Revive [Harry Styles]

Chapter One

  Its hard to look at myself in the mirror when I do all I see is a broken girl wanting someone to hold her, tell her its okay, and that it wasn't her fault. But in reality the ant always gets squished under a shoe. Hope doesn't exist to me neither does love and all that bull shit. I'm just trying to finish my last year of high school till I'm free. That's if I don't set myself free first.

  I'm not a big fan of school. I'd rather stay home and be with gramps all day. But it is my last year and I want to make gramps proud. Even though I'm a bit nervous about today.

  I took a shower last night so all I need to do is change. Most girls where makeup but to be honest I don't know what half those things are used for sad I know right. I'm going to turn 18 in a month and still don't know what's what. If I did know how to use makeup I'd  put it on every day to cover my face.

   I change into my high waisted black jeans with a black Nirvana shirt tucked in and a blue jacket with white convers to complete my outfit. I look in the mirror and decide it will have to do. If I keep looking I'm not going to like what I see.

  I head downstairs to make myself some French toast. Plus gramps oatmeal. Once his oatmeal is ready I go down the hall to his room. I need to remind him to take his pills. Gramps is all I got he's really sick at the moment. So I've been trying to do everything I can for him. I even feel guilty going to school.

  I slowly knock on the door and hear some movement on the other end.

"Come sweetie" my gramps old shaky voice says.

As I walk in I see my gramps sitting down reading First Confession. My gramps is a short man he's 5'3 and has little grey hair on the top of his head. He has dark blue eyes the color of the ocean at night. He's 76 years old.

"Gramps you should be resting laying down." I give him a serious look.

"Oh darling that bed feels like a rock sometimes." he says while gesturing toward the old bed.

  "I know but you need rest here I made you some oatmeal and you need to take your pills okay?" I point at his desk where all his pills are.

"I know I know enough about me you look beautiful have a good day at school and tell me all about it when you get back okay? Do you have work today?" he ask with a smile on his face. I love seeing him smile that's the thing that's keeps me going everyday if it wasn't for him I'm sure I would of took my life that night years ago.

  "Ya I have work since schools starting I have later hours. I promise to be home as soon as possible. I love you Gramps muahhh" I give him an over exaggerated kiss.

  He chuckled before saying " I love you too so much more honey"

  I nodded at him before leaving his room. I go back to the kitchen and pick up my bag. Today is going to be a long day.

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I get to school is 10 minutes and  look for my first class on the paper near the main office. Then suddenly something bumps me making all my book fall. I mutter a few cuss words under my breath before picking them up.

  "Sorry about that my mate pushed me" I didn't even bother looking up at him. Just mumbled a quick mmhh before leaving those immuture dick wods.

As I made my way to my first class I realized its still pretty early. So I decided I'll go across the street to get a chocolate muffin or something.

I'm fairly short exactly 5 feet I have blue eyes. Pale skin with a bit of freckles. My hair is naturally wavy and reaches the middle of my back. Like my height I have small feet size 2 I have curves and a fairly skinny waist. People called me beautiful before. But I try to forget those times I'm not beautiful they took the beauty that was ever in me. They stole my innocence.

While I'm waiting in line to order I feel someone's eyes watching me. I should just leave. I shouldn't of even came.

I pick my head up and my blue eyes lock with a familiar brown ones. I turn away quickly but he grabs a hold of my arm. I try shaking him off but he won't buge.

I was on the verge of tears before some tall guy came and said "Is everything alright here your holding her arm pretty tight I suggest you let go."