you scared me I thought something bad happend but for what for me to find out you're here with him! You have his clothes on for god sake! I can't do this right now" I tell her the last thing I see before turning away is the single tear that slides down her face. I don't dare look back because I know if I do I'll be saying sorry I'll be holding her once again.

"Harry.." her sweet voice fills my ears one last time before I leave.

I walk out of the house keeping my eyes focused on the floor. No one needs to see my tears. I hear the door open behind me but I don't bother to turn around.

"Harry, mate wait up" Louis voice yells behind me. "What the fuck man!" Louis pulls my arm so I turn around. "What was that all about?" Liam and Niall are right behind him but none of them are smiling or being goofy. They look concerned.

"What man I don't want to deal with this right now!" I yank my arm out of his. "You don't know mate you just don't know"

"We don't know what? If we don't know then tell us because we tell eachother everything" Liam chimes in.

"How I feel about her you don't know how I fucken feel about her. And to see her in someone else's bed to see her in his clothes passed out the night before. She had a nightmare and I wasn't there to hold her or protect her. You don't know" I look away from them. I don't dare to cry. I may be a man but when it comes to her or my family I do become sensitive.

"Its not your fault. It's not her fault either what did you want for her to stay at her house and bleed to death the guy saved her life mate. And I know you're mad I know you want to storm out of here. But she's hurt to she called him thinking it was you don't forget that." Louis nearly shouts at my face.

"Yeah and how about that time you blew her off to stay with that other girl how do you think that made her feel? Huh? I guess now you know" Liam points out. Instead of getting the support I need I'm getting put in my place by my mates. I can't deal with this none of this.

"Whatever I'm leaving" I turn around and ignore the yelling that's going on behind me. I block out the tear I saw slipping from Jesse eye. I walk away from it all.