Chapter 21

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They continued kissing for a couple more minutes before Chan finally decided to take things to the next level. He snaked his hand up Felix's shirt, feeling the boy's whole body shake in response.

He didn't know if Felix liked it or not, but he trusted the blonde to give him the warning when things got too much. He would've expected Felix to cut things off by now but he hasn't.

Chan's hand traveled up to the boy's hard nipples, flicking them lightly. Felix gasped in response, whole body shaking due to the contact.

Their lips still danced, while Chan explored every inch of Felix's chest. His body was so warm, and he could feel Felix's lightly sculpted abs and v-line. Everything about him was so soft and delicate. Chan could easily become obsessed with this boy. He was so perfect.

Chan pulled away, sitting up to finally lock eyes with the stunning blonde. His hair was messy and his lips were red. His cheeks were flushed while he panted heavily. He quickly looked away, avoiding Chan's gaze. It could drive him crazy.

Chan decided he wasn't going to make Felix touch him. He wanted to do all the pleasing today. He was fearful of his next action, but he knew that Felix would stop him if he didn't actually want it.

Chan hesitantly pulled the fluffy blanket away from Felix's body, it being the only thing protecting him from the cold after all.

Felix's first instinct was to grab tightly onto the blanket, fearful that Chan would see, yet he bit the bullet and let the brunette peel his favorite Christmas blanket off of him.

Felix hid his face in embarrassment, wishing that he could die in this very moment.

Chan's heart skipped a beat in his chest, eyes laying on the bulge that was visible through his very thin pajama pants. Felix was hard. That fact in itself made Chan feel many unexplainable emotions.

He felt frozen, almost like he couldn't move. Felix held his face in a couch pillow, chest going up and down quickly from his unstable breathing. Felix's body was beautiful, Chan couldn't help but admire it.

His shirt was lifted past his nipples while the waistband of his pajamas rested low on his waist, exposing the beautiful porcelain skin.

Chan's heart raced, slowly reaching to cup Felix's hard member. He felt his heart pulse when Felix twitched under his touch.

Chan lightly rubbed the outside of Felix's pants, applying just enough pressure to make Felix release barely audible moans.

The older man felt like he was in a fever dream. There was no way any of this was real. There was no way this homophobic man was getting hard from another man's touch. Felix hated gay people after all. Felix was straight after all.

Chan's heart felt like it was going to explode. He couldn't believe this was happening right now. He loved Felix, yet he never would've expected this in a million years.

Chan slowly pulled down the blonde's pants and boxers. Maybe he was getting a little greedy at this point, yet he waited for the warning.

Felix shook nervously, feeling his whole body exposed for the world to see, for Chan to see. His breathing became more hollow each second. He was painfully hard, leaking precum while his member twitched unwillingly from all that was happening.

Chan admired the whole package, shocked to notice that Felix shaved down there, not a single hair in sight. His pants hung low on his legs, exposing his beautiful milky thighs. His member rested prettily on his lower abdomen, twitching with anticipation.

"I-is this okay?" Chan questioned, checking to make sure Felix was still okay. Felix only nodded, finally uncovering his face and locking eyes with Chan.

The young blonde felt like he was in another dimension. He kept falling in and out of reality, unsure of what was real or fake. Chan stared into Felix's lustful eyes, trying to pick apart all the emotions behind his chocolate orbs.

Felix looked scared and uncomfortable, yet so turned on and wrecked at the same time. Fuck, Felix was so fucking hot. Chan couldn't help himself, diving back down to taste his sweet lips again.

The older male grabbed hold of Felix's member, pumping it at a slow pace, loving how Felix couldn't contain his moans anymore. His body was still tense, but he wanted more. He pulled Chan closer, kissing him harder.

Chan pumped him faster out of instinct, loving the way Felix crumbled underneath him. The blonde felt his end, stopping before letting his pleasure hit its peak.

"W-wait!" Felix said, pulling away and ripping Chan's hand off of his member. Chan looked at him to make sure he was okay. Felix grabbed Chan's hand, gesturing it down towards his ass.

"W-what?" Chan asked, not fully understanding.

"Please t-touch here too..." Felix requested, causing Chan to go weak. He nodded, quickly running to grab lube before returning back to the blonde who shyly waited.

The older man coated a finger, looking at Felix to seek approval. The blonde only nodded, gasping when he felt the cold finger around his tight muscle. He didn't want this, but he needed to know. He had to.

Chan slowly inserted one finger into the boy, causing him to throw his head back and groan in pain. "I-it hurts..." Felix cried out, a feeling of sickness pooling in his stomach.

"D-don't worry. I'll find your good spot soon." Chan reassured. Felix doubted his words. There's no way it could feel good no way in-

"F-fuck!" Felix whimpered, body reacting to a sudden burst of pleasure he had never felt before.

"Found it." Chan smirked, making Felix grow sick. "T-there's no way." The blonde moaned out, he couldn't accept this.

"It feels good here, doesn't it?" Chan asked, his confidence growing the more they continued.

"N-no! There's no way this could feel good!" Felix cried out, getting all the answers he had been wanting yet hoping against.

"But look at you. You're so hard. You're crumbling from just one finger." Chan seductively said, rubbing that bundle of nerves once more. Felix could almost scream in pleasure, yet he couldn't let this be true, he refused.

"Doesn't it feel good?" Chan asked, eyes glued onto Felix's. The blonde began to grow sick, realizing everything he had just done.

He internally panicked, hating himself for going through such lengths to get his answers.

He looked up to meet Chan's eyes, dick twitching at how hot he looked in this moment.

His mind clicked, realizing that the thought he just had was the final straw.

"Stop! Please stop! Get away from me!" Felix screamed, shoving Chan away with all the strength he could muster. He pulled his pants up, quickly running to the bathroom while he cried.

There was no way he was gay. He couldn't be. He couldn't like this! He couldn't like men!

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