Journal

5/12/20

5/12/20- Good morning journal. Today's entry will be pretty short. Why? Because I am losing my ever loving mind. I failed a standard in Geometry. Not really a big deal besides the fact that I now have a D and can not pass unless I pass that standard. They are not that hard to make up but the teacher said they are posted as a module and they are not.

Even then I still only got a 67% on that quiz and honestly I thought I had done pretty well. I just need to pass that standard and then I will still technically have a pass for that class. There is one more unit left and it is stuff I have actually learned before so how bad can it be?

Besides that my grade in History went down because my assessment never successfully got turned in even though I had double checked that it did. I know he will accept it and everything will be fine but it still stresses me out. English is not that bad because I am doing a romanticism project on Victor Hugo but the fact that I still have to do a giant project is stressing me out.

I have not even looked at what I have to do for Spanish today. Honestly I do not even want to know. I think I am also going to man up and email my college about classes cause they never emailed me. That majorly stresses me out because I have to sign up for a test to take. Honestly I am kind of debating on if I should just sign up for full time college classes next Spring and get an extra early start.

I am a LINK leader now though which I honestly did not think would screw me over this bad. I have to go to the Freshmens first day of school EARLY just to play name games and tell them the basics of the school. I also have to do a bunch of online meetings this summer and have monthly meetings all next year.

That really is not the absolute worst. You know what is? Going to all the school dances! I have to go to homecoming and I think two other dances that really only freshmen go to because they think they are so cool going to dances. I swear to god if my boyfriend dumps me I am still dragging him to all the dances and making him suffer with me.

There is a plus side. This will look great on my record. Not that I really have to worry about getting into college but when I say hey look what I did in highschool and also I chose your college for PSEO and have been thriving (hopefully), then that betters my chance of getting a scholarship. Trust me I really need that.

Another good thing is that one of my boyfriend's friends is doing it too. She is so sweet. She is in my connect class and she is a lot of fun. Her boyfriend is also doing it. He will be a senior next year and he is so freaking fun. He is bouncing off the walls like me so this will be a fun thing to see. Those two have been dating for over two years and they are honestly perfect for each other.

Wow that felt amazing to get off my chest. I wish it made me want to write longer but honestly I am still stressed so I am going to go work on other things and hopefully I can make this all up to you. I will see you tomorrow.