Revive [Harry Styles]

Chapter Fifty-Two

Harrys POV

"Harry are you ready?" My mum speaks softly almost in a soft whisper. I don't answer her which makes her sigh and walk away.

I stare at the screen of my phone. I look into the beautiful blue eyes that I fell in love with.

"Harry mate we're going to be late" Niall says from the door. I look up at him and see his eyes red and puffy. So all I do is nod my head and follow him out the door and into the car.

The drive is short but long. Everyone stays silent not even a single cough makes it out. Everyone either looking out the window or at their hands. While I keep my eyes locked on the screen of the beautiful blue eyed girl that I fell in love with. The girl that stole my heart with the sound of her laugh.

We exit the car and walk up the stairs to the church. While everyone wears all black. Not a lot of people are here but the few who are, are crying just as hard as the person next to them.

My mum grabs a hold of my hand and gives it a squeeze. A squeeze that I don't return. A squeeze that my fingers are unable to make a squeeze that almost crushes me. I try not the make eye contact with anyone. Just the beautiful blue eyed girl that's on my screen.

"Harry I'm deeply sorry for your-"

"Mum please just leave me alone" I snap at my mum who looks away ashamed. I know I'll regret it but right now I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to see anyone but her.

"Mate calm down" Zayn says. But I ignore him to. "We're all hurting just as much as you are but we need to be there for each other. For fuck sakes look at Niall" I try not to but I lift my head and look at Niall holding onto Louis shirt and crying while Louis rubs his back and cries with him. "We need eachother"

I get up to walk away from them feeling frustrated and annoyed. I don't want to hear their voice I want to hear the blue eyes girls voice that I fell in love with. So I walk out the church and I unlock my phone and dial the number I've remember in one day. It rings and rings till it goes to voice mail.

"Hey its me Jesse... Harry stop" her sweet laughter fills my ears. "Sorry I couldn't pick up.. Harry wait" my voice could be heard in the back laughing with her. "Leave a message.. Mmhmm I love you too" is the last thing you hear before the beep sounds to leave a message and I hang up.

I sit on the floor and take deep breaths push the pain aside. I try calming my breathing but it doesn't feel right I don't feel right this doesn't feel right. I may possiable never be happy again.

I rush inside and walk straight to the front where everyone's been but me. And I stare down at the blue eyes girl who I fell in love with. Only her eyes will be forever shut and I won't get to see her blue eyes ever again.

"Why why did you have to jump in front of me? Why did you save me! I should of died it should of been me in the casket not you!" I shout feeling anger and sadness bubble inside of me. "Why did you do it!" I tug on my hair hard.

"Harry stop please" Liam says. He tugs on my arms and at first I push him away but he pulls me in and I cry I cry for the pain I have stuck in my soul. For the love of my life. For my princesse. For my baby.

"I love her" I whimper in Liam's shoulder.

"We all did" he rubs my back and holds me close. Almost as a mother would do to a child who just got hurt.

"But I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her mate" I cry and cry. The pain doesn't lessen or does it go away.

I cry and when I stop I feel numb. She was my everything. It should of been me I should of been the one to die. I should of been the one to be in the casket not her. I love her with all my heart and soul.

She was my forever and ever.