|Missing Love|

Chapter 43

*Shelby's P.O.V*

By the looks of how the outside looks, it seemed like it was about noon. I haven't been up for that long but I was woken up by a crying baby.

And since then, I've changed Adam's diaper, fed him some milk and now I'm currently cuddling with him.

Adam is the only person that I can cuddle with right now because Alden isn't here.

He's still stuck in that church alone and I don't know how the mission is going with Maggie and Negan. Are the two of them working together?

I'm just hoping for the sake of the mission that they are because as Maggie kept saying, we need that food.

I haven't eaten anything except two boiled eggs. It's not a lot but enough until I feel like eating again.

Even though eating those eggs wasn't a good idea.

Since right after I ate them, I threw up in the toilet. Isn't that wonderful?

I'm not entirely sure what's happening and why I'm throwing up. I keep thinking that maybe I'm getting a cold.

As if I need a cold happening right now.

I'm really hoping that nothing has happened to Alden while I'm here. I didn't want to come back to Alexandria, I wanted to stay with him. But he wanted me to come back here to take care of Adam.

If Alden can't be here for Adam right now then I need to be.

But a son needs his father too.

I keep hoping that Alden will be walking past the gates of Alexandria with the group and then it'll all be okay.

And then I wouldn't have to remember what had happened on the mission.

Starting with Gage getting devoured by walkers because Maggie didn't want to save him.

Seeing Cole, Duncan, and Agatha die right in front of me.

And then.. Seeing Alden get hurt and then he stays behind at a church so that the mission can continue.

Now I know that Alden and I shouldn't have gone on the mission. Since it was a dangerous one and I'm surprised that I didn't get more beaten up during it.

I still have the red mark on my forehead from when I got cut and my ankle was feeling better. There's still a bit of pain but it doesn't hurt as much as before which is great because I hated not being able to walk for a bit.

Aaron and Gracie still stay over just to keep Adam and myself company while Alden is by himself.

My brother keeps telling me that I don't have to worry about what's happening in the community and that he's taking care of it.

I know Gracie has school and she's with Judith, RJ, and Hershel.

I wanna give up but I know I can't. I have to be strong.

Getting off of the bed, I grabbed Adam and held him close to my chest. I walked out of the room and into the kitchen because I wanted to be able to walk around for a little bit.

Adam was wearing a blue and white striped onesie and he looked absolutely adorable in it.

When I was in the kitchen, I looked out the window to see the community.

Everyone was working hard, trying to fix Alexandria after what had happened with the whisperers.

I wish I could help but Aaron said that I don't need to help. He just wants me to focus on Alden.