Y/n is the newest Avenger, she is a 20 year old bi girl who lives in New York City, she is an ex-widow who has escaped the red room. In the red room y/n got special abilities which not all are discovered yet. That is why she is so important for Drey...
I had crashed in Carol's guest room, she didn't want me to drive after all the alcohol, she gave me shorts and a t-shirt and now I am walking towards the kitchen, the fresh smell of bacon and eggs flow into my nose, making me nauseous
'morning' I say and stand against the kitchen island, Carol turns around 'goodmorning' she says and smiles, she walks over to me and kisses my cheek, I smile 'no drugs remember?' she reminds me of what we agreed on, yesterday night we've agreed on that I try not to use the drugs, I nod and she smiles
'here, eat up' she shoves a plate to me, I groan in my head and give her a smile 'thanks' I say and start eating, she sits in front of me and we start talking 'I think I am going back to the compound, I don't want to bother you further' I say and chuckle 'you don't bother me, but I think it is a good idea that you are going to talk with them' she says and I nod, after breakfast she gives me new clean clothes
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I save her number in my phone and I say my goodbyes, I get into the car and drive to the compound, I park the car and get inside, Natasha and Wanda are talking and sitting on the couch, Wanda's head on Natasha's lap 'hey' I say and walk to my room 'y/n' Wanda says and runs after me, I turn around 'yeah?' I ask 'are you okay?' she asks 'uhm yeah, why?' I ask 'you just left yesterday' she said, I looked over to the couch, Natasha was gone
'where did Nat go?' I ask 'to here' Natasha says behind me, suddenly both her arms are wrapped around my waist 'let us make it up to you y/n, don't be mad at us, just like old times' she whispers in my ear, she gives me soft kisses on my neck and I slightly lay my head on her shoulder, Wanda steps closer to me, I sigh as I tilt my head so I look straight into Wanda's eyes 'you won't hurt me?' I ask 'we never want to' Wanda says
'I-I don't know' I say 'let us prove it' Nat whispers in my ear, I nod and Nat lifts me up bridal style and walks to my room, Wanda following us, Nat lays me down on my back on the bed, she hovers over me as she kisses me, something triggers in me, she pulls off my jacket and wants to pull of my sweater 'wait, wait no' I say as I crawl backwards to the head post 'are you not ready?' Nat asks and I shake my head
She crawls to me and sits next to me, then opens her arms for me, I flinch as she opens them but when I look she wants me to cuddle with her, Wanda comes also on the bed as I lay myself down between Nat's legs, she is tracing patterns on my arm as we just lay in silence, I am just thinking, I have my mind blocked for Wanda.
- What if I stop with the drugs, am I able to contain all the pain I feel when I am with them...
- What if Dreykov finds me again, what if he controls me again...
- What happens when they find out I use drugs?
'so... what are we?' I ask 'just as old times, girlfriends?' Natasha asks, I stay silent for a moment, I take a deep breath 'yes' I say and look at them, they eyes light up and they both pull me in for a kiss, I give them a smile and we decide to watch a movie, I don't know what I feel right now, the drugs has worn off and every time if they raise their voice or arms I winch.
-A few hours later-
'dinner is ready' Friday says, Nat pauses the movie and we stand up, they walk towards my door 'i'll follow you, I have to do something' I say and they look at me 'we'll wait' Wanda suggests 'no need for that' I reassure
'no, we will wait' she says and I sigh in defeat, I go to my bathroom and grab a baggy that I hid under my sink, I inhale the amount and look at myself in the mirror, my eyes growing foggy, I sigh and I flush the toilet, then walk out of the door, they look at me and Nat wraps her arm around my waist protectively
we walk to the kitchen as I start getting nauseous, eating food is a problem since I have to act that I am alright, we all sit down and Clint had made a potatoes, vegetables and meat dish, we all started grabbing food and started eating while talking about different things 'so y/n, why did you snap at us yesterday afternoon?' Steve asks 'no reason.' I say 'are you, Wanda and Nat good again?' Clint asks 'yeah' I say, I look down and see that my sleeve is rolled up, I quickly pull my arm under the table, hitting the table with quite force, I pull down my sleeve
'sorry' I chuckle 'what did you do?' Nat asks 'nothing' I say and lay my arms on the table, she just hums and we continue to eat, soon everyone finishes and we start to clean up 'n/n can you do the dishes?' Clint asks 'uhm-' I say and look at my arms 'sure?' I say and walk to the sink, I carefully roll up my sleeves as I start to see my cuts, I decide to keep them down, I start to clean the dishes, my sleeves getting wet.
-Wanda's pov-
I am happy y/n is getting out of her room, although she is acting weird, we are sitting at the dinner table while the boys are asking questions, y/n answers them, suddenly she smashes her arm down off of the table with quite force 'sorry' she mumbles as she looks up 'what did you do?' Nat asks, I look at y/n 'nothing' she says and lays her arms on the table, now she has to wash the dishes, I stand against the table and look at her, she slowly pulls up her sleeves, then I see it, cuts, many red cuts self harm... she has been self harming...
I put my hand over my mouth to prevent sounds and quickly walk to Nat I grab her arm and run to my room 'bub what is wrong?' she asks as she closes the door 'y/n... she has cuts, over her forearm...' I say shocked 'are you kidding, please tell me you are kidding?' Nat says sitting down next to me.
