Revive [Harry Styles]

Chapter Nine

Where am I? How did I get here? Where's Harry?

"Harry?" My throats sore and dry so it comes out low. I look around and I realize I'm in my room. But how did I get here? The last thing I remember is talking to Harry. Where is he? I switch the lamp on next to my bed. It's pitch black outside.

What time is it?

I try to get up but I feel a shock of dizziness hit me. I hold my head and shut my eyes why am I in so much pain. I hear the door open but my head and body hurts so much I don't dare open my eyes.

"Hey you finally woke up" I hear Harrys soft voice fill the room.

"Yeah" I clear my throat cause it still slightly hurts.

"Here drink this" Harry hands my a glass of water and a pill that I'm guessing it's advil. As soon as I drink the water it flows down my through with no struggle. Clearing my throat and pain. I swallow the pill and let myself lay back down.

"You got me scared for quite a while" he speaks in a hush tone almost as he's scared to admit it.

"What happend all I remember is talking to you" I ask him a bit worried.

"Well we were talking and then you suddenly just passed out you were all pail and you just looked so sick I never wanna see you like that again" he let's out a small sigh "Well you passed out so I put you in my mom's car that I took to school today and drove you here I told your gramps of he wanted me to take you to the hospital but he said no that you needed rest so I put you to bed and now it's 4 o'clock in the morning" it feels like my eyes popped out of my head 4 in the morning never have I ever slept for that long. The longest I slept is maybe 6 hours straight but this was literally close to 14 hours.

"Oh uh thank you for taking care of me you didn't have to stay" but deep down inside I'm kind of happy he stayed and that scares me.

"No I wanted to stay to make sure your okay are you hungry I made you a sandwich I'll go get it stay in bed okay" and with that he walks out. Okay that was kind of werid. I want to shower and feel clean. A quick 5 minute shower won't hurt.

I slowly ever so slowly start getting up I get a clean part of undies, sweats, a sweatshirt, and bra. As I make my way to the bathroom I feel myself getting more dizzy but I ignore it.

Once I turn on the warm water and step in I feel so much better. I let the water wash over my body cleaning me. I get the shampoo and start scrubbing. Once I rise that off I put conditioner and then wash my body. My body was smells like vanilla with a hint of strawberries.

I step out of the shower and dry my body down and change into my clean clothes. I take one look at the mirror and realize I am really pale. I walk out of the bathroom to see a slightly angry Harry.

"I thought I told you not to get up?"

"Well I had to I needed to take a shower I felt dirty and tired the shower helped me feel a bit more awake and fresh"

"Okay I guess I'll let it slide since your sick but next time I'm not going to leave your side I'm going to make sure you get enough rest" I nod my head.

" Uh ca- is my gramps awake? Does he know that your here" I ask Harry.

"Yeah he fell asleep at 9 I think I made him a sandwich that he thought was amazing and then he just fell asleep"

"Oh thank you" Why would Harry go through all this trouble.

"No problem I slept for a little on your couch but I kept waking up to check on you to make sure you were okay" that was nice no one ever did that for me except for gramps of course.

"That means a lot to me thank you for everything" he could of just left me there passed out of the floor but he didn't why? Why parents always left me..

"Jess you wanna maybe just watch TV for a bit" I nod my head in approval.

We walk to the living room where Harry demands me to eat the sandwich and it was quite good. I haven't ate like this in a while I usually force my self to eat then usually end up throwing it up. Nothing stays in my system.. Just like no one likes staying in my life.

From the corner of my eye I see Harry drifting to sleep slowly. That's until his head fully falls back soft snores escape is lips. His mouth is fully open and a little giggle leaves my mouth by the way he looks. I'm slightly tired myself to.

So I walk to my room to get Harry a blanket. Once I come back down I notice that his snores aren't soft anymore their full on bear snores. He must be tired. I feel so bad that he stood up taking care of me.

I gently pick Harrys head up and guide it to the pillow so he can lay down. He mumbles something I can't really understand. Then i pick up his legs and take off his boots one by one. I put his legs on the couch so he's fully laying down. I lightly put the blanket over his body and tuck him in. I turn around and start heading to my room. Today was very different. Once I brush my

teeth I snuggle up to my covers and drift to a dream full of darkness that is comforts me in the most horrendous way possiable.

I shoot up from my sleep and rub my eyes. I check the time and it says 4:30 am. My room is completely dark no signs of light. Until, I start hearing movement in the corner of my room. It sounds like someone is tapping their foot. Maybe it's Harry?

I try to turn on my lamp that's near my bed but it won't turn on. Then I hear a low chuckle it's a man's chuckle. But it isn't Harrys. My body tenses I want to scream out help but I can't. I can't move it feels like someone is holding my body down.

Then I hear footsteps coming towards my bed. Making the floor creak. I feel myself shaking I don't even notice I'm crying until I feel something slide down my cheek.

A deep unforgettable voice whispers in my ear "Did you miss me hun?" Then I feel something cold and hard press against my neck. Before I can even yell he start squeezing harder. I'm losing my breath and start choking. He's choking me. His laughing loudly in my face. "Because I know I missed you" he spits harshly in my face. I feel myself losing every bit of hope. Slowly slipping away from life. It's finally over the fight is over. They won.

"Jesse please oh please wake up now!" I hear yelling towards my ears.

I shoot up from my bed. Sweat dripping from my body. I start touching my face and realize it was just a dream. I'm still hear he's gone. It's just a dream. I look over to where I heard yelling and see Harry looking at my like a mad man. He's even got a bit of tears in his eyes and fear.

" Hey hey its okay everything's going to be okay it was just a bad dream" I look up at Harry and for a split second I believe him.

Until, I realize it's not going to be okay nothing will ever be okay again. And I cry. I try holding my sods in until I feel to strong arms wrap around me holding me tight protecting me. That's when I let everything come out. I usually cry by myself rocking myself trying to keep it down so gramps doesn't wake up. But the way Harry is holding me I just cry more. I'm showing my weakness and I hate it. Right now I don't give a crap I'm scared shit less I'm tired of being strong I'm tired of hiding and keeping everything bottled up inside. I can't do this no more. I can't not no more.

I get up as fast as I can and go running to the bathroom. I hear Harry behind me so once I'm in I lock it. Tonight is the night I end everything.

"Jesse please open the door it's okay everything is going to be okay just let me in" Harry tries talking in a calm voice but I can hear the frustration and nervousness in his voice.

" I'm fine I just need to alone for a second" I sod the words out and shut my eyes hoping he'll believe it.

"Fine but I'm waiting right here till you come out"

Before I even have time to think I get the razor and cut my wrist so deep that just the color of a rose comes pouring out. I cry out in pain because that one went it pretty deep. The rose surrounds me in a way a picture can take your breath away. I hear banding and yelling but it all sounds so far away.

Till I feel someone one tug me up. Harry looks back and forth between my eyes and the cut. I'm scared is he going to yell at me or hit me. There's so many things going through my mind but the one thing he does wasn't one of them.