Revive [Harry Styles]

Chapter Fifty-Three

It hurts the pain of it hurts. The pain of my soul being slowly sucked out of me and my life. The pain of not wanted to get out of bed or go out to do anything. The pain of laying on her bed and trying to smell her. The pain of not being able to hold her. The pain of never being able to kiss her again.

Everything felt numb everything inside of me felt numb. All my hopes and dreams tooken away from me once she fell to the floor. The feeling of happiness drained from my body. I don't feel anything now just anger and sadness and that's rarely. I want her back I want my Jesse back.

"Harry mate you need to eat something"

What's the point of replying? That's not the voice I want to hear. That's not the presence I want to feel. I want the joyful girl I wrapped my arms around, the girl who drove me crazy every single day but I love her regardless. The one who made me smile even when I was mad at her.

But now I'm in a dark room where everything fades away. And I watch in repeat the look on my baby's face when she fell to the floor. The shaking of her hands. The blood coming out of her mouth. The pain she held in her eyes. Her beautiful blue eyes.

It feels like everything in my system shut down.

"Harry, I love you"

Her sweet voice rings thru my ears every day. The smile on her lips when she played with me hair. The way her body felt against mine. Molding into each other. Everything about her.

I wasn't strong enough I couldn't save her. And it's all my fault everything's my fault. She's gone because of me. She's gone because I me. It should of been me who died.

She took a bullet for me. Her last words on this earth was "I love you". But I hate her for it. I hate that she told me she loved me. I hate that she took the bullet for me. I hate that I love her so much I'm crying for her. I hate that I finally found my soul mate for her only to be taken away from me. I hate that she's gone. And I hate that I'll never hate her that I'll never stop loving her or wanting her back.

Everyone's stupid words replaying in my head.. things will get better with time... it's okay to cry... I miss her too.. But you don't, they don't know what it's like you don't miss her like how I miss you time isn't going to heal the whole that forms in my soul and crying is all I do till I have no more tears.

You they them don't know how it feeling. I would of rather been hit by a car and put into a coma for years to come. Because at least in my dreams I could still hold her I could still touch her and kiss her. But the waking up part is the hardest. The waking up to an empty bed the silence of her not being her. The awful truth that the smell of her is fading away. Fading away to nothing. But she will forever be replaying in my head.

Two Months Ago

"Harry wake up!" Jesse jumps on the bed giggling while Harry pulls the pillow over his head. He was way to sleepy to get up.

"Mmh five more minutes" Harry mumbles into the bed. Jesse pouts her lips and stops jumping.

"But Harry I have a surprise for you" Jesse lays down next to Harry and starts giving him little kisses on his neck. When she notices he's still not moving she goes down to his back and peppers him with more kisses. "You know if you turn around I'll be able to kiss more than just your back" she purrs in his ear. Which only makes him groan.

So he turns around slowly. To see a smiling Jesse sitting on her knees woth only a black bra on and some black underwear that are way to small for her ass.

She kisses him lips once, twice, three times and then does down to his jaw sucking softly and down to his chest leaving wet kisses all the way down. And when she gets to his waist band she bites it which only makes Harry smile more.

Harrys getting hard just looking at her. He knows she could feel it to. But she only smiles at him because she has a plan of her own.

"Well know that your awake I have a surprise for you baby come down stairs" she gets up and kisses his cheek before walking down stairs.

"You damn tease!" He yells after her which only earns a laugh from Jesse. The throws his head back on the pillow. "What am I ever going to do without you" he mumbles to himself. And decides if teasing is a game she wants to play then so be it. He get up and walk stairs.

But what he sees is in total awe. At the girl in front of him on what she did for him.

"Do you like it?" She ask while tucking a loose hair behind her ear. She gets nervous one he doesn't answer right away. "I just thought maybe I'd do something you and-"

"No baby this is this is amazing." He stops looking around and focuses his eyes on her. "I love you so damn much" she smiles at him with pink cheeks.

He walks to her and lifts her up. She wraps her legs around him and kisses her over and over again. He feels his little friend get excited again and grinds into her. Jesse let's out a soft moan. So Harry does it again.

But suddenly her stops and kisses Jesse's nose once to put her down. Jesse looks at him confussed. So her kisses her cheek and whispers, "I cam be a tease to baby" which only makes her cheeks turn pink again.

"Uhuh whatever I'll always win" she says. But she has another plan in her head. She walks past Harry swaying her hips side to side so Harry and see. She sees a pen of the floor and uses that to her advantage. She slowly bends over to get the pen and makes she pops her butt out.

"Opps" she giggles to herself when she sees Harry bitting on his knuckles.

"Uhh I hate you" he says and picks her up to take her to the room.

Now

It's all memories now. Everything I have of her is all memories now. No one bothers to ask if I'm okay anymore because they all know the answer.

The source of my life is gone. So that's how I feel gone.

The end.