As If I'd Ever Be Gay! || Chanlix

Chapter 34

Chan sat in his room, picking apart his closet while trying to find the perfect outfit for his date with Felix today. He ripped out a black t-shirt, sighing and throwing it to the corner of the room. He wanted to look nice for something as special as this milestone. 

They've gone out together plenty of times before, but strictly as friends and nothing more. This time it was obviously different. Chan rummaged through each drawer in his room, growing annoyed that he couldn't find anything perfect to wear. 

Felix on the other hand was in his room, getting ready with a feeling of giddiness that never left his stomach. His first date, and with Chan nonetheless! He had his outfit planned in his head, and a makeup look that would compliment it perfectly. 

While Chan was stressing out about what to wear, Felix was already getting dressed, ready to start his makeup. The older man searched through his closet, eyes finally landing on the perfect shirt. 

He grabbed the silky, forest green button down shirt, slipping it on and buttoning it up before tucking it into black skinny jeans. He complimented the look with a black belt and solid black shoes. He decorated his ears with his favorite pair of earrings Felix had bought him one year for his birthday. They were thick small hoops and he saved them for special occasions such as this. He finished the look with a chain necklace and black bracelet. 

He made his way to the bathroom, styling his hair and brushing his teeth before sitting on the couch to wait for Felix. The blonde was almost ready, smiling at his appearance when he was satisfied with his look. 

He made his way to the living room, eyes locking on a wild Bang Chan on his phone, too distracted texting Minho's annoying ass to notice Felix standing there shyly around the corner. 

"H-hey..." Felix said, catching Chan's full undivided attention. The older man put his phone away, mouth dropping wide when he laid eyes on the blonde beauty before him. Felix had on a black, knitted, oversized, v neck sweater with rips on all of the hemming, along with black jeans and chunky combat boots.

Light brown eyeshadow decorated his eyelids while green contacts made them pop. His left ear was decorated with a dangly earring that had a dreamcatcher on the end of it, which complimented his perfectly pierced helix piercings. He had cute little waves in his blonde hair too. 

Chan swallowed hard, almost drooling at the sight of his best friend. "W-wow..." He said, getting up from his spot on the couch to close the distance between them. "You look-" Chan paused, eyes darting up and down while biting his plush lips. "So fucking perfect." He pulled Felix into a kiss, holding him close as if he'd slip away at any given moment. 

He couldn't control the instinct to grab at Felix's ass while they kissed, eliciting a sharp moan from the blonde who pulled away with a blush on his cheeks. 

"D-don't get me started, Channie." The blonde nervously bit his lip, it was now his turn to admire Chan. He pulled away from Chan's hold, giggling at the pout on the older man's face. "You don't look too bad yourself." He said, biting his lips while he shyly skimmed up and down Chan's body.

"Well like you said, I shouldn't get you started." Chan shrugged, grabbing his keys and coat off the table. "Eat my ass." Felix scoffed, following closely behind the older man. "Mmm, gladly." Chan smirked, laughing loudly at the disgusted look painted on Felix's features. "You're gross..." Felix blushed, though for some reason the idea didn't fully turn him off. 

Chan drove them to their first destination, a fancy restaurant he only took Felix to for his birthday, but he knew how much the blonde loved this place, so taking him here for their first date was perfect. 

"Fuck yes! I love this place!" Felix smiled, radiating so many happy emotions. Chan was happy to see Felix so much more positive and lively. The blonde had his moments but they were so rare. Seeing Felix this happy brought so much closure to Chan, something he's been needing for a long time now. 

"I know you do. That's why I took you here." He smiled, getting out of the car to open the door for Felix. He shivered in the crisp winter air. 

Felix couldn't help the blush on his cheeks. Chan always did kind little gestures for the blonde, but none like this for obvious reasons. Who knew Chan could be so romantic? He looked the older man up and down before speaking. "Don't make this gay." He said, looking away in embarrassment. He wasn't used to this kind of treatment, so he couldn't help the shyness he was feeling. 

"I think we are way past that." Chan jokingly said, eyes forming crescents while he smiled. He held out a hand for the blonde, who hesitantly took it. "You're so fruity." Felix giggled, only for it to stop the second Chan lightly kissed his nose. The air between them was heavy. Felix couldn't stop the urge to kiss the older man, locking his lips with the older man. 

The kiss grew sloppy quick, Chan pushing Felix against his car while his cold hands traveled up Felix's back. Their tongues danced while Chan's leg rested in between Felix's, knee lightly rubbing against the growing bulge forming in Felix's pants. He's been holding back ever since he laid eyes on the blonde, and as much as he wanted to bend him over the hood of his car and fuck him, he knew he couldn't. 

The older man pulled away, staring deeply into Felix's eyes while they both panted. A blush decorated Felix's cheeks. The blonde was thankful they parked in a secluded area, because if they got caught he probably would've expired right then and there. 

"Let's get going, shall we?" Chan smirked, loving how Felix only pouted. It was obvious the blonde wanted to continue, yet they both knew they shouldn't. The risk of getting caught was too high, and while Chan found it hot, Felix found it terrifying. The blonde was thankful his sweater covered his bulge, walking hand in hand with Chan to the restaurant.

 "Fucking faggots." A man who was walking by spat, causing Felix to yank his hand away from Chan harshly. The blonde couldn't help the tears that began to form in his eyes the second it happened, heart growing heavier by the minute. 

"Fuck off!" Chan shouted back, watching the hateful man flip them off and disappear behind a corner. 

"L-Lix?" Chan questioned, watching the blonde's eyes glisten with tears. Felix began to choke on his sobs, using his sleeves to soak up the tears so that his makeup wouldn't get ruined. Is this how he made Chan feel for all these years? This feeling was horrible.