The Lost Alpha Princess

Chapter 21

Edward's POV

"Well I'll give you the short version now and we can talk properly when we are all safe, I was your fathers head guard....." her head snaps to me and the shock was clear on her face, I took another deep breath "When you went missing he sent me to find you, he told me not to return without you. I've been searching for you the entire time you have been missing, that is why Even was so feral when we met. He is so used to fighting and being alone, we smelt something not quite rouge but not a pack wolf either. He attacked and was going to ask questions after, when you spoke through the link you freaked him out." I take a couple of breaths letting what I have told her sink in.

Her eyes start to water as she looks between me and Kane before her voice comes through the link "I don't remember them but I was so mad they hadn't found me, I thought they had forgotten me like I them. I never thought that they would be looking for me the whole time...." I cut her off "They never gave up on you Princess, I never gave up on you." I tell her with complete conviction. She lets out a silent sob before linking "But I gave up on them, I can't even remember them." her voice is sobbing.

I get up and hug her until she calms down, the rest of dinner is really sombre and when she is done eating Hope excuses herself and goes to the room. I never wanted to upset her but she needed to know the truth, I will help get her home and I will help her remember. Kane looks at me and sighs "That was one hell of a story man, I can't imagine what you went through. Hope clearly believes you, if she didn't she would of killed you and not locked herself away." he says looking at the bedroom door.

I look at him confused "How do you know that?" I question him, he turns back to me "She can tell when someone is lying remember?" he asks with a raised brow "I know she would of killed you because you if you were lying it would of been about the family she lost a long time ago and that would of hurt her, I've seen first hand what she can do to the people that hurt her." he finished saying with a shiver at some kind of memory. I look at the bedroom door and can't help but wonder 'What the hell did they do to you?' I sigh and turn back to Kane "I'll take the first watch." I tell him and he gives me a nod, as I head outside to check the area Kane gets comfortable on the sofa.

Hope's POV

As I close the bedroom door I can no longer hold back the tears that wanted to spill over, a dam broke and all I could do was lean against the door as I slid to the ground hugging my knees to my chest. I can't seem to get my thoughts straight "Please Hope don't blame yourself for any of this, you didn't give up on anyone or anything." Selene try's to sooth but to be honest it just makes everything worse. I tried to block her but she was fighting me, the tears had already started a headache so I gave up fighting with her "Yes I did Selene the moment I put that rope over my head, I gave up on everything you should of just left me." I sob through our link.

Her growl startles me "NO, YOU DON'T GET TO SAY THINGS LIKE THAT." she screams at me in anger "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME, I WAS A PRISONER FOR YEARS AND I DON'T REMEMEBER LIFE BEFORE THAT. I'M USELESS AND DON'T KNOW OR FULLY UNDERSTAND WHAT IS HAPPENING ALL THE TIME, YOU SAY I'M MEANT FOR GREATNESS BUT ALL I FEEL IS FAILURE." I scream back through our link unable to hold my anger in any more.

I feel Selene cower in my mind so I continue "I COULDN'T GET MYSELF OUT, I HAD TO WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO LET ME GO. I DON'T KNOW WHO OR WHAT I AM AND I'M FREE FOR THE FIRST TIME AS FAR AS I CAN REMEMEBER, WHAT MORE CAN I GIVE YOU AND YOUR PRESIOUS GODDESS?" I really am losing it I feel Selene curl up in my mind not sure how to answer my questions. I don't know how much longer I sit against the doors, my tears still freely flowing.

All I can think about is the family I lost that I can't even remember, do they look like me? Do they have my hair or eyes? All I'm really doing is torturing myself with the what ifs and could of been, I finally get up and head into the bathroom to shower again. I know everything Edward said was the truth and the fact that I had a family out there looking for me this whole time and I couldn't even remember them, that hurt so much. I had let them down, but they had continued to fight and look for me.

"You know none of this is your fault right?" Selene asked quietly through our link, I sigh "Not now Selene." is all I manage to mumble back to her. I feel her flinch "Look I know all this is hard for you and it has got to be confusing, but you are not the failure you have been failed there is a difference." she tells me firmly.

"You are not to blame for the actions and choices of other's so this pity party stops now, I love you Hope and I will be here with you I'm not going anywhere. I know I wasn't there in the beginning but I can't change that even if I wanted to, but I'm here now and so are you. We will find your family and you will get the answers you seek, but you have to trust yourself because you are good and worthy enough. If you don't then this will all be for nothing, do you hear me?" Selene finishes with so much conviction in her tone.

I sigh "I just need a bit of time ok?" I say but Selene doesn't respond she just sigh's before cutting our link. After a shower so hot it burned I get changed and climb into the bed, I feel the pull of sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. Its not a peaceful sleep quite the opposite it's all faceless people and panic, I awake with a start and feel more exhausted than when I went to bed. I drag myself up and into the bathroom to sort out my face before I face the guys, I can't be bothered to deal with all the questions that will come.

I walk out to the guys whispering about something and as I'm not in a great mood I just drag my feet as I step into the room knowing they can hear me "Look guys whatever it is just tell me, I'm not in the mood to eavesdrop this morning so save us all the run around and just tell me." I tell them through the link, Selene is still no where to be seen so I didn't use my Alpha tone. Kane looks at me with raised eyebrows I'm guessing at my eavesdropping comment so I just shrug at him "Ha good to see the sarcasm hasn't left you." my eyes snap to Edward, who now stands there looking quite awkward.

I'm not sure how I feel about him now I know the truth about who he is, I look at the ground before turning my back to him to face the little kitchen. I hear him sigh before his footsteps start heading to the bedroom obviously going to the bathroom, I sit at the little table with my own sigh as Kane comes and sits next to me. He puts his hand on my shoulder "I know this must be so hard for you...... But it's hard for the others that have been in this from the start just like you, it may be in a different way but it's still painful for them." he finishes giving my shoulder a squeeze before heading out the door to check around.

I'm lost in my own thoughts when there is a bang from the bathroom as if someone was thrown against the door, I don't even think before I'm up and heading towards the bedroom. As I open the door nothing could prepare me for what I saw, Edward was hanging lifeless against the wall. He was being held in place by a big man who had one hand around Edwards throat, the other was ripping his stomach apart. I froze for two seconds and then something kicked in Selene was still keeping quite so I was on my own, I grabbed the first thing I saw which luckily was a pair of scissor.

I didn't think I just acted when I jumped on the mans back and started stabbing him in the neck, when he had dropped Edward and was on the ground gasping for his last breath I dropped the scissor's. I ran to Edward and grabbed his head dragging it into my lap before begging with Selene for help "Selene please, I don't know what to do. Please just tell me how to save him, SELENE." I screamed at her through the link but she was still ignoring me. I spat at her through our link "If he dies I will never forgive you." before turning my attention back to Edward.

I cradled his head repeating over and over in my head "You are not dying I need you, and I will heal you." I heard someone approach from the hall and I didn't care whether it was friend or foe I let out the loudest most animalistic roar of my life and I mean it came from my throat.

While all this was going on I continued to chant in my head "I will heal you." I start to get a tingling sensation from inside my chest as if my heart has slowed to nothing more than the flutter of a butterfly's wings, before I can think about that I'm surrounded by a brilliant white light. The light seems to be holding me and Edward in a safe space, suddenly my mind becomes fuzzy and the light disappears. It doesn't fade it simply vanishes as if it were never really there, I start to see black dots and before I can say or do anything the darkness consumes me.