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Chapter Six - a forgotten memory

Lillian pov

I pushed starlight forwards as we journeyed onwards, leaving the cold crisp North behind. Hyde continued to not utter a word, he just looked straight forwards the same as Irene.

Not that I was bothered, I enjoyed the silence for once.

It didn't force me to have to pretend I cared about what he had to say or keep listening to his pleas for me to change what I was going to do. Since the spell had taken effect, everything just seemed so boring and meaningless, how people felt or how they perceived me, it didn't change anything.

She was gone. And I was alone.

I was going to do what I wanted and who was going to stop me? I was going to do what needed to be done, I needed to complete my destiny, for her. For all the little girls just like her in this world, the ones who had their futures ripped from them.

However, as I thought, I did realise it was possibly a good idea to keep Hyde still on my side, even if all I felt inside was nothing. I knew he was important to me, and whilst I couldn't feel how much now, I knew it wasn't fair to push him away too.

"I'm sorry Hyde" I said calmly, continuing forwards as he turned his head to look at me, slight surprise on his face.

"What exactly are you sorry for" he muttered as I rolled my eyes, dear gods this was tiresome,

"I'm sorry for shocking you and talking to you like that, you have always been good to me, and you don't deserve that, especially from me" I said as I heard him sigh,

"Well I would thank you for your apology, if you meant it, but I can tell you don't. However, I'll take it anyway. Probably the best I'm going to get out of you in your current state" he said as I glanced at him, "Did you forget Lillian? I can control and read your emotions, and you have none. Your just a big hole of nothingness" he said as I glanced away,

"Very well Hyde, don't accept it. I was being honest, I did regret my choice to zap you, but if you don't believe me, I don't care'" I replied as we continued through the trees.

Hyde looked at me shaking his head as he looked back at his horse, "I'm not going to betray you Lillian if that is what you are afraid of. I'm not going to join their side once we get there, and after everything we've been through, I would hope you know I would never do that to you. Because I do love you like my own sister and as I said, I have my own reasons to stay with you." he said as I flicked my hair listening,

"But I'm mainly here to make sure you don't do something you regret, because I know your emotions will come back, one day. I cannot let you kill people for what you may believe is your destiny right now. You may be powerful, but I think you are forgetting how powerful Brand and Damien are too. They have had years to practise their powers, to understand what they can truly do, the last thing I need is something to happen to you, even if you are a bitch at the moment" he said as I let out a low laugh,

"If you think I'm a bitch now Hyde, you have no clue what is in store for when we get to Ezerene. And I'm not an idiot, I know they are powerful. Which is why I'm not going to go in there with all my powers at the ready." I informed as he motioning for me to continue,

"They don't know I have no emotions. So they will expect me to crumble when I see them, as they think all women do, but I have a suspicion they will be the ones to crumble. Six months is a long time, and I am looking forward to seeing their faces again. I will tear them down from the inside for what they did to me." I said as Hyde raised his eyebrows,

"I haven't not thought this through Hyde, realistically there are four of them. Evelyn is currently beside herself with guilt, as she should be, so I will assume she isn't going to be much of a fight. So when I turn up I will try to make amends, her mate Matthias will be equally unwell, watching his mate go through this distress."