Journal

5/11/20

5/11/20- Good morning journal. Today has been such a weird day. I am doing this class last today and I regret it heavily. It is only 10:51 but my brain is done for the day. Let me tell you the not so interesting story of the day.

I slept the hell in. I went to bed at like 6:30 last night (I just passed the hell out). When my alarm went off at 4:30 I was way too sleepy so I put a timer on for an hour. I was gonna sleep twenty more minutes after that but I fell asleep before I could even start the alarm. I slept till 5:59 in the morning. I went from barely sleeping to sleeping fourteen hours the past two weeks.

I have no idea how this happened. It had to have been because I went off my meds or something. I do not know how I am this tired all the freaking time. Any way I got up and went upstairs to feed the dogs. I ate some penguin crackers and oatmeal for breakfast. I also drank my tea which hit different today.

I did chores and made my lunch like normal. Today I have popcorn, strawberries, blueberries, and carrots for lunch. I do not know why but that sounded really good to me. I am definitely gonna have to eat a snack later. I had a snack earlier but it was gross and for some reason it did not fill me up.

After making lunch I came back to my room to workout. That was pretty nice because it was a longer workout. Yesterday was a rest day and I pretty much sat on my butt all day. Today I did ten minutes of abs and arms, ten minutes of HIIT, ten minutes of abs, and ten minutes of legs and glute exercises. I was gonna take the dog on a walk but it is too cold.

I started my homework with History, then Spanish, then Geometry, then English, and now Creative Writing. History was easy like always but Spanish was a bit harder. Both Geometry and English were things I have done before so it was easy. Perks of being a goth/emo kid is whenever Edgar Allan Poe comes up you never have to do any work because you already read all of his work.

It has been a pretty mellow day. I am going to eat after this and see if my blankets are clean. My dog is old and an arse so he wears diapers cause he likes to pee everywhere. He did not pee on his bed but no matter how much I wash his diapers they stink. So now my bed stinks. I am going to wash all the blankets and then rewash his diapers and hopefully my bed room will smell better.

I will either continue trying to catch up on videos or workout because I am cold. I am a boring person. Honestly if my blankets were not being washed right now then I would probably be taking a nap. I am so incredibly tired for no damn reason. I have some meds that are meant to give you energy but they are so gross. I got them a long time ago to help with insomnia.

I was supposed to use a sunlamp and take energy pills in the morning so I feel more awake throughout the day. Then at night I was supposed to take melatonin at around six and then try to go to bed at 10. That was not helpful at all. The light barely worked, the pills made me throw up, the melatonin made me feel more awake and if I did sleep it messed up my dreaming, and not trying to go to sleep till ten made it impossible to sleep till at least 2 in the morning.

Back then one hour of sleep was a miracle for me. Now Apparently my body said lets switch shit up and only be awake for one hour. I want to go back to not sleeping. That was painful but at least I could do stuff. I can not sit down to do homework without literally passing out in my chair.

I definitely need to figure out what is going on. If I workout for a bit after this then hopefully I will have more energy. I might just nap and give in though. That seems so much easier. I am legit falling asleep while typing. I have to go chug coffee. I will see you tomorrow.