As If I'd Ever Be Gay! || Chanlix

Chapter 30

It's been a couple days since Minho and Chan hung out and got drinks. Minho desperately wanted to know about all the tea, but Chan didn't cave in. He didn't tell his boss about Felix coming out and everything else they've done.

He didn't tell him anything because he wanted to respect Felix, especially after everything he's done to him. He didn't want to hurt the blonde anymore.

Both Felix and Chan were sitting on the couch watch TV per usual. Felix sighed, bored out of his mind. "Can we do something other than watch TV? I'm so tired of it." Felix complained, wrapping himself up tighter in the blanket he was in. "But this is a new episode!" Chan pouted, pausing the TV. 

"And I am bored! I want to do something." Felix said, rolling his eyes walking to the kitchen. 

"What would you like to do today, Lix?" The older man asked, shutting off the TV and giving the blonde his full attention. 

"I don't know. Also you never told me about what you and Minho talked about when you guys went out. You didn't tell him anything about me did you?" He asked, grabbing some juice out of the fridge and pouring himself a cup, "Want some?" He questioned. 

"No thanks." Chan said, going up to the blonde to meet him in the kitchen. 

"We didn't talk about much. We just caught up since I haven't spoken to him in such a long time." The older man shrugged, grabbing some of the snacks he had bought for Felix out of the pantry. The blonde pouted, expecting him to say more. 

"Are you sure I don't have anything to worry about?" He asked, taking a few sips of his juice while a concerned look danced on his features.

"I should probably ask what you mean before I respond, so what do you mean, Lix?" The brunette questioned, unsure of what exactly it was Felix was looking for. 

"That he-" Felix breathed out before continuing, "Isn't into you and that he doesn't know I'm g-gay." His voice nervously shook. 

"I didn't tell Minho about you being gay." Chan reassured. He watched Felix's face grow really red. He looked like a bomb getting ready to explode. "O-oh! And no I am not into Minho. Me and him are both tops. It wouldn't work out anyways." Chan said, realizing why Felix looked so upset.

The blonde sighed in relief. He felt his cheeks flush at the new information. "Top?" He questioned, though he already had a feeling he knew what it meant. 

"The one who gives rather that receive. The one who takes control. The one who puts it in your ass-" 

"I got it! T-thank you!" Felix blushed. His body felt warm for some reason. He couldn't control the intrusive thoughts that danced in his head. Chan always gave off a level of dominance that lowkey drove Felix crazy. Chan confirming such things only made his thoughts go even more wild. 

"How did you not know what that meant?" Chan questioned. 

"I-I don't know! Just because I am fruity doesn't mean I know all those terms you queers use." Felix said in defense. 

"I mean it's pretty self explanatory." Chan deadpanned. He couldn't help the giggle that fell from his lips. He watched Felix pout, putting his cup in the sink and walking away. He shoved into the brunette by "accident" while walking back to the living room. He looked back to meet eyes with Felix who was giggling. "Another one of your accidents, huh?" Chan questioned. 

"You bet your ass." Felix smirked. 

"You're so annoying." Chan said, running up to the blonde and tackling him on the couch. Both men giggled, Chan pinning Felix down by his wrists. He held the blonde's small wrists in one hand while he tickled him with the other. 

"Stop tickling me! You know- you know I hate when you do that!" Felix said in between laughs. 

"But you're laughing! You clearly enjoy it!" Chan giggled, tickling Felix's sides. 

"T-that's not fair!" The blonde cried out. "C-Channie! Please stop!" He said in between laughs, too focused to notice the fact that he called Chan by his nickname. The brunette stopped, staring deeply into the blonde's chocolate brown orbs. Felix's giggling died down and they fell into a tense silence. 

"W-why are you looking at me like that?" Felix asked, heart fluttering in his chest at the sight of Chan on top of him. The blonde nervously bit at his lip, the urge to kiss the older man becoming hard to resist. 

"You called me Channie." The brunette responded. "I did?" Felix questioned. The brunette only nodded, eyes darting from Felix's eyes to his lips. He licked them subconsciously, the urge to taste him getting too hard to resist. Felix hasn't called him that in so long. Felix stopped calling him Channie right after his homophoic tendencies began to grow. The nickname made Chan feel so many emotions. 

"Damn right you did." Chan breathed out, leaning down to close the gap between the two of them. Felix mewled in surprise, kissing the older man back eagerly. He couldn't help the feeling in his chest. His heart was beating so hard, he could hear it in his ears. 

Chan's lips danced around Felix's in perfect sync. The blonde's small wrists were still pinned above his head by Chan's strong grip, turning Felix on. Felix couldn't help but moan when Chan shoved a tongue in his mouth, invading every part of his wet cavern. 

Felix would be lying if he said he didn't anticipate when something like this would next happen. He couldn't help the thoughts of Chan that invaded his mind on those long nights alone in his room. He's been waiting to taste him again, growing euphoric now that it was finally happening. 

Felix grew less shameful of the thoughts that invaded his mind. He grew to care less about how thinking of Chan in such ways was anything but straight. Chan on the other hand couldn't hold back, he was almost certain he was the one Felix liked. The blonde wouldn't be kissing him back if that wasn't the case. 

The older man pulled away from this kiss, eyes locking with Felix's. His freckled cheeks dusted a pretty shade of pink while he tried to stabilize his breathing. "You look so fucking pretty." Chan blurted out. 

"Y-you really think so?" Felix shyly asked, looking away in embarrassment. 

"Always have and always will." The older man said, capturing Felix's lips once more. The blonde moaned, wrapping his arms around Chan's neck to pull him closer. He truly hated how he allowed himself to miss out on something like this for so long. He should've came out sooner. All those years of being so hateful and homophobic were definitely not worth it. He was missing out on so many great things, like Chan for example. 

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Thoughts? Opinions? I feel like I am doing a bad job with this fic and idk :/ im sad