Journal

5/7/20

5/7/20- Good morning journal. Today has had a pretty decent start considering how tired I am. I took a couple hour nap around 1 pm yesterday because I was so tired. The brother woke me up and then soon after we ate dinner. I was still so tired. I had wanted to work out a little more and then take a bath but I could not leave bed.

I tried going back to bed because I was dead tired but for some reason I was too anxious. I did not fall asleep until around 11 pm or so. Then the big dog came downstairs, hopped up on my bed, then gave me one kiss and left. I think the mom came home and let her out of her kennel so she decided to give me a goodnight kiss.

Apparently the mom had a rough night. I got a text at 2:30 am saying that she had a rough night and her lady was really mean. She told me to take some letters out to the mailbox and that she would probably be sleeping in late. She did get up to get medicine this morning though because she had a cough.

Even if it is just a cold I will legit kill her if she gets me sick. Oh my god school is going to kill me! I have the weakest immune system. I started taking immune supplements a bit before this all happened so hopefully that helps. Since me and my boyfriend started going out ( September 19th) to when quarantine started there was barely a day where I was not sick.

I constantly had colds, I had the flu, I am 99% sure I had bronchitis or pneumonia at least once (if not three times). I just get sick so easily. Even when I started my fitness journey I got sick a lot. Now that I rarely leave the house (and when I do I definitely am not in a crowded environment) I have not really gotten sick.

I have had a sore throat for a couple of weeks but I am sure if it was anything serious then someone around me would also get sick. The mom also has a really weak immune system. The brother had asthma as a kid so that puts him at a higher risk but us, the mom, and the dad are actually pretty high risk.

I am sure we will all be fine though. On a more positive note I had an interesting morning. The other day when I was at the store with my mom I found this authentic ramen that I have not seen in other stores. I decided to try it this morning because I need to eat a bit more for a couple days. It was spicy chicken flavor. It was spicy because it had these hot freaking peppers.

I love spicy food. I especially love spicy ramen. It did taste good but I do not like the aftertaste of some peppers. I do not know how to explain it but I just do not like that flavor. Next time I will not add the pepper packet and try it because the taste of the noodles and the texture was so amazing.

Because I went to bed so late when my phone went off at 4:30 in the morning I was like looks like I will be laying in bed for the next two hours. It was only a little over an hour because my small dog wanted to get up. I did not want to workout right away so I went upstairs first. It was pretty calm.

I was gonna try to make homemade almond butter and eat it with strawberries and then I was like you know what I think I will do that this weekend instead. I came downstairs to workout and the big dog came with. She did not want me to workout. The small dog did not want to play with her because he was busy barking at his food and water bowl (they were both full). That meant all her attention was on me.

The first exercise was a plank with crossbody mountain climbers. She decided to lay underneath me and twist her body so she was on her back and she looked so stupid. Then she started kicking my stomach like okay get up and play now. She jumped on my back when I did burpees.

She layed on my arms when I did up and down planks so when I got up all my strength would go towards rolling her off of me and then when I went down she rolled back onto my arms. When I did tricep dip toe taps she stood on my stomach and made me fall. When I did planks with hip dips she would bite my hands or my neck.

I tried doing in and outs and she came and sat on my stomach and shoved her tongue up my nose. Later I was doing heel taps and she stood on my stomach so I had to pet her and do it at the same time. Right after that was more crunches so I had to fold my body over hers when I went up. She did so much more. My workout was 35 minutes long today and spent 90% of the time trying to make it harder for me.

I was not mad cause I thought it was pretty funny. It was also a nice challenge. But it did require me to take a lot more breaks to pet her. That is why I did not start writing today until a bit after 8. At this rate I will not be done with homework until noon. That is okay but I still want to spend some time outside and take another (shorter) nap earlier in the day so I can sleep tonight but I will not feel dead all day.

I think tonight I will also take a bubble bath because that sounds so nice and relaxing. I am about halfway through the two week shred challenge and I am doing really good so I deserve a bath. So far I think yesterday was the only day I did not drink a gallon of water or had tea and lemon water. That was mostly because I was asleep or trying to sleep for most of the day. I also did not do anything intense and the tea I made that morning was gross.

I have drank almost half a gallon already today though so that is good. I am hoping it will keep me losing weight but also help my skin clear up. It has been helping a lot but I still have a bit of acne to try and get rid of. I also want it to help with under eye circles. I usually do not have them that bad anymore because I moisturize under my eyes but sometimes my eyes are just pure black.

I hate to be one of those people but water cures all. It really is so good for you. I still have chronic headaches and migraines but since drinking a gallon a day most days it has been a lot better. I feel like water also helped me get rid of my sugar addiction again. Every time I wanted something really sweet I chugged water and that distracted me.

Sugar is good in moderation. It is 4x as addictive as cocaine though so when you start having too much or it is an everyday thing you start to crave more. I was eating so much sugar for around a month. I felt crappy and gross and I gained a bit of weight and could not lose it. I feel so much better now and it has not even been a week yet. I do not crave sweets at all.

I have been insanely sleepy lately though. It was not the sugar cause that is gone now. I thought it was withdrawals from my meds because I ran out for a week. I have more now and I am on a higher dose but I am still exhausted. I would give anything to just be able to feel awake and energized for a bit.

I think I might take some sleeping stuff tonight and hopefully I get some nice long sleep and I can get back to getting up early without feeling dead. I am going to finish homework and take the longest nap I swear.

I need to go work on my other school stuff before I actually pass out. I will hopefully have more energy to write about better stuff tomorrow. Maybe I should drink some coffee. I think I might really need that right now. I will see you tomorrow.