As If I'd Ever Be Gay! || Chanlix

Chapter 31

Felix held Chan closer while they kissed. His body was reacting to Chan's touch. The room felt hot and stuffy and all the blonde wanted to do was rip his clothes off.

"W-wait." Felix said, pulling away and sitting up.

"Is everything okay?" Chan asked. He wasn't sure where things were going to end up, but making sure Felix was okay was his top priority over everything else. Felix didn't speak, standing up and guiding Chan to sit down on the couch.

The older man didn't say anything, analyzing the look on his best friend's face. Felix looked nervous, yet his sexy features also displayed lust as well. "I-I..." Felix choked up, looking away in embarrassment.

"It's okay, Lix. We can stop here." Chan reassured, cupping Felix's cheek and smiling softly at him. Felix bit his lip nervously. He really wanted to go all the way. After contemplating it for a couple days, he decided he was ready. He craved the warmth of Chan and wanted to feel his big arms around his body, holding him close.

"I-I'd like to continue." Felix blushed, playing with his fingers nervously.

"What do you mean by that?" Chan asked, heart rate increasing. Did Felix want to have sex with him? Was the blonde even ready for it? Was it even a good idea? All these questions clouded Chan's mind. He didn't want another repeat of last time. His heart couldn't handle anymore rejection.

"I don't really know..." Felix trailed off, nervously biting away the dry skin on his lips.

"Do you want to go all the way?" Chan asked, taking hold of Felix's small hands and holding them. He rubbed his thumb on his hands to help calm the blonde's nerves, which was doing it's job. Felix relaxed a bit at the gentle touch.

"I do but I-" Felix cut himself off once more. He was embarrassed to admit such things to Chan. He felt his pride getting crushed in the moment, yet he knew Chan was a safe place and the last thing he would do is judge him.

"I've never- had s-sex before." He forced out. He wanted to lose his virginity to Chan, yet he knew that he needed to tell Chan first before diving right in. It was the safest option. The older man felt his heart flutter in his chest. Felix trusted him enough to allow him to take his virginity? Chan smiled at him, pulling him into a hug.

"It's okay, Lix. We don't have to do anything drastic just yet. I want you to feel comfortable." He reassure, rubbing circles onto the small petite frame in his arms.

"I trust you. I-I want to lose my virginity to you." He said, hugging Chan back tighter, He felt embarrassed to admit he was a virgin given his age. "W-well then we can take it at any pace you'd like to." Chan said, growing nervous too. He's had sex with a couple people before, and aside from Hyunjin, he's never experienced this nervousness with anybody else before.

He was in love with Felix after all, and doing such intimate things with the person you loved for the first time can be scary. The older man thought about this moment more times than he could count, getting off to the thought and idea of Felix an embarrassingly amount of times.

The blonde bit his lip, getting to his feet once more. He stood in front of the brunette who sat on the couch. Felix nervously sighed, pulling his shirt off of his body. Chan stared in awe, marveling at the beautiful sight before him. He could easily swear Felix was sculpted by the hands of gods and goddesses. Felix looked away shyly while Chan admired his petite body. He leaned forward, fingertips burning at the feeling of hot Felix's hot skin.

Felix tensed at the touch, moaning quietly while Chan explored every inch of him. His body was reacting, causing him to grow embarrassed. The older man was basically face level with his crotch, so avoiding the big bulge in front of him was near impossible. Chan bit his lip, noticing the hard on Felix was sporting through his silky blue pajama pants. He admired how they hung low, exposing his v-line and boxers.

"I'm sorry!" Felix said, covering himself up on instinct. He cursed himself for putting himself in this embarrassing situation. "There's nothing to be sorry about, Lix. I think you're beautiful." Chan reassured, heart dancing when they locked eyes.

The blonde nervously peeled his hands away from his hard member, gulping when he noticed Chan reaching to take his own shirt off. Felix felt himself grow harder at the sight of Chan's bare chest. His porcelain skin was so beautiful, Felix wanted to touch him so badly. He licked his lips at the sight of Chan's abs, feeling his member twitch with anticipation.

"Come here." Chan spoke softly, gently grabbing Felix's wrist and pulling him onto his lap, causing the small boy straddle him. Felix gasped when he felt Chan's much bigger bulge against his. The older man was fully erect just like Felix was. His first instinct was to grind onto Chan, desperate to feel that pulse of pleasure once more, but he was too nervous to do such things.

Chan looked the blonde lovingly in his eyes, pushing his blonde locks behind Felix's ears. The connection they had was so intense. Chan was already addicted to this feeling. He smiled at Felix softly before locking their lips together. Chan couldn't believe something like this was actually happening. It had felt like he was in another fever dream. He hated how nobody was there to pinch him and remind him that this was real.

Felix wasn't going to punch or kick him away this time. They were both certain of that. Chan's whole body felt like it was on fire. The feeling of Felix's small hands entangled in his dark brown locks while his soft lips pressed against him was amazing. The way their members touched together, both twitching with anticipation made both men go crazy.

Chan rested his hands on Felix's waist, noticing how the blonde was arching his back naturally. He groaned, thinking of how hot Felix would look on all fours, back arching even more while he fucked him. The older man couldn't help but move Felix's hips, friction causing both men to moan in pleasure. Felix knew this was probably the gayest thing he's ever done, yet he could care less about all that. He loved this feeling and wouldn't trade it for the world.